(Minghui.org) After reading an experience sharing article by a fellow practitioner on the issue of illness karma, I was truly inspired and suddenly had a better understanding.
To my surprise, as my xinxing improved, I easily overcame the illness karma that had interfered with me for years. Thus, I would like to share my experience with fellow practitioners, especially those that are still suffering from illnesses.
I have been practicing Falun Gong for years. I deeply understand that it is crucial to firmly believe in the Fa and Teacher in every step along ones cultivation path. After letting go of the attachment of “illness karma,” my body was transformed by the high energy matter. My hands and feet often felt especially strong with warm energy flowing through them.
The illness karma had manifested in two forms – one was a tumor and the other cervical spine pain.
The pain in my cervical spine lasted over ten years. It radiated to my head and at one point was accompanied by continuous abdominal pain. I went to the hospital to have it examined after much pressure from my family. To my surprise, the computed tomography (CT) scan revealed numerous tumors in my liver. Four or five of them were the size of an egg yolk, and many others were smaller. My husband was very nervous. On the contrary, I firmly believed that they were all illusions. Gradually I forgot about it until I went back for another examination one year later. All of the masses had disappeared!
Witnessing the miracle, my husband and the rest of my family were shocked and my husband started believing in Falun Gong.
I had the first dream when Jiang’s regime started persecuting Falun Gong practitioners. In my dream, Teacher was teaching the Fa in a classroom and many practitioners were in the audience. Suddenly I found that the building was surrounded by many policemen. I shouted, “The policemen are here!” However, Teacher continued lecturing as if he didn’t hear me.
I held out my arms without hesitation and blocked the entrance. After being shot many times, I shouted with my last bit of strength, “Teacher, I go first!” I then woke up and remembered this dream vividly.
If I could truly let go of life and death, how could I still be bothered by the pain in my cervical spine? I looked inward and remembered that I was forced to quit a great job at the beginning of the persecution, and took some simple jobs to make ends meet. I thought that I could let go of anything. However, some attachments were deeply hidden, such as the attachment to self interest, lust and desire. As a result, I had suffered some retributions in life. After I read experience sharing articles on the Minghui website, I became more diligent in studying the Fa and eliminated many attachments.
I had the second dream this year. In my dream, Teacher entered a classroom. I felt that my body was surrounded by an enormous amount of energy. Teacher walked toward me without saying a word. He had something in his hands that looked like a ruler. Teacher hinted that I needed to place the ruler vertically instead of horizontally.
I didn’t completely understand the meaning of this dream until I read a fellow practitioner’s article regarding illness karma. I instantly realized that it was my human notions that were blocking me from improving. I needed to view illness karma from a different angle.
Pain and suffering are all illusions that I don’t need to pay attention to, and should be completely let go. Because I had been blocked by my human notions for so long, I was stuck at that level.
One thought determines the outcome. The tumor that was considered a deadly disease disappeared very soon. However, the pain in my cervical spine tortured me for over ten years. These two different outcomes resulted from my own thoughts.
Teacher said,
“When your character improves, your body really changes.” ( “Zhuan Falun” )
“Does he truly treat himself as a god and pay no attention to any of it whatsoever?” (“Teaching the Fa in San Francisco, 2005”)
If we thoroughly eliminate human notions, everything will change for the better.