(Minghui.org) One day in January 2015 when I was living in China, without any warning, my right eye turned red and started to shed tears nonstop. It was so unbearably painful that I could not sleep at night, and I had to quit my job.
I had no place to stay after losing my job. Fortunately, a fellow practitioner took me in. My temporary stay in her home turned out to be the beginning of my true cultivation.
While I was there, I studied the Fa with her, and we did the exercises and sent righteous thoughts together. We also watched Shen Yun DVDs and videotapes of Teacher's Fa lectures in Guangzhou.
By the next afternoon, I was surprised to find that my eye did not hurt as much and I could open it a little. As I continued to study the Fa and do the exercises in the next few days, my eye healed completely. Not only that, my complexion, which had always been sallow, glowed with health.
Back in 2013 I had the opportunity to see some truth clarification videos and realized that I had been deceived by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP)'s propaganda that slandered Falun Dafa. I was shocked by the fact that Dafa practitioners had been brutally persecuted for more than a decade.
I quit the CCP and all its organizations on the Epoch Times website with my real name and was later fortunate to obtain a copy of Zhuan Falun. However, I was not serious enough about “no second cultivation way” and kept reading about other schools of cultivation and religions. This issue plagued me for a long time, and eventually I slacked off and almost stopped cultivating altogether.
During my stay at this practitioner's home, I finally cut all ties to everything not related to Dafa cultivation. Afterwards, my mind became clearer than ever, and I enlightened to a lot of the Fa that had eluded me before. Quite often when I read the Fa, I would suddenly feel, “Master has taught us this so clearly! Why did I not see it before?”
After the other practitioner and I talked about it, I understood that I could not see the meaning of the Fa at a certain level before I reached that level in my cultivation. Only through solidly and diligently upgrading xinxing can one enlighten to the Fa at higher and higher levels.
Dafa revealed to me the true meaning of life and answered my ultimate questions: “Who am I? Where am I from? Where am I going?” So many puzzles in my mind were solved through Fa study. The feelings of confusion and helplessness had been replaced by the feelings of fulfillment and passion under Master's care and guidance.
My parents divorced when I was very young. As a result, I suffered severe depression and withdrew from society and normal life. I stayed home and did not speak a single word for three years. I resented my parents and could not see any reason for optimism.
Through Fa study and xinxing cultivation, I learned to be considerate of others and to view things from others' perspectives. I finally let go of my grudge against my parents. Our relationship, once a dead end of indifference, became one of affection and respect.
When I encountered difficulties in my life and cultivation, I learned to search within for attachments. Keeping xinxing cultivation in mind, I did not get angry at others and constantly corrected my behavior according to Dafa. I had never felt such a sense of calm and joy. My family saw how I'd changed and were happy for me. I often told myself that I was truly blessed to have obtained Dafa in this life. I knew Dafa had awakened my true self.
When I first started to cultivate, I did not dare to talk about Dafa to anyone due to fear and a lack of righteous thoughts. I did not even have the courage to tell my family that I had started practicing Dafa. Through Fa study, I strengthened my righteous thoughts and started telling my family and friends about quitting the CCP. I joined fellow practitioners in distributing flyers, Shen Yun DVD's and other Dafa materials.
Now I have the opportunity to live outside of China in a relatively easy and comfortable environment. I hope I will continue to study the Fa well, hold strong righteous thoughts, closely follow Master's Fa-rectification process, and be a true Dafa disciple in the Fa-rectification period.
Fellow practitioners, please point out anything that falls short of the Fa.