(Minghui.org) I am a Falun Dafa practitioner from Pingtung, Taiwan. I have been a practitioner for seven years. I clarify the truth about Dafa through the Chinese online chat program QQ.
Master said:
“Each person has his or her own journey of validating the Fa. A lot of students have gotten together and established different media outlets, and a lot of students have found different ways to validate the Fa as well as different ways to clarify the truth and stop the persecution. It's fine to just go ahead and do those things.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Western U.S. International Fa Conference” from Teaching the Fa at the Conference VII)
As such, I set up groups that clarify the truth to different people and try to persuade them to withdraw from the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations.
Given the indoctrination by the CCP, many Chinese people do not believe in Buddhas or Gods. They often laugh when one talks about the divine, and they only believe in what they can see. Thus, I address them based on their interests and talk about democracy and human rights, using news reports from the Epoch Times newspaper.
Many people who have withdrawn from the CCP did not know much about the evil nature of the CCP or the facts about Falun Dafa and the persecution. Some people did not believe that practitioners were being killed for their organs. Then, there are also those who accuse practitioners of being involved in politics.
I once chatted with a Chinese American who said that his family was persecuted in China and that his parents died as a result. He sneaked into Hong Kong by boat and then settled in the United States. Using his story, I tried to persuade him to withdraw from the CCP, but he refused.
He thought the Cultural Revolution was just a mistake by a few government officials, including Chairman Mao. The CCP rectified it, he said, and that was it. In order to let him understand and know the truth, I spent several hours talking to him about the book the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party and how the CCP caused the man-made disasters in China. He eventually agreed to withdraw from the CCP and thanked me for explaining the facts to him.
On another occasion, a 21-year-old business owner had listened to my clarifying the truth for several months. He wanted to learn Falun Dafa and asked me to teach him the exercises. I told him to read Zhuan Falun first and then decide whether he really wanted to learn. He soon became a practitioner and even started to clarify the truth several months ago.
I had a lot of xinxing tests and suffered from sickness karma earlier this year. After I looked within, I realized that I had a show off mentality and a strong ego.
Master said:
“When a problem occurs, it is because that person is stubbornly going against the Fa principles. Go and find where the problem lies, let go of that stubbornness, and sort things out. When you encounter something, the best approach is not to charge forward and contend with others, push your way to the front, and rush forward to chase down the solution. Let go of your attachment, take a step back, and then resolve it.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Fa Conference at the U.S. Capital” from Teaching the Fa at the Conference VII)
I too found I was going against the Fa principles. I complained a lot, and I was also competitive and jealous. I was not able to let go of those attachments for a long time, so I was unable to focus when studying the Fa or sending forth righteous thoughts. I even had negative thoughts about practitioners. This situation lasted for almost a year.
As I could not let go of my attachments, I developed sickness karma. I had blisters on my arms and legs for a few months. My skin peeled for several months. When the blisters broke, my skin hurt and was itchy.
Why could I not let go of my attachments? The Fa principles told me that I would get virtue if other people mistreated me. Then, why could I not let go of my negative thoughts about other practitioners? I studied the Fa and sent forth righteous thoughts, yet I still could not let go of my attachments.
Master said:
“What’s not a right mind? It refers to a person’s inability to always treat himself as a practitioner. A practitioner will come across tribulations in cultivation practice. When a tribulation comes, it may manifest as an interpersonal conflict. There will be mind games and the like involved, which directly affect your xinxing. (Zhuan Falun)
I realized that I did not regard myself as a practitioner during times of conflict, and thus could not let go of my fundamental attachments.
I study the Fa every day, which helps me find my attachments. However, I worked on Dafa projects, but forgot to cultivate myself. Because I was not in the Fa, the Fa power would not show itself and I lost my way. But then I found my attachments, sent forth righteous thoughts more, and was able to find my way.
I started to become sleepy several months ago when I would read the Fa. I tried to wake myself up by slapping myself or by reading the Fa while standing. These methods, however, did not help much.
Master said:
“Don’t you get sleepy? Don’t you feel sleepy as soon as you read the book, or become drowsy once you study the Fa? Let me tell you that those are gods at a level in this human dimension. If you can’t break through them, you remain a human. They aren’t intentionally doing anything to you—they treat everyone like that.” (Teaching the Fa at the Assistants’ Fa Conference in Changchun)
I remembered my seven-year cultivation path from before I became a practitioner. At that time, I followed whatever other people did, and I did not really know what I wanted. I usually felt tired and confused. Then I read Zhuan Falun, which answered all my questions about life and changed my perspectives. I was gradually returning to my original nature.
My supervisor once called me at home and blamed me for some mistakes in a report I had given to her. She did not listen to my explanation.
I was studying the Fa at that exact time. I listened to her peacefully and did not get upset when she interrupted me. Master's Fa appeared in my mind:
“[During a conflict, if you can remember:]“He's right,And I am wrong,”What's to dispute?” (“Who's Right, Who's Wrong” from Hong Yin III)
If I argued with her, an ordinary person, I would have stooped to her level. As a practitioner, only after I can let go of human things, can I gain divine things.
I said to her that I would have another look at the report, and that I would correct them if it were my mistakes. She later called me back and apologized because she had misread the report.
I have undergone many tests this year and let go of many attachments. I can now focus when doing the sitting meditation. I also have stronger righteous thoughts and less interference when doing Dafa work.