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A Tough Childhood
I grew up in a home filled with domestic violence. I was often beaten by my father whenever my parents were the least bit displeased with me. They never wanted to spend any money on me, even on things I needed.
When I was in fifth grade, my father often gave my younger brother pocket money for snacks. I wanted some, too, but my parents just scolded me. From then on, my mother always gave my brother money behind my back. I didn't say anything even if I saw her doing it, because I knew there was no point and I would only get into trouble if I did.
When it was raining, my father told me to wear an old pair of rain boots and bought my brother a new pair. When I ran out of clothes, I had to wear my mother's old clothes, which were big on me. My mother often bought herself new clothes. When I saw my mother wearing well-fitting dresses and her hair beautifully styled, I felt really envious.
One day I took the several dozen yuan my grandmother had given me and asked a relative to buy me some cloth to have some new clothes made. My mother found the material. She and my brother mocked my poor taste and said I was an idiot. My father scolded me and beat me. In the end he chased me out of the house to a big pit east of our house and kicked me into it.
Falun Dafa Changes My Outlook on Life
On January 2, 1998, I was very fortunate to learn about Falun Dafa. My aunt had just become a practitioner, and she took me to stay with her in her house. Every day, I watched her reading Zhuan Falun and listening to the Fa lectures.
Master said:
“Let us talk about a truly foolish person, for this principle is totally reversed at high levels. A foolish person is unlikely to do major wrongdoing among everyday people, and neither is he likely to compete and fight for self-interest. He does not seek fame or lose de, but others will give him de. Beating him up and swearing at him will both give de to him, and this substance is extremely valuable. In our universe, there is this principle: no loss, no gain. To gain, one must lose. When others see this very foolish person, they will all verbally abuse him: 'You’re such a fool.' With this verbal abuse, a piece of de will be thrown over there. By taking advantage of him, you are the gaining side, so you must lose something. If one walks over and kicks him: 'You’re such a big idiot.' Well, a big chunk of de will again be tossed to him. When someone bullies or kicks him, he will only smile: 'Bring it on. You’re giving me de all the same, and I’m not going to reject a bit of it!' Then according to the principles at high levels, think about it, who’s smart? Isn’t this person smart? He is the smartest one, as he does not lose any de.” (Lecture Nine in Zhuan Falun)
I felt as if I were coming out of darkness into the light of day, and I began cultivating.
When I was later illegally arrested or beaten or forced to leave home or sentenced to forced labor, I never gave up cultivating.
When I was detained in a forced labor camp, my family never visited me and my relatives did not send me any money. I was the youngest at the labor camp. When fellow practitioners learned about my situation, they gave me clothes and put money into my account. I didn't even know some of them.
A Supportive Husband
Now I'm married, and my husband is very supportive of me and Dafa. I was destitute when I met him. At first he asked me to give up Dafa. I told him it was absolutely impossible.
From then on, he went with me to distribute truth-clarification materials and CDs. We also installed a dish to watch NTDTV programs. Initially, he was worried that I took too many materials with me and that people might throw them away, so he always followed me. It was snowing hard and he got all wet, but he never complained.
Becoming More Compassionate
In the past, I tended to be very pessimistic, which also manifested in my cultivation. I noticed that fellow practitioners could always help many people quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations, but I only managed to help very few, and sometimes none. I reflected on myself and thought: "When you clarify the facts to everyday people, they only notice your appearance, your speech, and deportment. If I don't appear easygoing, graceful, open, and upright, why would they think that Dafa was good?"
Because I wanted to change my notions I had formed over time, Master helped eliminate some of the unrefined elements in me. I relaxed and had more compassion towards people. I always had a smile on my face, and more people were touched by my kindness and were willing to quit the Party.
I had some extraordinary experiences this year when I distributed Shen Yun Performing Arts DVDs. Sometimes people rode motorbikes to try to catch up with me for the DVDs; taxi drivers came to me for more copies when someone else took theirs; some said they had seen it before, that it was very good, and that they had passed it along; some cursed the evil CCP; some raised up their thumbs in support; some shouted “Falun Dafa is good;” some said, “I'll only take it if it is about Falun Gong;” some asked for my phone number for contact; some were former fellow practitioners; some found it incredible that I was so young, but so brave...... I ran into all kinds of people.
Of course I also encountered people who threatened me, but I was not scared and acted in a dignified manner.
My parents recently moved to the city I'm living in to be closer to my brother. I've let go of resentment and jealousy through cultivation and tried my best to help them. I keep rectifying myself in Dafa.
Because of the changes in me, my relationship with my parents has also improved. My father has repeatedly apologized to me, saying that he was not very nice to me when I was young. I didn't say anything, just smiled. My mother also recently told me that she treated her daughter-in-law much better than she treated me, but never heard one word of appreciation. I just smiled and felt very calm inside.
It's so wonderful to cultivate in Dafa! It's so wonderful to be Master's disciple! Thank you, Master! Thank you, fellow practitioners!
