(Minghui.org)
Greetings esteemed Master and fellow practitioners,
My name is Wang Zixuan and I am 12 years old. It is a great honor to share with fellow Falun Dafa practitioners some of my cultivation experiences.
We are relative newcomers, as my mother and I immigrated to the United Kingdom in January last year.
When I was little, I attended with my mum a Fa study group and listened to Master’s audio Fa lectures, Dafa music and mum helped me memorize poems from Hong Yin. By the time I could speak, I could recite most of the poems. My mum shared with me and we discussed the Fa principles.
At the age of three-and-a-half, the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) held a nationwide celebration. The kindergarten teacher gave each child a blood red national flag. When she was not watching I threw it in the garbage bin in the restroom.
I was worried that my teacher might ask what happened to the flag, so I came up with an excuse and told my parents what I would say if my teacher should ask. My dad said that I was smarter than my mum. However, my mum said that I should send righteous thoughts and stop the teacher from questioning me.
In primary school, my mum often reminded me to send forth righteous thoughts during flag-raising events. This should get rid of the evil factors from the Party and stop the Communist specter from poisoning the teachers and pupils. Although I sent righteous thoughts I noticed that the blood red flag was lowered only one time. Most likely my righteous thoughts were not strong enough because the flag did not drop to the ground.
By the time I turned five, my mum began to read Zhuan Falun to me every night. It took three months to read the entire book the first time. My celestial eye opened and I could hear music from other dimensions.
When I was 7 years old, my mum was arrested an imprisoned for two years. I lost the cultivation environment and my celestial eye closed. No one read the Fa to me or did the exercises with me. I could not find the Dafa books and was somewhat contaminated by on-goings in everyday society.
After my mum was released from prison, my workload at school increased and so did my human attachments. I did not cultivate diligently.
After I arrived in the United Kingdom at the beginning of 2014, I regretted very much that I had wasted a lot of time and decided to catch up and cultivate diligently.
My mind was affected by my mum’s persecution, however after I lived in the United Kingdom, a free country, I gradually began to let go of my fear. We went to London's Chinatown and the British Museum to clarify the truth about Falun Dafa and distribute flyers.
In China, my mum taught me to recite Hong Yin on the way to school. I kept my eyes open and we changed to a different subject whenever we came across anyone.
In the United Kingdom, we went with my granddad and distributed Dafa flyers. I was happy when someone accepted a flyer and let go of my fear after a while.
Granny took us to Chinatown the Saturday after we arrived in her home. It was great to see many fellow practitioners. I felt very comfortable because I had always regarded practitioners as family members.
My mum also took me to the Chinese embassy to do the exercises and send righteous thoughts. It was chilly and we were dressed lightly because it was, after all, a summer day. We shivered, but we were in a free country, so we did not mind.
The cultivation environment outside of China differs from the one inside of China. Practitioners who validate the Fa inside China experience great pressure and risk being persecuted. However, overseas practitioners face a different kind of cultivation environment and also endure hardship and tribulations in a different way.
I am rather timid. When we talked to people about Dafa, I became embarrassed and very scared if people did not accept my flyers. I only gave flyers to people who looked kind.
After I studied the Fa and shared with a fellow practitioner’s mother, I understood that I am a young practitioner who is here to assist Master’s Fa-rectification. I should not be timid, let alone feel embarrassed.
I looked within and found many attachments. I wanted to protect myself, felt pride and was worried about losing face. I used to walk away immediately when people refused my flyers. I worried that this would hurt my pride. Although I have let go of attachments, there are still some that are difficult to let go.
I went with my mum to the British Museum to distribute Dafa flyers. I wore a yellow Dafa shirt. It was tourist season and there were a lot of Chinese people among the tourists.
When I crossed the road, an ice-cream truck hit me and my mind went blank. When I opened my eyes, the truck had disappeared.
As I wore a Dafa shirt, I was worried about an adverse impression of Dafa by everyday people. I only thought about how to protect Dafa’s image. Although I felt some pain, I was not injured and the pain was gone by the next day.
Master said,
“We have said that good or evil comes from a person’s spontaneous thought, and the thought at that moment can bring about different consequences.” (Zhuan Falun)
I often have conflicts with my mum. This is, because I waste a lot of time and am forgetful. I also am not not diligent in my Fa study, when I do the exercises and when I send righteous thoughts. Mum always reminds me. I want to change, but when I am having a good time, I just forget.
When my mum criticized me, I felt her tone was not compassionate and I did not want to accept her criticism. I apologized to her for that and she said that she also needed to change. She agreed to no longer criticize me.
I still have attachments. I like to eat, have fun, and want to go on the defensive, so I would not get hurt. When I do things, I do not think of others first. I should look within and follow the Dafa principles Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.
Master said.“For a cultivator, looking within is a magical tool.” (Fa Teaching at the 2009 Washington DC International Fa Conference).
I need to genuinely cultivate, improve myself and live by the Dafa principles.
I know that I need to study the Fa and do the exercises every day. However, I cannot guarantee it. Sometimes when I study Zhuan Falun, I feel I am not focused. It seems the words do not sink in and I do not remember what I have read.
Studying the Fa like that does not help me enlighten to the Fa. On the contrary, it disrespects the Fa and Master. It could be interference from my thought karma. It could also be because of my attachment to having a good time. I can’t calm my mind when my attachments arise. My mum asked me to cleanse myself by sending righteous thoughts.
Since we arrived in the United Kingdom, I no longer enjoy doing the exercises. I feel very tired after doing the wheel holding postures. My legs hurt when doing the cross-legged meditation. I even skipped the exercises. I felt as long as I studied the Fa well, that would do.
After sharing with my mum, I knew that this was not the right state of mind. Studying Fa and doing the exercises are fundamental to cultivation. I have to make a greater effort.
I read a sharing article from a fellow practitioner called “The Score Line for Consummation” and I was greatly touched by it. I gave myself a score, which was pretty awful. I haven’t done well in anything a practitioner should do and am unable to calm my mind. I have lots of attachments.
I began to question myself: Can this be counted as genuine cultivation? Do I still qualify as a cultivator?
Master’s poem “Infatuated” enlightened me a lot.
“Life is short,You’ve merely stopped over at the inn.Don’t forget your vow before descending here;If you hesitate along the path because offame, self-interest, emotion, and revenge,When will you wake up and return to your home?”(Hong Yin III)
I am fortunate to be a Dafa practitioner. While I wrote this article, I told myself: I must cherish this opportunity and do everything that is required by Master.
Thank you Master. Thank you fellow practitioners.
(Presented at the 2015 UK Falun Dafa Cultivation Experience Sharing Conference)