(Minghui.org) My wife and I have been practicing Falun Dafa for more than 20 years. We have been going out every day with other practitioners for the past two years to tell people about Falun Dafa and the persecution. However, my wife began to dawdle and was often late. I reminded her over and over, but she did not listen to me.

I became irritated with her behavior and often said, “Why are you always late? Everyone is waiting for us. You are delaying everyone.” But it did not help, and she continued to be late. I felt guilty for keeping the others waiting, but she would not change.

I found her behavior very upsetting and felt anxious seeing her so unfocused. I even wondered how I came to be married to such a person. I blamed her and reprimanded her. I tried to look within but was only able to focus on her being in the wrong, as she was not being considerate of others. I was certain that she was being selfish and interfering with our efforts to save people. I accused her of this many times over the past year. We argued, and a barrier formed between us. I now realize that I was missing the opportunity that Master had arranged for me to improve in my cultivation.

It was not until I read the article “Taking a Closer Look at Jealousy” on the Minghui website that I started to truly look within myself.

Due to my attachments, emotions, and human notions, I did not have the compassion and forbearance that I should have developed through cultivation.

I have read Zhuan Falun so many times, but why couldn’t I follow the principles of Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance? My attachments correspond to bad elements in other dimensions. These bad elements do not want to be cleared away, so they block me from looking within. This also shows that my main consciousness and righteous thoughts are not strong enough to prevent them from interfering with me.

I know that studying the Fa is serious. We must apply the Fa principles in our daily life, and we cannot miss the opportunities Master has arranged for us to improve in our cultivation.

When I came to realize this, my wife also found her own problem. I thought that we would now be able to cooperate much better than before. But a few days later we both repeated the same mistakes, and this scenario repeated several times. I was very upset. Why couldn’t we learn from our mistakes?

Master said,

“As a practitioner, without a strong will and self-restraint, you will not be able to do this.” (Zhuan Falun)

I found myself lacking the strong will to cultivate. A strong will can keep our minds clear and our thoughts righteous. We should grasp every opportunity to improve and cleanse the impurities within ourselves. We have to make every effort to fulfill our vows and effectively play the role of assisting Master during Fa-rectification.

I would like to thank Minghui's editors and the practitioners who submit articles to Minghui. I also hope that those who have not been visiting Minghui will be able to overcome the difficulties and access the website. We should cherish the platform and help one another to improve in cultivation and fulfill our vows.