(Minghui.org) When I started to write down this experiences sharing article, I had only practiced Falun Dafa for about six months. Though it is a short period of time, I had an intense six months of cultivation practice and have passed several tests already.
I used to be an atheist due to the Chinese Communist Party's brainwashing education and propaganda. Even so, I still believe that one shall have faith, otherwise one's soul will be lack of sustenance.
At one occasion after I moved to UK, I met a few Falun Dafa practitioners and attended a forum about the Chinese Communist Party's (CCP) forced organ harvesting from live Falun Dafa practitioners. I was very shocked at the CCP's atrocity. It also reminded me what my grandmother had experienced in China.
My grandma had served the Communist Party most of her life. When she was 80 years old, she started to practice Falun Gong. When the regime started the crack down on Falun Gong, she refused to renounce her belief and continued to practice. Thus, she was detained into a “small dark cell” for over two days and nearly died in the custody.
I told these Falun Dafa practitioners my grandma's story with a strong hatred of the CCP. The practitioners told me what a Falun Dafa practitioner would view the persecution based on the principle of Fa, how to abandon the mentality of hatred and what a Falun Dafa practitioner would do. The sincere sharing moved me and broke the lock of hatred on my heart. I began to think what kind of practice it is that can have so many followers to have such a pure heart in an extra complex society.
So I started to read the book Zhuan Falun seriously. I was attracted by the book from the very beginning. When I told a Falun Dafa practitioner my excitement, she said that perhaps it was because I had a strong pre-destined relation with Falun Dafa in my previous lives and reincarnations. I read through the book without any difficulty to understand the teaching and I enlightened to some new understandings every time I read the book and the new scriptures.
When I was soaked in the happiness of obtaining the Fa, the test to a practitioner began. First, one of my child infected with salmonella virus and had vomit and diarrhea for a month. Then my husband had tendinitis and could hardly move one arm. Fellow practitioners shared with me that I should face those obstacles as a test and I could overcome it quickly. So I continued the daily Fa-study and took well care of the family at the same time. Both of them healed after a month. This experience taught me that cultivation practice is not so easy as walking on a leveled path.
Shortly after the family member illness test, I joined other practitioners in group Fa-study and “Stop Forced Organ Harvesting” signature drive. Next, I accompanied a practitioner to go to three local colleges to clarify truth of Falun Gong to the Chinese international students. She talked to the students one after one with persistence and compassion. I saw the greatness of Falun Dafa in her and understood that a practitioner shall not only save oneself but also save other sentient beings.
When I expressed my intention to clarify truth to the Chinese people, a practitioner recommended me to join RTC Global Quitting CCP Platform. I connected to the internet meeting room to listen to other practitioners making phone calls to China. From time to time, I also tried to make a phone call myself. But when I picked up the phone, my hand began to tremble and my throat tightened. So I was a pure listener for two months.
But the experiences I learned from listening helped me to clarify truth to Chinese people face to face. Once I met two Chinese visiting scholars in a store. They were buying nutrition supplements and formula milks. I took the initiative to talk to them by introducing some products to them. During the chats, they complained the lack of food safety in China. I took the chance to tell them the democracy in UK and compared that to the corruptness of the CCP in China. In the end, they agreed to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations (Youth League and Young Pioneer).
Learning from this successful experience, I began to bring English and Chinese printed materials wherever I went. Later on, I helped a few more Chinese people to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations. With the newly acquired confidence and hands-on truth-clarification experiences, I began to think about calling China again.
At this time, one incident scared me off. One practitioner told me that a Chinese Supermarket didn't allow (Chinese language newspaper) Epoch Times to be there for customers in fearing of the retaliation from the Communist Regime. I jumped into battle mode and traveled a long way to that Chinese Supermarket. I thought that I could distribute some truth-clarification materials there and if possible I might help some people to quit the CCP too. The outcome was not like I had expected. I stood in the chilly wind outside of the supermarket for 15 minutes. No one cared of my materials and no one quit the CCP. I tried again at a local Chinese supermarket and experienced the same defeat. I was scared and for a long time no matter what other practitioners shared with me or encouraged me, I couldn't overcome the fear.
So the attachment of fear owned me for a long time until the Chinese Lunar New Year celebration. At the RTC platform, one practitioner talked about a special calling project targeting residents of Beijing City and encouraged everyone to participate. The word resonated in my mind all day long and in the evening when I read the book Zhuan Falun, I read the section talking about the attachment of zealotry. I suddenly understood that Master wanted to use the two setbacks to help me overcome the attachment of zealotry. I understood that being a true Falun Dafa disciple, I shall not yield to fear, instead I must have the courage to overcome any hardship.
After made up my mind, I took a package of phone numbers and began to make phone calls from my home accompanied by a fellow practitioner. The beginning was difficult. People hung up on me, cursed me and my two children of one year old and two years old cried for attention. Some times, when the phone was connected and I began to talk, the kids began to cry and I forgot my words. So the other end hung up on me and refused to pick up the phone when I dialed again.
The fellow practitioner encouraged me and helped me to deal with the situations. Gradually, after a few days, I established the schedule for making phone calls and the rule for the kids. When I began to make phone calls, the kids knowingly played by themselves. Between the phone calls, I would comfort them and praised them for their cooperation. They were happy too.
On February 4 th , I started to make phone calls after sending forth righteous thoughts. At first, everything went on right. I helped two people quit the affiliated organization Young Pioneers. Then I felt my attachment of zealotry merged again. Next, several people hung up on me and followed by a few curses. I was annoyed and wanted to give up. The practitioner accompanied me encouraged me to continue and overcome the frustration. I dialed another number. He hung up after I spoke a few words. I looked at her and asked, “Shall I continue?” In my heart, I was afraid that the next person I called might curse me. Again she encouraged me to continue.
I took some time to calm down and refocus my mind to the purpose of saving those Chinese people. I dialed again. The person I called agreeably quit the CCP!
The experiences of making phone calls to China greatly helped me to improve in my cultivation and I could see my improvement every day. Here I want to thank Master and the practitioners who had accompanied me and encouraged me. I also want to share with those practitioners who had not overcome the obstacles and didn't actively participate in any project to save lives. Master had said that the time left for Dafa disciples is very limited. We shall do as Master told us to save more sentient beings. One can't improve without breaking away from the comfort zone. Don't be afraid to make mistakes. Advancement on the path of cultivation is the only thing that matters.