(Minghui.org)
I didn't have much difficulty while growing up. After I divorced in 1993, I had been living in various places and doing temporary jobs.
After I began practicing Falun Dafa, I met and married a fellow practitioner. Then we moved to a rural area and had many difficulties. I gave birth to a child when I was 46 years old. I had to take care of my eighty-year-old mother-in-law. It was hard for me to handle all of this.
Master said in “The Fourth Talk” in Zhuan Falun:
“And whether you can cultivate, that all depends on whether you can endure, whether you can make sacrifices, and whether you can take the hardship. If you’re able to steel your will, no difficulty can block you, and I’d say it’ll be no problem.”
So I decided to see all of these challenges as opportunities to improve myself, assist my family members, and show others the goodness of Dafa.
Now my son is 5 years old and can recite several Hong Yin poems. My relationship with my mother-in-law has become more harmonious. Sometimes when I went out to distribute truth-clarification materials, she would help me pack them. When someone came to our home, she helped me when I talked to them about Falun Gong.
My family has only a small piece of farm land, which does not supply enough food for the whole family. Every year, we grow scallions around our house and the income from selling the scallions is the main income for our family. Every spring, I drive our motorized three-wheel vehicle to sell scallions. I always consider this as an opportunity to save people. Each time before I go out, my husband and I first send forth righteous thoughts, then we pack truth-clarification materials in the tool box, burn incense to Master, and study Fa. The results have been good. I not only sold all our scallions, but I also helped people learn about Falun Gong.
Every time I went out to sell scallions, I treated everyone who came to buy scallions as someone who has a predestined relationship with me. I used this opportunity to clarify the truth to them about Falun Gong and persuade them to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliates. I often did so in front of a group of people. Master reinforced me. Before people picked up their scallions or got their change, I would hand them a Shen Yun DVD and truth-clarification brochure. Sometimes more than a dozen people quit the Party at once. Sometimes I parked my vehicle near a crowd of people, just to clarify the truth, hand out Shen Yun DVDs, and persuade people to quit the CCP.
One day, it was a little late. I went to a village to clarify the truth and hand out Shen Yun DVDs. I met a young man there. He asked me if I dared to go to police station to do this and kept saying how good the Party is. I said to him: “Young man, don't talk like this. You can leave if you don't like what I am saying. You cannot stop me. Don't you see there are so many people who want to listen to what I am saying?” He still didn't want to leave. A bystander stood up and said to the man: “Be on your way. What's the use of your saying this? If you don't believe it, leave!” The young man was quiet at once. I was thankful for Master's mercy from my heart, and I thanked Master for helping maintain a field of clarifying the truth.
Another time, I came cross a bad person who asked another person to report me to police. But the caller was a stammerer. By the time the call went through, the phone was taken away by the person's wife. As long as one keep's righteous thoughts in mind, interference can always be eliminated.
Once I was clarifying the truth in a village, when a car suddenly drove up. A man over 50 years old got out and walked toward me. He pointed at me and said loudly: “You dare to hand out materials here in public?” I pretended I didn't hear what he said and walked up to him with smile. I grabbed his arm and said: “Hey brother, stop shouting like that. I am saying how good Falun Dafa is and that quitting the CCP ensures a peaceful life. I can tell that you are a Party member. I can help you quit the Party by using a nickname.” The man was stunned. Perhaps my calmness and mercy froze his thoughts. He changed his attitude and said: “I am a Party member. I won't quit.” He went back and sat in the car. He even smiled at me. I went over and gave some informational materials to the driver. I told the driver to read it through and that it is good for him. The driver took the materials and drove away.
Last winter, there were heavy snowfalls. I went to a neighboring village that is one mile away. I met a young man, gave him a Shen Yun DVD, and helped him quit the Party. He pointed to a convenience store and said: “Hurry and go in that store. A big crowd is there.” I hesitated for a second. He said again: “Hurry up!” Suddenly I understood that this was a hint from Master. I walked right into the store, and there were over ten people. I told them right away that my purpose of coming here was to tell them the truth about Dafa and help them make the three withdrawals. I handed out six to seven Shen Yun DVDs and helped five to six people quit the Party. An old man tried to drive me away several times and didn't want me talking there. Another person said to him: “What she is saying is good for us. Why does that bother you?” That day I helped 27 people quit the CCP. I felt very happy after coming home. However, my zealotry emerged unconsciously.
About one week later, I went to clarify the truth face to face and distribute Shen Yun DVDs. Since I had done well the last time and because I thought my cultivation state was quite good, I developed zealotry. I planned to go to a place that was far away. I also did something I never did; I told my husband where the money and valuables were. I also told him that practitioner X's son worked as a driver in a police station. My husband gave me a weird look, but he didn't say a word.
I carried a big bag of materials, and I fell to the ground several times on the way to the village. Finally I got to the village. Many people in this village believe in other religions, and very few people understood the truth about Falun Gong. It was in the afternoon. I only helped six people quit the Party. I walked into one home and asked for a glass of water. The homeowner kindly made me a cup of tea. I helped the family quit the CCP.
Later, as I came out of a house, an older gentlemen called me: “Are you a Falun Gong practitioner?” I said: “Yes.” He said to me nervously: “Hurry to come in. There are police outside to arrest you.” His son came home and said: “Someone called the police and told them there is a Falun Gong who is distributing materials in the village.” I stayed there for about an hour. It was almost dark. The gentleman went out several times to see if the police left. Finally he happily said to me: “The police car is gone; I have checked all the intersections.”
I dragged my exhausted and hungry body back home. It started to snow. I fell into a pit while trying to find a shortcut. When I got home, I told my husband: “You should look within! I suffered quite a lot today.” My husband said: “Look within yourself. In the past you went out whenever you wanted, never said anything to me, and you always came home safely. Today, you left home with attachments.”
I saw my attachments and thanked Master for protecting me.
One day I was going home after I finished selling scallions. I passed by a home on the roadside. An over 30-year-old young man asked me: “Sister, do you still have scallions?” I stopped my vehicle and saw several people there. I told them: “Come over. I don't have scallions, but we still can chat for a while.” I started to clarify the truth to them. A few women and an older lady joined us and they asked for a a Dafa amulet.
Then, an elderly man came over. After he heard that I was talking about Falun Dafa, he started to swear at me. He came to my vehicle, grabbed a Shen Yun DVD from another person, cracked the DVD, and threw it away. He also threatened to call the police. I said to him loudly: “Sir, I am expressing my personal belief, I didn't do anything wrong. I was imprisoned and detained at the police station. I am not afraid of this.” That man lowered his voice and said: “Ok, I won't report you.” Then he left.
An older lady said to me: “Ignore him. He used to be a village official.” This reminded me of the importance of having righteous thoughts at all times. The righteous thoughts are from the Fa. Studying the Fa well is essential to maintaining righteous thoughts.
I experienced quite a lot while I assisted Master in rectifying the Fa during this period of time. I still have a long way to go. I will study the Fa well, look inward more, save more sentient beings, and walk the cultivation path well.