(Minghui.org) On this, Master's birthday, as Dafa practitioners from all over the world celebrate the widespread dissemination of Falun Dafa, I would first like to bow to Master and express my thanks for His saving grace. “Saving grace” not only refers to my soul but also my physical life in this earthly world. What follows is my own true experience.
On April 12, 1998, my wife was killed by a drunk motorcyclist. The tragedy caused unbearable grief for my entire family. The drunkard not only felt no guilt about he did but expected his father's influence as a vice chairman of the county's Committee of the Chinese People's Political Consultative Conference to help him. He suppressed my family’s rights and had my wife's body held in a mortuary for more than 10 days. I was filled with much anger and grief. As a powerless ordinary citizen in China, I had nowhere to speak up or get justice.
Zhuan Falun Extinguishes My Fire of Revenge
My father passed away about two months later from sadness. My wife was only 34 years old and my father was only 60. This double blow made me so sad that I was even tearless when I wanted to cry. My thoughts of revenge began to swell in my grief: I decided to kill the drunk's whole family and then commit suicide.
I started plotting my plan of vengeance soon after I buried my father. As though I was controlled by demons, I ignored my children and everything else and just walked step by step towards the gate of hell.
My younger brother was aware of my odd behavior. He thought I might fall ill, so he looked everywhere for medical treatment. One doctor told him that I had “heart” disease and it wasn't curable. My younger brother worried much about me and asked me for advice wherever he went.
One day an engineer went to his factory to install new equipment. My brother accompanied him on the job. My brother told him what I was going through. The engineer responded immediately with a solution, “I have a book that could cure your brother.”
My brother rushed home as soon as he got the book. He told me, “An engineer who came to our factory to install new equipment gave me a book. He said the book was great. I do not have time to read it now. You are not working now and have nothing to do, so you read it first and I will read it on Sunday.”
I knew he wanted me to read the book as soon as possible, so I agreed, “Just leave it there. I will read it tonight.”
At the time, I hadn't been to work for several months, nor did I ask for a leave. Due to long-time stress, I was often sleepless the whole night. I killed time by smoking cigarettes. I asked relatives to take care of my children temporarily. My whole person was wrapped in bad things and thoughts every day.
I thought, “Since my younger brother brought me this book, I’ll just read it.” I opened the book and started reading it while smoking a cigarette.
What could appeal to a life that was seeking death? I used to read novels while smoking cigarettes in bed. On that day, however, as I opened the book, at the first sight of the name Zhuan Falun, then the author's photo, I couldn't lie in bed any longer. I sat up, although I kept smoking.
Since my wife passed away, I had been in bed for more than two months but, at that moment, I sat up. After reading “On Dafa,” I was touched. I spent the whole night reading 90 percent of the book. Although I had no deep understanding yet, the three words “Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance” entered into my heart and started awakening me, who had been controlled by evil thoughts of revenge.
When I finished reading the book the following day, I totally broke away from letting hate control me and recovered my normal way of thinking. “The Issue of Killing” in Lecture Seven of the book made me understand one principle: the dire consequences of killing are horrible and such debts can never be repaid. It totally overturned the evil Chinese Communist Party's (CCP) philosophy of killing and fighting that the CCP had instilled in me for years: “If we are attacked, we will definitely counterattack.”
As I was nearing the edge of the cliff, I was suddenly awakened. Not only did I let go of vengeance, but I also had the idea of walking on the path of cultivation practice and renewing my life.
When my younger brother visited on Sunday, I told him that I was going back to work the next day and would look for the nearest Falun Dafa practice site. I found one in the courtyard of the County Forestry Bureau. With the help of other practitioners, I learned the five exercises and got my own copy of Zhuan Falun. I became a Falun Dafa practitioner.
As I constantly studied the Fa and practiced cultivation, I changed from a selfish person to one who considered others first. Not long after, there was a snow disaster in Tibet. I donated 4,000 yuan worth of children's clothing.
Guided by Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance, my heart constantly improved and elevated. In the past 20 years, I have not remarried. I brought up my children on my own and help them set up their own families and start their own careers. It's really difficult to understand what hardships I've endured.
My son and daughter were very respectful. Many people witnessed a Dafa practitioner's perseverance and wonder from my experience. Since I had my compassionate Master and obtained the great Buddha Fa, my heart was lifted beyond this world, and life, at first, was very easy.
I could now face huge tribulations with a strong will. My experience is a witness to the truth of Dafa. No matter how badly people have forged lies to defame Master and Dafa, they cannot deceive those who have witnessed Dafa's wonder from my experience.
Less than one year after I started to cultivate, Jiang's regime and the CCP started defaming Falun Dafa and persecuting its practitioners.
On April 3, 2000, I went to Beijing to speak up for Master and Dafa, who had endowed me with great happiness. The police arrested me and took me to the Tiananmen Police Bureau. I was then transferred to my city's local government's liaison office in Beijing and they detained me there for one week.
Over the past 19 years, I have been detained on a criminal arrest, detained for long-term brainwashing, and have lived under constant surveillance. I suffered much pressure and persecution both spiritually and financially. Despite all this, my belief in Master and Dafa has never been shaken.
In China today, it's quite common for new graduates with a bachelor's degree not to find a job. I have a daughter, a son, and an adopted daughter. Due to severe persecution, my children lost their stable life and good study environment, so they were not admitted to excellent universities. Instead, they all attended community colleges and earned associate degrees, yet found good jobs.
My adopted daughter graduated in 2006 and was looking for a job. I told her to believe in Falun Dafa and recite “Falun Dafa is good. Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good,” and then there would be bright flowers and another village ahead.
Out of the blue, she got a notice from the County Human Resources Bureau that notified her to participate in an admissions exam. She didn't know how to prepare for the exam. Informants told her that many applicants had started preparing for the exam a month before. She didn't pass the exam. Several days later officials from the bureau came to our home to look into her situation. After they learned that she was from a one-parent family, they categorized her as “a lower income family” and admitted her.
My daughter has been threatened by police officers many times over the past 10 years because I refused to give up my belief. However, she supported me very much, although she herself has taken up the practice. She has read Zhuan Falun and Master's other Fa lectures.
Once she earned her associate degree from college, she wanted to work in an urban area. It's a project to support the poor in the countryside by teaching, agriculture, and medicine. As most of the admission exams were about Marxist theory, I didn't let her apply for it. But good fortune came her way. The county decided to hire some graduates from one-parent families, orphans, and handicapped families. My daughter was admitted and became an English teacher.
My son graduated in 2013. Although we had no official background, he was admitted to a state-owned company with another practitioner's help.
Many of my coworkers couldn't understand my children’s good luck. “Your children only have associate degrees,” some said. “How could they find good jobs so easily?”
Of course, I know the reason. As Dafa practitioners, we have Master beside us and taking care of us all the time. All these good results were given by Master. As Master said,
“When people show the appropriate respect and reverence toward Dafa as it manifests here in this world, they, their race, or their nation will enjoy blessings or honor.” ("On Dafa" from Zhuan Falun)
I bow to Master for endowing me and my children with a wonderful life. Happy Birthday, Master!
Happy Falun Dafa day, fellow practitioners from all over the world!
(Submission to “Celebrate World Falun Dafa Day” 2018 on the Minghui website)