(Minghui.org) I saw my sister become very healthy after she started to practice Falun Gong in 1998. I thought to myself, “This is such a wonderful practice--I am going to cultivate, too.”
I had never read Zhuan Falun, but I had the thought that cultivation was miraculous.
One day when my chest started hurting as though something was expanding from inside. My sister told me that it was karma being eliminated and that I should pay no attention to it. I was in great pain when my sister called. Tears were rolling down my cheeks and my sister laughed at me for not being stronger.
I studied the Fa and watched Teacher Li's lecture videos and I learned about karma elimination. When my chest hurt again, I thought, “The more pain I have, the better, because the karma is being eliminated faster.” After that thought, my chest never hurt again. All of my ailments such as rheumatism, rhinitis, bronchitis, and lung disease gradually disappeared. Being free of illness was so wonderful.
I didn’t know the purpose of life before I started cultivation. I was always worried about getting old, being unhappy, or that someone I loved would die. I was often depressed. I understood the meaning of life when I started cultivation. I became optimistic and had a positive outlook, and the desire for intrigue and personal gain lessened.
The relationship with my mother-in-law was not very good when I was first married. After I started practicing Falun Gong, I paid special attention to her. My relationships with everyone in the family improved. My mother-in-law praised me to everyone. I also became more caring toward my own parents. I didn’t really listen to them or understand them before I practiced.
There were a lot of practitioners in my area at that time, and I went to a park in the mornings to do the exercises and joined group Fa-study in the evenings. Fellow practitioners and I would go to other areas on the weekends to tell people about the practice. We helped each other and we thought about the wellbeing of others. Everyone felt privileged to be a part of this cultivation group. It was the best time of my life.
The persecution of Falun Gong started on July 20, 1999, and rumors and defamatory remarks flew everywhere. My belief in the Fa never wavered even during the darkest times, as I knew it was righteous and that the principles taught people to be good. Practitioners clarified the truth to the government and the world with compassion while under enormous pressure.
I let go of the attachment to self-interest at work. I worked hard and got along well with my co-workers. I told everyone I met the truth about Falun Gong. Everyone at work received gifts from vendors, such as gift cards or vouchers. Out of 200 employees, I was the only one who refused such gifts.
When people asked me why I refused the gifts, I explained to them why Falun Gong practitioners don't accept gifts. I took my responsibilities at work seriously. My manager often praised me for not making mistakes. His evaluation of me said, “Hardworking--I cannot find anything to fault.”
The manager picked me as a model worker and gave me a raise even when the persecution was most severe.
I was eventually illegally arrested for distributing Falun Gong truth-clarifying materials and sent to a forced labor camp. I lost my job and my husband divorced me. I knew I had many human notions and that I had not cultivated well in certain regards. I learned my lesson and studied the Fa diligently after I came home from the labor camp. I have memorized Zhuan Falun six or seven times. I also studied Master’s lectures and joined a group Fa-study in our area.
With newly acquired computer skills, I helped many fellow practitioners set up material sites in their homes. I did my best to teach them basic computer operations. At first, I would only download the materials, and print or burn CDs and DVDs. I am now able to make books and design greeting cards and beautiful colored designs that are printed on paper currency bills. I put my righteous thoughts into whatever I do so people will learn the truth from reading the materials and be saved.
When there are technical issues, I use righteous thoughts to solve the problem. I quickly master the technology needed to do a job, such as creating greeting cards with Photoshop. Even though I was not very familiar with the software, I realized that when I was focused and held very strong righteous thoughts, my mind would become clear and sharp. I often felt that Master was helping me. Sometimes when I accidentally touched a key, it was just what I needed. I could do almost anything I wanted. The images I created looked so professional that even I found it hard to believe.
I have greatly benefited from reading Minghui articles. I've recognized my own shortcomings by learning from fellow practitioners. By studying the Fa and learning from practitioners’ experiences, the attachments of fear, selfishness, and the desire to validate myself are easier to let go of. The results of my cultivation have been that almost all of my family and friends have withdrawn from the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations, and some of them are policemen.
I look young even though I am over 40. People are often surprised to learn how old I am. That has become a good conversation starter for clarifying the truth. Many people thought I was a college student and some told me I looked well educated.
I have been handing out Shen Yun Performing Arts DVDs since last year, and this year I have already given out several hundred of them. When I am out of DVDs, I just tell people the facts about Falun Gong and advise them to withdraw from the CCP and its affiliated organizations. It has become an integral part of my life, and my righteous thoughts have become stronger. I have steadfast belief in the Fa and in Master, and it is such an honor to be able to help people understand the truth about Falun Gong.
I do my best to do the three things well. I feel that studying the Fa and cultivating are very important. If one cannot cultivate diligently, one cannot improve no matter how many things a person does. I used to force myself to endure when I encountered a conflict. Now, I am not moved by conflict when my cultivation state is good. I am able to look inward when a conflict really troubles me. Resentments vaporize in a second when I recognize an attachment, and I can feel the wonderful state of xinxing improvement.
At times, I am able to put myself in someone else's shoes when I face criticism. I am free of resentment, and I can almost feel what it is like to be solid as diamond. There are, however, times where I am not able to control my emotions. I feel anxious and helpless when I see fellow practitioners treat one another with human notions. I know that I have not been doing well when I compare myself to truly diligent practitioners.
I will do better in the future and improve the environment around me. I will strive to save more people, harmonize Master's arrangements, walk my path well to live up to Master’s salvation, and not leave any regrets.
Thank you, Master. Thank you, fellow practitioners. Please kindly point out anything inappropriate.