(Minghui.org) I have been very slack in my cultivation in the last few years. I failed to proactively cultivate myself and I still have many human attachments – such as stubbornness, laziness, neglecting Fa-study, doing the exercises or sending forth righteous thoughts. In addition, I seldom clarify the truth about Dafa.
I am sure the other dimensions and spaces I sometimes see are connected to me; they may be the worlds I'm responsible for. Master has arranged for me to see some scenes as a warning that because I’m not taking cultivation very seriously I’m harming a large number of beings. I was devastated when I realized this.
Once, my soul wanted to go to a place but even before I went near it, numerous evil beings came at me so I pleaded for help. Instantly, several Falun materialized and destroyed the evil beings. I was able to keep moving towards my destination. The whole area was cleared of evil elements and signs of life were beginning to appear.
On another occasion, I failed a cultivation test and did something I should not have done. Afterwards, I saw a portion of my celestial body in the process of being destroyed. I watched as countless beings were wiped out, some of them were mutilated and lifeless. I wept.
Another time, I saw a place where the beings there had lost all hope. I thought that I needed to help them. But the moment I entered that space, my body felt heavy and I could not muster the energy to do anything because I myself was barely able to float. Some places I saw were desolate and many beings were dead. Sometimes, I watched as they were attacked and killed by monstrous creatures but I could not do anything to help.
What Master said is so true, “Myriad evils weeded out, myriad beings brought to life...” ( “Pause to Think,” Hong Yin Volume II)
I later sent righteous thoughts specifically for the sentient beings here and for those in other dimensions whom I'm responsible for, to eliminate all evil interference that would prevent these lives from being saved. I also asked Master to strengthen my abilities. My mind became very calm and I felt surrounded by strong energy.
I also realized that although I was responsible for the demise of many beings because I did not do well in my cultivation, it was also a result of the old forces’ meddling. I can’t acknowledge it.
I’m resolved to start anew. I need to cultivate diligently to rid myself of all human attachments. I will negate and eliminate the old forces’ arrangements so that the sentient beings can be saved. I know that I must do the three things well.
I hope my experience serves as a warning to other practitioners as well as encouragement to those who have not been doing well – I urge you to wake up, stop dragging your feet, reinvigorate yourself and make the most of the time you have. The opportunity to save sentient beings will be there as long as Fa-rectification is not yet concluded.