(Minghui.org) I finished distributing the Falun Dafa informational material I had on hand. The next day, before group Fa study, I asked Practitioner A whether we had any more. She said that we had run out two weeks before.
I asked, "How we could have run of truth clarification materials?" I was upset and did not pay attention to my tone of voice or my attitude and did not consider Practitioner A's feelings. As result, Practitioner A got angry. She said, “All you know how to do is to be dependent on others. You never consider how difficult it is for practitioners who make those materials. You are so picky. From now on, do not come to me for materials." Her words stunned me. I hurried to apologize, but she was still angry.
I went home and looked inwards. I realized that Practitioner A was right. I am indeed heavily dependent on others! But we need to hurry up and save people.
I thought I should buy a printer and make materials myself. So I quickly purchased an ink-jet printer, supplies, and other accessories and downloaded the latest truth clarification materials. I began to print them. Looking at the good quality materials I printed out, I thought I would never again have to go to Practitioner A's home.
As I was feeling so pleased, the blue printer nozzle clogged. How could a new printer stop working after printing only 200 copies? I was puzzled. I cleaned the nozzle several times according to the instructions, but it was still clogged.
Then I did deep cleaning several times following the instructions, but it still did not work. Why was it so badly clogged? I could not print anything for three days! Sending righteous thoughts and trying to communicate with the printer did not work.
I started to blame the manufacturer for the problem. I believed it was a printer quality issue, but I could not get in touch with customer service. What I should do?
I could not solve the problem by seeking a solution from others. I remembered that I should look inwards to find the solution as a cultivator. Nothing happens without a reason on our path of cultivation. Why couldn't I enlighten to it?
Now I thought of the conflict between Practitioner A and me. Practitioner A had provided me with truth clarification material for half a year, and she also helped me to buy a cell phone and phone cards to clarify the truth. She had helped me to get a copy of Zhuan Falun.
I had developed negative thoughts about her just because of one incident. I had not attended group study at her home for three weeks. Hadn't I fallen into the old forces’ trap to separate Dafa disciples from one another? Dafa disciples are one body. How could I not go to her home to study the Fa and not want to see her again just because of this?
I suddenly realized that I was not compassionate, and I had not done well with forbearance, either. Don't we cultivate to assimilate to truthfulness, compassion, and forbearance? I felt so ashamed.
I realized why the nozzle was getting clogged. It was simply because I was wrong. I was not behaving according to Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. I made informational materials out of anger for Practitioner A. With such an impure heart, how could I do well with this sacred task of saving people?
After realizing this, my heart was at ease, and Master helped me. I found a post on the web that addressed the printer problem: Soak the printer head in distilled water. I went to the supermarket and bought the distilled water.
As I was soaking the part, I found a leak at the connection between the blue color tube and the cartridge. The root cause was found. I repaired it quickly. The nozzle was working again three hours later. It did not have any problems after printing non-stop for four hours! I cried and smiled as I looked at the beautiful truth clarification booklets.
As I was writing this, Master's words came to mind:
“Do you realize that as long as you’re a cultivator, in any environment or under any circumstances, I will use any troubles or unpleasant things you come across—even if they involve work for Dafa, or no matter how good or sacred you think they are—to eliminate your attachments and expose your demon-nature so that it can be eliminated, for your improvement is what’s most important.” (“Further Understanding,” Essentials For Further Advancement)
We cultivate to improve our xinxing, and cultivation is serious. I hope we can form an unbreakable whole body with our pure minds. We can only do well with the three things and save more people with a pure heart!