(Minghui.org) I married my wife at the age of 30, and with Dafa's teachings in my mind, we've been able to have a harmonious home life. However, I have found out over the years that the best way to help her understand why exactly I must join other practitioners in Dafa activities is to just be straightforward with her.
Here, I would like to share how I let go of my fear and human sentiments to stay firmly on the path of cultivation.
My wife is not a Dafa practitioner, but she married me because her mother used to be a practitioner and believed that I was a good person.
Since the Chinese Communist Party's (CCP) persecution, my wife used to prohibit me from attending group Fa-study because she was worried about my safety. I understood her concern, so I lied to her and said that I must work overtime once a week in order to sneak away.
Although I knew that lying was against the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance, I convinced myself that it was fine since joining group Fa-study was the most righteous thing to do.
After returning home one night, my wife asked whether or not I just came back from work. I answered in the affirmative, but she told me that she actually called my workplace and my co-workers told her that I was not there. I had no choice but to tell her the truth.
I told her that I had been going to group Fa-study every week since we got married and I did not want her to worry about me, which was why I lied to her.
When I let go of my human sentiments and told her the truth, my body felt like it suddenly expanded. She listened to me silently, and decided to allow me to go once a week.
Now I that could be honest with my wife about group Fa-study, I had yet another fear – I did not dare to tell her that I distributed Dafa materials to people.
Once my wife searched my bag for gifts after I returned home from a business trip; however, instead of gifts, she found Dafa materials. I had to come clean.
I told her the reason why I took the risk to tell people the facts about Dafa: people must learn that Falun Dafa is indeed good for everyone so that they would stop treating Dafa practitioners as enemies. This is a very important task.
She told me to be careful, and from that point on, she never stopped me from clarifying the facts to people.
During the time when thousands of practitioners sent in their legal complaints against Jiang Zemin, the former CCP dictator who launched the persecution of Falun Dafa, I also wrote one and mailed it to the Supreme Court. I did not tell my wife at first because I did not want her to worry about me.
Not long after that, however, the Supreme Court returned many of the legal complaints to our local court. I knew that the local court would soon contact us, so it was better that she heard it from me first.
When policemen came to confirm our address, my wife was terrified, but my determination to stay on course and not waver eventually helped her to let go of her fear.
A policewoman called me, and I told her that I indeed wrote the legal complaint against Jiang, and I also told her the facts about Dafa. After that, nobody bothered me about it anymore.
I got the idea that I needed a printer to make materials to save more people, but my wife would not allow me to do that at first.
When a fellow practitioner in our local area had to take a break from making truth-clarifying materials, I told myself that I must carry on with it because those materials had helped hundreds learn the facts about Dafa – somebody had to step up.
I told my wife that I had brought back a printer and would help print materials because the practitioner was temporarily unavailable. She was fine with that idea, and she did not stop me from making materials after the fellow practitioner resumed her task. She did not mind that I spent money buying supplies for the materials. Sometimes, she even went shopping with me for supplies. We also bought a new printer after a while.
Once, the local police station called and told us that they were planning to come to our house and record me. My wife was very worried at first. Not knowing what they would do, I hid the printer.
I have now resumed my work, making more Dafa materials.
My family has gone through a lot during these years because of me, but I am determined to walk well on the path of cultivation. Only by doing a good job can we be truly responsible for our family and sentient beings. If I always try to hide from my family and not tell them the truth, they would be pushed to the side of the evil forces to interfere with me. I should not let that happen to them.
I am very fortunate to have become a Dafa disciple. Thank you to Master for protecting me, for cleansing my body and mind, and giving me this opportunity to participate in the process of Fa-rectification!