(Minghui.org) Through personal experience I've learned that, as long as our cultivation level meets the requirements of Dafa, the illusion of “sickness karma” will disappear. I'm writing down what I've experienced and hope that it can help practitioners who are experiencing similar tribulations.
I began practicing Falun Dafa on June 24, 1996. My headaches, shoulder problems, and breathing issues all disappeared shortly afterward. I was arrested in 2002 for distributing informational materials about the persecution that began in July 1999, and was illegally sentenced to five years in prison.
I started to have symptoms of severe sickness karma in the spring of 2004, the second year after I was imprisoned. My urine turned red and my legs swelled. I had such difficulty breathing that I sometimes it felt like I was suffocating. Lumps appeared on my neck, armpits, abdomen, and the insides of my thighs. I was in constant pain.
I remembered Master's words in “Explaining the Fa for Falun Dafa Assistants in Changchun” in Explaining the Content of Falun Dafa:
“True cultivators have no illnesses, since my Law Bodies have eliminated them.”
Then shouldn't my body feel light? Wasn't the “sickness karma” an illusion the evil imposed on me?
Master told us:
“A Dafa disciple completely opposes everything arranged by the evil old forces.” (“Dafa is Indestructible” in Essentials for Further Advancement II)
But how to do this?
I held one thought firmly in my mind, “I am Master Li Hongzhi's disciple. I do not acknowledge or go along with any other arrangements.”
I realized that I shouldn't send righteous thoughts to alleviate my own suffering, so I did it to assist Master in Fa-rectification and to validate the Fa. The old forces are not qualified to test us because they, too, are beings to be rectified by the Fa.
Since practitioners don't have illnesses, we shouldn't depend on others to care for us. We should do whatever we are supposed to and not let the “sickness” sway us from our plans.
We should pay attention to each and every thought and resist the persecution. When I experienced “sickness karma,” I found that I couldn't eat, so I sent righteous thoughts to negate the persecution. We need to eat so we can sustain our bodies and assist Master with Fa-rectification.
I started by eating one bun and a little porridge. Later, I was able to eat four buns and a box of porridge.
I refused to think that there was anything wrong with my body, such as the lumps that had erupted. I didn't touch them and didn't pay attention to the color of my urine. I refused to acknowledge these incorrect states, and firmly believed that I was healthy.
Master said in Zhuan Falun:
“We emphasize one point: If you cannot relinquish the attachment or concern for illness, we cannot do anything and will be unable to help you.”
I soon recovered without my noticing. Once we meet the Fa's standard, Master will help us.
If we align with the Fa and relinquish our human attachments, we will experience Dafa's power. Through looking inward, I found my problem.
While imprisoned, I met inmates with low morals. I resented them and the guards who carried out the persecution. I despised them and regarded the persecution as one group of people fighting against another.
I was shocked after I found my attachments. How could I validate the Fa and save sentient beings while harboring such negative thoughts? If I hadn't practiced Falun Dafa, wouldn't I have acted the same way they did?
As soon as I realized this, the pain, lumps, and all the other symptoms of “sickness karma” disappeared. Master took everything away.
My mind changed to showing sympathy and having compassion for the guards and inmates who were persecuting me. I talked to them and helped them see how wonderful Falun Dafa is. I awakened their conscience.
Thanks to Master, my body has fully recovered. My cultivation environment has also improved. During the last six months before I was released, I could study the Fa, do the exercises, and send righteous thoughts.