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Greetings, Esteemed Master! Greetings, fellow practitioners!
I'm a new practitioner, having begun to practice Falun Dafa just five months ago. Yet, in just these few months, Dafa has changed me greatly.
I am not a newcomer to spirituality, because I worshiped Buddha since I was a child. I grew up, started a family, and had children, but I still did not forget to go to the temple, where, I prayed for a good life, wealth, a successful career, and obedient children. I also asked Buddha to grant me fame and wealth.
After a while, I realized it was a waste of money, because worship in the Buddhist temple came with a large price tag. I felt that giving money was useless since my fortunes had not changed for the better. Therefore, I was lost and felt that life was meaningless.
In June 2014 a colleague introduced Falun Dafa to me.
I read Zhuan Falun the main book of Falun Dafa on the Internet, and after one page I felt that this book was indeed worthwhile reading. But I could not comprehend the Fa and did not finish listening to the Teacher's audio recordings. However, I did not give up and taught myself the five sets of exercises.
Once, I finished practicing the exercises and went to sleep. As soon as I closed my eyes, I saw red, yellow, and purple lights, which made me a little dizzy. When I opened my eyes, I saw dark, cloud-like shapes on the ceiling, with one looking like an angry dragon head. I thought it was an illusion and buried my head in the pillow. But, I sensed that the karma in my body was angry and did not want me to cultivate in Dafa.
This gave me the push to cultivate more diligently. I tried to practice the exercises every day, and I gradually extended the meditation from 20 minutes to one hour.
I hit the garage door with my car one day. In the past, I would blame others and shout about it. This time, I was calm and unmoved.
Another time, I was stuck in the parking lot of a supermarket for half an hour. No one came to help me and I got angry. I realized that this was a test, and I was able to forbear.
At work I experienced conflicts, and my child also gave me problems at home. However, I knew that these were just hints to get rid of my attachments. I understood that there are always two sides—the good and the evil. I calmed down and told myself to choose the good way to solve problems.
Once when I returned home from a Fa-study session, my husband became very angry. I advised him that it was not good to get angry. I also tried to forbear.
He demanded that I renounce Falun Dafa and accused me of having an affair. I experienced a few difficult days, but while I endured the altercation, I saw yellow and purple bright lights. The light moved toward my face, and it felt as if it was encouraging me to hang in there. This firmed up my righteous thoughts.
There was once an experience sharing conference. I could not have gone if my husband had been at home, but he was delayed in coming home from an out-of-town trip. Thus, I was able to attend. Master saw my wish and arranged for me to go.
I also felt my body change during these months. Sometimes, I felt my body was hot, like I had come down with a fever. Other times, I had an unpleasant headache, or I felt uncomfortable in some way. I wondered why there were so many problems. But, studying Falun Dafa, I understood that Master was adjusting my body. I stopped paying attention to them, and gradually the problems went away.
During this time, I could feel something like an electric current flowing from my palms. Also, when I walked or drove, I felt an electric current flowing down my legs, head, and back. My skin was no longer sensitive and became soft.
I regret that I could not attend group Fa-study more because of my husband, but I still attended the group exercises in the park every Saturday. I also read the Fa during my breaks at work.
I realized that studying the Fa could truly help me understand more Fa principles. When conflicts happened, the Fa taught me how to react as a true practitioner. But, sometimes I still have human notions and do not do as well as I should. I will feel upset, look inward, and try to improve my xinxing.
Falun Dafa is wonderful. I am no longer interested in reading other books, and I have became peaceful and compassionate. I try to be easygoing, take things lightly, and not be attached to ordinary human things. I also know that any improvement is because of Dafa. Therefore, I will cultivate more diligently and further improve myself.
Telling people about Falun Dafa is important, too. I talk to friends about it on the phone, or I send short messages. Since I have found such a great practice, I want others to have the same opportunity.
The above is my personal understanding. Please kindly point out anything inappropriate.