(Minghui.org) It is important for a Falun Dafa practitioner to improve their xinxing during cultivation, think of others needs first, and tell people about Dafa and the unprecedented persecution. It is not easy to cultivate into a good person, as one is hampered by human notions. But, by being diligent and looking for one's shortcomings, one will succeed in becoming a better person while showing others the goodness of Dafa.
When writing “forbearance” in Chinese characters, the upper half represents a “knife.” During my cultivation, the most difficult issue for me is “forbearance.” I truly try to be “tolerant,” but instead am uncomfortable, feel that I am wronged, and my mind is not peaceful. However, under Master's guidance, I achieved a certain degree of tolerance, and understand how “forbearance” makes one feel light.
Not so long ago, I did not do well when it came to forbearance. When my husband asked me to withdraw 10,000 yuan from a bank I waited in a long line of customers to withdraw the money. Then, I was told that I was in the wrong line and had to move to another window. When I finally reached the window, after waiting in another long line, I was told to withdraw the money at the window I was at earlier.
I was annoyed and told him to serve me. He called his manager and after being told to use a fake number at the other window, I stormed out of the bank unhappy, refusing to withdraw any money.
At home, my husband needed the money and made me even angrier, so I told him that I had missed two hours of Fa study, which means an entire Fa lecture.
Then, I realized that I was in the wrong, and felt regret, as I did not follow the Fa principles.
Master said,
“Why do you encounter these problems? They are all caused by your own karma. We have already eliminated for you many, numerous pieces of it, leaving only that tiny bit which is divided into tribulations at different levels for upgrading your xinxing, tempering your mind, and removing your different attachments. These are all your own tribulations that we use to improve your xinxing, and you will be able to overcome them.” (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)
When conflicts happened, I didn't act like a practitioner – I failed the test.
It was time to look inside. I remembered that Master gave me a hint when I woke up in the morning. I saw a very big lotus seat, climbed onto it, and sat in the middle. I felt very comfortable and was very happy. Suddenly, the lotus plate started to spin so quickly that I was afraid I would be thrown off. Although I held onto the edge, I was thrown off after a minute. This helped me realize that I had to improve in my cultivation.
At the bank, I didn't forbear, and at home, I took my anger out on my husband. I was so regretful. I kept on reminding myself to follow the Dafa principles of “Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance.” Master said, “When it looks impossible and is said to be impossible, give it a try and see if it is possible.” (Lecture Nine, Zhuan Falun)
From then on, whenever I felt that I couldn't be tolerant, I would treat the situation with compassion. When my husband scolded me, I tolerated it. When I could forbear, I felt that my body became very light, and my feet were about to leave the ground. I also felt many Falun rotating around my stomach, back, hands, head, and legs. I also saw that the characters in the words Zhuan Falun were shining, and each character was Master's image. It was Master encouraging me.
Worried, given the persecution of Falun Dafa practitioners, my parents and parents-in-law stop me from clarifying the truth in the streets. I talked to them about Falun Dafa and its preciousness, but they refused to listen. However, I never was upset about this at home. I follow the Dafa principles and am a good daughter-in-law, good daughter, good wife and good mother. Outside my home, I behave as a good person should and thus show people the goodness of a Dafa practitioner.
My father is a senior communist party member, he refused to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). After three years of telling him about Dafa, and the persecution, he and my family quit the Party and its youth organizations. Even more importantly, they filed a lawsuit against Jiang Zemin, the former head of the communist regime, for persecuting Falun Dafa practitioners.
My mother-in-law was diagnosed with a cerebral infarction and diabetes in 2008. She was hospitalized a couple of times every year. She was again hospitalized in 2015, and doctors were not hopeful, telling her that she might become paralyzed.
Because of excruciating back pain, she became bedridden and had to be helped with everything. I told her that Dafa was wonderful, and how I benefited from practicing it.
I had given her a Dafa amulet a few years earlier, which she wore all the time. However, someone later badmouthed Dafa in front of her, and she threw away the amulet out of fear.
I encouraged her, and said, “Don't be scared, no one can harm you. If you recite 'Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance is good', you will recover soon.” Then, I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evils behind her. She started to recite these two sentences, and she could get up by herself and go to the bathroom after three days.
The doctor told me that she had to be hospitalized for at least one month. However, she was discharged after two weeks. Since then, she no longer needed hospitalization.
My father-in-law shelled 200 peanuts for her and told her to recite the Dafa sentences whenever she picked up one peanut. Then, she could take a break. Now she does this three times a day and recites the words 600 times a day.
When my mother-in-law was in the hospital, there was a couple that was over 70 years old in the same ward. One of them had fallen while picking oranges from a tree and had a comminuted fracture.
When I was clarifying the truth to my mother-in-law, they also heard what I said. They also recited, “Falun Dafa is good; Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance is good.” I gave them an amulet, clarified the truth, and persuaded them to quit the Party, which they did.
I overheard them talking about harvesting oranges. They were worried, as over 5,000 kg of oranges needed to be harvested, but there was no one who could help. They didn't tell their children, as they worked far away from their hometown because they didn't want them to worry.
The one with the comminuted fracture said the next day, “The pain killer was useless, but after I recited Falun Dafa is good; Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance is good, I no longer was in pain. It is so amazing. On the fourth day, the injured person was discharged.
My mother fell in 2016, broke her back, and had to be hospitalized. The next day, a woman of my mother's age was put into the same ward. She had fallen down the stairs and broke her back. She said she was dying because of the pain.
That woman's daughter was a nurse, and her son was a military officer. They discussed how to take turns to take care of her.
The patient's husband had to work and could only come in the afternoon between 1 and 4:30 p.m. None of the others could come because of work.
I thought, as a Falun Dafa practitioner, Master told us to think of others first and to be a selfless person. I thought that this was a good opportunity to show the goodness of Dafa.
“Don't worry,” I said, “I can help you take care of your mother while I take care of my mother. I am a Falun Dafa practitioner, and I follow the principles of Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance.”
I started to clarify the truth to the woman, persuaded her to quit the Party, and gave her an amulet. When her husband came, I told him about Dafa and quitting the Party, but he refused to quit.
The second day, the woman got out of bed and said that her back was less painful. At night her son came, she told him that I took very good care of her.
I sent forth righteous thoughts and then started to clarify the truth to him. However, he only listened for a few seconds, and then made an excuse to leave. The next four nights were the same. I didn't give up, kept sending forth righteous thoughts, and at the same time looked into myself to eliminate attachments.
The fifth night, her son came with her grandson. This time, he was finally willing to listen to me. I told him, “You are a military officer. If you ever encounter Falun Dafa practitioners, please be kind to them and protect them if possible.” He agreed and quit the Party. He also asked for an amulet and more informational materials. The grandson and the senior's daughter also quit the Party.
My mother asked to be discharged as her back was no longer in pain. The doctor said, “You two ladies have recovered faster than anyone in this hospital. Other elderly patients like you have to stay in the hospital for up to three months.” I told the doctor that I was a Dafa practitioner.
Before we left, the woman's husband appreciated my taking care of his wife for six days. He said, “You are really a good daughter and the best practitioner. Falun Dafa is truly good!” He agreed to quit the Party.
I still had some regrets as I had not clarified the truth to many of the doctors and nurses.