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A Cultivator Looks Within Unconditionally

February 11, 2017 |   By an overseas Falun Dafa practitioner

(Minghui.org) As the favored child in my family, my childhood upbringing was privileged. When I joined the workforce, I was popular. Men pursued me, and even practitioners expressed their interest in me. This attention made me willful and I could not tolerate failure. Later in life, I met a practitioner whom I married, and we moved overseas.

My marriage did not turn out as I had imagined. He, as the youngest in his family, was just as spoiled as I was. He was irritable and hot-tempered, which led to arguments and even physical fights. In addition, we did not take our cultivation seriously, although he had been a practitioner since 1994.

Cultivation Is Serious

After reading Master's {Fa}} teaching from the 2015 West Coast Fa Conference, I realized that I had slacked off in my cultivation and vowed to turn into a diligent practitioner.

I no longer neglected my cultivation for about a year and thus overcame many tribulations and tests. Then, I started to slack off again and forgot that cultivation is serious. Thus, I again experienced many conflicts that turned violent and resulted in a head injury.

My husband and I were no longer on speaking terms and I contemplated divorce. To understand more about domestic violence among non practitioners I searched online. However, what I found was not an option, because it recommended “an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth.”

To resolve the problem I even contemplated stepping off my cultivation path. Before I put this thought into action, I talked to a veteran practitioner. She suggested that I should treat the issue as if it was sickness karma and send righteous thoughts.

After I put down the phone, I recited “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good” for several minutes.

Staying Clearheaded

After some introspection, I thought that my husband and I were being persecuted by the old forces. Therefore, I sent righteous thoughts to eliminate the old forces. I also realized that I had not let go of my emotions and needed to eliminate them.

My head cleared after about half an hour of sending righteous thoughts. I thought that everything was an illusion and the problems were forced upon me by the old forces.

After looking within, I found many attachments. I thought that only I was being punished, while my husband was fine and looked upon by fellow practitioners as a diligent practitioner. But, these were human thoughts and were the opposite of what a practitioner should think.

Now, I know that cultivation should be unconditional. Whoever cultivates will benefit. My husband may be a practitioner, but if he slacked off and acted accordingly, he had to deal with the consequences of his actions. However, if I stopped cultivating, both of us would be in trouble and the old forces would have succeeded. I must stay clearheaded and not let it happen.

Thinking Outside of Emotions

Recently I read an article on the Minghui website. It inspired me to memorize Zhuan Falun. While memorizing, Master showed me so many Fa principles that I had not seen before. I could not stop memorizing the Fa one paragraph after another. I was very drawn to the Fa principles and had not felt that way for a long time.

Practitioners who have not let go of affection have to think outside of their emotions and stop asking why. This is how one can look within unconditionally.

The arrangement Master has made for us is so intricate that we cannot understand everything. However, all arrangements are made by Master and will help us succeed in our cultivation.

Nothing should make us hesitate on our cultivation path, because we would have nothing if we stopped practicing. Why don’t we follow the Fa principles steadfastly?