(Minghui.org) It has been 20 years since I started practicing Falun Dafa. Since 2000, I have been memorizing Zhuan Falun. At that time, from Master's teachings, I learned that practitioners in the Changchun area were memorizing the Fa. I realized that to learn the Fa well, I must memorize the Fa. You can only memorize the Fa when you have a pure mind. Then you can enlighten to the deep meaning of the Fa.
In July 1999, the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) started the vicious persecution of Falun Dafa. In November 2000, I had just learned the section in Zhuan Falun, "Genuinely Guiding People Toward High Levels”, and the first two paragraphs of "Different Levels Have Different Fa”, when I was illegally arrested by the police and taken to a detention center. My mind was blank, except for the Fa I had just memorized.
At the beginning of our incarceration, the guards told us to do hard labor, and later, perhaps due to our righteous thoughts, they no longer forced us to work. My daily schedule consisted of breakfast, doing the first and third exercises nine times, and doing the second exercise for an hour.
After lunch when other people had their nap, I meditated. After meditation, I went to a quiet place to recite the Fa. I recited the words out loud and some of the inmates would come near me to listen. As a result, some of them learned the Fa and some had their third eye opened, while others had their illnesses cured. One inmate even defended Falun Dafa in front of a judge. I think all of these people had a predestined relationship with Master.
We basically learned the Fa together every day. We also memorized Hong Yin. In addition, we were able to memorize some of the articles from Essentials for Further Advancement as if we were in a regular group study. We did it every day. I regretted that I had learned too little of Dafa previously.
I was illegally detained for 15 months and felt that a lot of time had been wasted. I thought it would be good if I could memorize all of Zhuan Falun so I would have the Fa wherever and whenever we needed it and follow it to improve our xinxing. I asked for Master's strengthening so I could go home early to continue memorizing the Fa.
On February 9, 2002, I went home. Shortly after the New Year, I asked my daughter for my copy of Zhuan Falun, but she would not give it to me. I knew she was in fear that I might be taken away again for reading the Fa. At that time, she was only 20 years old and had lived alone at home while her parents were in prison. It was not easy for our daughter to suffer like that for more than a year; however, she had been supportive of my husband and me in our practice of Falun Dafa. My husband had been sentenced to 3 years of imprisonment and was still in prison. I said to my daughter, "If you do not give me the book, I cannot live. The book is my life." She complied.
It took me more than a year to memorize Zhuan Falun the first time around.
In 2008, my daughter asked me to go to Guangzhou to help her with housework. In going to an unfamiliar place, I could not talk to the people there about the truth of Falun Dafa as I did not know Cantonese. So I started to memorize Zhuan Falun for the second time. It was as if I had never learned it before. I studied it sentence by sentence, but it was easier this time. I felt different this time around.
Every evening, I studied until 1:00 a.m. and started again when I woke up in the morning. Often I was learning Zhuan Falun in my dreams and I woke myself up studying the Fa. My heart and soul were engrossed in the Fa. My daughter was critical of what I did around the place, but I was not affected. I was not defensive. I knew that I needed to be kind to other people even though they were unkind to me.
In three months, I finished memorizing Zhuan Falun for the second time. Now I am starting to learn it for the third time. I have a lot of feelings and understandings to share.
When I started to memorize Zhuan Falun I did not have many human thoughts. I had just been released from prison when I was learning,
“…practice cultivation according to the characteristic of the universe, Zhen-Shan-Ren. You must completely dispose of the desires of ordinary people, immoral thoughts, and the intention of wrongdoing.” (Zhuan Falun)
I suddenly understood how to cultivate! Master had clued me in with this sentence. I followed this teaching to remind myself from time to time, not to hurt others, not to create conflicts and when others hurt me, I saw it as a test for me to look inward.
Sometimes a lot of my human notions surfaced. I immediately suppressed them with the thought that this is not me. I am a Dafa disciple who should not have this notion. My dimension immediately became cleansed.
Master said,
“... you must continue to attend this class. Once you walk into the classroom, all of your symptoms will vanish and there will not be any danger.” (Zhuan Falun)
Master's teachings helped me understand the importance of studying the Fa. Only by learning the Fa well can you transform quickly, and eliminate the bad human attachments and consummate sooner.
Every time I encountered a sickness karma test, I first studied Zhuan Falun and then did the exercises. I got better soon after. If it was the interference from the old forces, I sent more righteous thoughts. I studied Zhuan Falun often; sometimes I had tears streaming down my cheeks. I even wanted to cry my heart out. I was so involved that I could feel every character sounding out in my mind. It was very moving. In some cases, I could feel myself in other dimensions and knew that Master had done many extraordinary things for me. I was also very moved by this. At this moment, my gratitude to Master was beyond words.
In Lecture IV of Zhuan Falun, I learned,
“Whenever you encounter a problem, you should first consider whether others can put up with this matter or if it will hurt anyone. In doing so, there will not be any problems. Therefore, in cultivation practice you should follow a higher and higher standard for yourself.” (Zhuan Falun).
Sometimes I was just doing it for the sake of doing it. It was selfish.
In 2013, I broke my hand. I could not move it or use chopsticks or a spoon. I had to use my left hand to hold the spoon and my husband had to pick up the food for me. My hand was swollen, and black and blue. When it happened, it didn't occur to me that I should go to the hospital. The first thing I did was to go home and do the exercises. Even though my movements were not precise I was guided by the mechanism that Master had planted in me. I extended the time for each set of exercises as much as I could. A few hours later at dinner, I was able to hold the spoon and the next day the chopsticks. During this period, fellow practitioners came to study the Fa with me and send forth righteous thoughts. We cleared up the interference of the evil in other dimensions and denied the arrangements of the old forces. A week later, I was able to ride a bike and help my husband in the store. A month later, I fully recovered.
Recently, when the Minghui website was calling for papers for the 14th China Fahui, I decided to write about my experiences in memorizing the Fa, but my hand started to hurt again. I wondered if Master was helping me to fix my hand again. However, it got worse and affected my Fa-study and performing the exercises. Even though I sent righteous thoughts to clear out the interference of the old forces, it didn't help.
So I decided to look inward. I remembered reading a story about a practitioner who did not pick up an iPhone that was left in a public washroom. I admired her, and then realized that I had been asking my husband to collect other people's discarded vegetables to feed our chicken. I realized that we could not do this anymore. This was pursuing petty gain. After coming to understand this, I got better and in two days, my hand was back to normal.
I deeply appreciate the importance of studying the Fa. I must check my xinxing to improve myself and be aware of all my thoughts, to make sure they are in line with the Fa.