(Minghui.org) Some practitioners close to me were subjected to varying degrees of interference in the summer of 2018. Some had serious symptoms of illness karma, with one practitioner passing away suddenly. This made me feel a strong sense of urgency. I felt very sorry for the practitioner who left us and was worried about the others suffering from illness karma. I was moved by sentimentality as a result of those negative thoughts.
On May 3, 2019, I suddenly felt that my neck was itchy. I felt a few red bumps in the area, though I didn’t think much of it. That night, a few practitioners and I rode motorcycles to the nearby countryside to hand out truth-clarification materials. On our way back, I could feel the wind blowing over my head and shoulders, making me feel cold and numb. After I came home and took a rest, I realized that the area with the small red bumps was extremely itchy. When I took a closer look, I saw that the bumps had grown into a large cluster of blisters.
My mother lived with me at the time, and seeing that it had developed so fast, she shared with me that this was referred to as a “snake sore” in folk terms. Then she helped me send forth righteous thoughts. I didn’t take it very seriously, thinking it was impossible for a practitioner to develop an illness like that.
I thought I would just use a needle to break the blisters. Unexpectedly, the fluid wept onto the surrounding skin and caused more blisters to develop. They were red and swollen. It made me feel sick just looking at them.
Gradually, the blisters spread down the right side of my chest and onto my right arm to the elbow. They also traveled from the right side of my back all the way up to the back of my right ear. They also covered my scalp, neck, lower jaw, and face. Wherever the blisters were, the infected area was swollen, purple and grey. The original area where I had broken the blisters with a needle had turned dark purple and began to fester. More prominently, there was a two centimeter long sore on my neck with pus flowing out of it. An area on my collarbone also began to fester.
At our Fa study group, I was in so much pain that I couldn’t sit still. But I still managed to sit up, however, and when I couldn’t sit any longer, I lay down to take a break, then resumed Fa-study as soon as I sat up.
At night, I was in so much pain that I could only sleep for a couple of hours. The pain was mostly in my head and legs. Some people said that when blisters develop in the heart area and connect with those coming down from the tip of one’s head, one has little chance of survival.
At that time, I didn’t have the word “illness” in my mind. I wouldn't acknowledge anything that the old forces imposed upon me, or that I had the so-called snake sore. I am a Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple. I only believe in Master Li Hongzhi and Dafa.
“When disciples have ample righteous thoughtsMaster has the power to turn back the tide”(“The Master-Disciple Bond” in Hong Yin Vol. II)
With Master and Dafa here, what was I afraid of? The blisters caused me great pain in the right side of my head and cramping in my right leg. As a result, I needed help to stand and walk. However, I didn’t treat myself as someone who needed to be taken care of. Except for cooking, I tried to take care of everything on my own. Moreover, I treated myself as a practitioner at all times.
I was still doing the exercises every day. When I almost couldn’t endure it, I would just grit my teeth and carry on. Once I experienced extreme pain after sitting in the lotus position for less than five minutes. I thought that regardless of how much pain I had to suffer, I must stick with it to the end. So I continued to sit in meditation.
The next time I looked at the clock, only eight minutes had passed. I began to recite quietly in my mind, “Nothing is truly unbearable or impossible.” (“The Ninth Talk” Zhuan Falun) I was able to continue and endure it bit by bit. I quietly recited, “What’s there to fear? My body would still sit there even with my head cut off.” (“Huge Exposure” in Essentials for Further Advancement) In this way, I managed to continue the fifth exercise to the end. By that time, I was soaking wet.
My family witnessed how miraculous Dafa is through my experiences. They also acknowledged that I was Dafa practitioner and didn’t ask me to go to the hospital. My daughter-in-law suggested, “Mom, why don’t you find a few practitioners to study the Fa with you? I am asking because you have made breakthroughs in many trials and tribulations in the past, but this time I am not so sure.”
My husband offered to invite some practitioners over, and one practitioner agreed to come. Another practitioner happened to be coming for a visit, and the three of us studied the Fa and sent righteous thoughts together. They also helped me look inward.
At that time, my legs were in so much pain that I couldn’t sit in the lotus position. As soon as I began to fold my legs, the pain became extreme. I’d stick to the end of sending righteous thoughts no matter how difficult it was. I knew my shortcomings must have been taken advantage of. But as a Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple I should not be moved by illusions. So I began to study the Fa, do the exercises, and send righteous thoughts in a more intensive way. I was also looking inward for the shortcomings in my cultivation.
During this process, I managed to find many bad notions and attachments, including resentment, jealousy, feeling unfairly treated, and saving face. What really stood out was fear and suspicion. Although other practitioners have previously pointed these shortcomings out to me multiple times, I haven’t been able to completely get rid of all of them. Moreover, I didn’t take Fa-study to heart for a while. All in all, I wasn’t diligent enough in my cultivation. Though I have been doing the three things, I always felt tired as opposed to being very relaxed like when I first began to cultivate. I quietly made up my mind that, even though I had omissions in my cultivation, I’d be rectified by the Fa and never allow the old forces to interfere with me like this.
That evening I burned incense in front of Master’s picture and asked Master to strengthen my righteous thoughts. I became teary and said to Master, “Master, please help your disciple. No matter what kind of attachments, negative thinking, or notions I have, I’ll be rectified by the Fa. I will never accept anything the old forces impose on me. I’ll only walk the path you arranged for me.” I knew Master was by my side to protect me.
Practitioners started coming to see me. Then more and more practitioners came. In the beginning, they read the Fa one after another. When they saw that I was in so much pain that I had a hard time continuing with the Fa-study, someone suggested that all of them read together out loud.
From then on, I had a full house of practitioners reading Zhuan Falun to me every day. The process of reading the Fa together was also a process of cultivating ourselves. Those who read more slowly than others needed to catch up, whereas those who always read at a faster pace had to slow down. Thus everyone ended up reading at a similar pace, and the overall environment was one of great harmony. The entire field was pure and peaceful, with all of us immersed in it. I could feel Master was right by my side.
When I couldn’t sit for any longer, I’d alternate between kneeling down and sitting with my legs out. Sometimes I’d also support my head with one hand while moving my leg with the other hand. I kept switching between these two positions to keep from lying down. We also sent righteous thoughts every hour. Though it was hot outside, practitioners sat for half a day or even a full day straight without taking a lunch break. In some practitioners’ cases, they had to stop taking care of their household chores to attend our Fa-study.
During those days of intensive Fa-study, empowered by Master, and with the overall cooperation of practitioners, I experienced daily transformations. Other practitioners who were in the field went through physical transformations as well.
For instance, one practitioner who came had an issue with weeping and swollen eyes. Her problem went away after a few days. The corner of another practitioner’s right eye had festered for nearly two years. It also healed. More miraculously, my daughter-in-law brought over my three-year-old grandson and few-months-old granddaughter that had fevers to have them listen to the Fa. In a few days, their fevers were gone without taking any medication. From this alone, one can see how important it is to have the group Fa-study environment that Master established for us.
On the third day, the blisters started to heal, and I got better day by day. On the seventh day, most of them were healed. In under two weeks, the so-called snake sore, which would have cost a large amount of money to treat, was healed without treatment. During that time, I did the five sets of exercises twice daily.
In addition, my husband never pushed me to go to the hospital. He even offered to help me get in touch with other practitioners. This was because he had witnessed how miraculous Dafa is. He himself has benefited from Dafa multiple times.
Every day there were more than a dozen practitioners coming in and out of my house for Fa-study. All of them were warmly welcomed by my family, and my daughter-in-law prepared fruit for them every day. My son and daughter-in-law took care of the household chores and babysitting so I could fully devote myself to Fa-study. None of my family members ever felt insecure about holding an intensive Fa-study group at my home in the current environment of persecution in China.
I felt truly grateful for the selfless contribution of fellow practitioners. They took the initiative to work well with one another and form a group Fa-study environment which demonstrated the miraculous power of Dafa and helped me to strengthen my righteous thoughts and actions and make a breakthrough during a life-threatening tribulation. I truly appreciate Master’s benevolent protection and his suffering for those disciples that are experiencing tribulations. Only through working diligently, can I be worthy of Master’s saving grace!