(Minghui.org) The Fa-rectification period is coming to the very end. Every genuine practitioner is practicing diligently and seizing this last opportunity to fulfill their historic missions. Yet some practitioners exhibit a despondent state. I myself was in such a state for a long time.
Teacher said:
“The closer it gets to the end, the more you cannot let up; the closer it gets to the end, the better you must study the Fa; the closer it gets to the end, the stronger your righteous thoughts must be.” (“To the Canada Fa Conference” in The Essentials of Diligent Progress VOL. III)”
I understood this Fa principle, but was unable to step out of my current state, even after trying for some time.
I realize now that I was using human thinking, wanting to find a human way to combat it. As a result, I ended up feeling more agitated and in a worse state.
I read a sharing article on Minghui.org a few days ago, where a practitioner mentioned that despondency is arranged by the old forces.
This helped me to understand that despondency is actually a substance. As a practitioner, if one's dimensional field is not clean, one will provide a suitable environment for despondency to survive. This substance has a negative impact on practitioners.
Teacher said:
“In order for anything to have a foothold in this world, to be able to hold up, and establish itself, there has to be a key factor: It has to form a field in this dimension, a field that materially exists.” (Teaching the Fa at the Conference in Europe)
To break out of despondency a practitioner needs to continually purify him or herself, so as not to provide an environment for this kind of substance to hide. At the same time, one needs to put one's heart into Fa-rectification and think about saving sentient beings.
My despondency was caused by my own attachments. I had been imprisoned for nearly eight years for practicing Falun Dafa, and encountered many difficulties after returning home. I heard comments like: “If you didn't practice Falun Dafa, you would have been further ahead in your career.”
I didn't think too much about it at first, and knew that I was most fortunate to obtain the Fa. Nothing in the world can compare to that.
But as time went on, I learned that my former classmates and friends all had successful careers and were living quite comfortably. I began to feel unbalanced in my heart, and thought that it was unfair. I was ahead of them before, so why am I struggling in life now? I sometimes thought that I would have lived a much better life if I didn't practice Dafa.
I worked very hard over the following years, and was so busy sometimes that I did not have time for Fa study or to do the exercises. I was so tired at the end of the day that I only wanted to go to bed and get a good night's sleep.
After looking inward I found a thought deep existed in my mind: I lost everything because I practiced Dafa. This thought was rooted in my attachments to fame and self-interest.
For one to be able to cultivate in Dafa, one already has the greatest fortune. All Gods in the cosmos envy us for being Dafa disciples. However, I was still attached to fame and self-interest in human society.
We have been granted the greatest title - Fa-rectification Period Dafa Disciples, yet I often felt undignified. In this critical moment of Fa-rectification, I still possessed such strong attachments. How could I possibly do the three things well?
Soon after I improved my understanding, a friend asked me to become the manager of his two companies.
I gradually stepped out of the despondent state, and now have a good cultivation environment and can keep up with doing the three things well.
I came to realize that as long as one can cultivate and do the things that a practitioner should do, one can certainly get out of the despondent state. Teacher has arranged everything for us.
I'd like to share Teacher's words with fellow practitioners.
“For cultivators traveling a divine path, is it really that hard to get rid of those attachments that arise from human thinking and to change those notions? If a cultivator doesn’t want to get rid of even those things, well, how is he to show that he’s a cultivator? Of course, most disciples who are in this state are that way because, at the beginning, they didn’t realize that they had subtle attachments or were being interfered with by their own notions, and so the evil has exploited this gap and magnified those factors. I know that after you become clear on this you will quickly catch up, but you should take fewer detours on this most magnificent, divine path; not leave reason for regret in your futures; and not fall so far behind in terms of levels. That is my hope, your hope, and the hope of the beings who are counting on you.” (“The Closer to the End, the More Diligent You Should Be” in The Essentials of Diligent Progress VOL. III)
Let us seize the time during this final leg of Fa-rectification, walk our paths well, and fulfill our missions.