(Minghui.org) I started practicing Falun Dafa when I was a child. I was always bullied, and it was only after I had a dream that I underwent a big change. While growing up, I treated others with kindness so as to lay the foundation for speaking to them about Falun Dafa. Due to my kindness, many of my classmates and colleagues quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). My gap was later exploited by the old forces, but Master did not give up on me and I was able to keep myself from walking on a path to self-destruction. I am thankful to Master for all that he has done for me. I would like to share some of the details of my cultivation experiences.
I recently turned 24. Due to the government's one-child per family policy, a few days after I was born in 1989 I was sent to live with my aunt. I only returned home after my mother started cultivating Falun Dafa in 1996. Then my mother often brought me with her to group Fa-study. Although I was naughty because I was so young, the seeds of Dafa were deeply rooted in my being.
Obtaining the Fa and Cultivating: An Arrangement Made Long Ago
After studying the Fa, I knew that first I had to be a good girl. I remembered once when I went to buy a bun, the seller had a bad attitude when he saw that I was young. I told my mother about it after I got home. I knew that I must tolerate him and not treat him poorly.
Young children like to pick flowers, but I knew that flowers have life too, so I could control myself and not hurt the flowers. Sometimes, I even told other children not to hurt them.
I also helped around the house with the cleaning when I saw that my mother had been working so hard.
Many mystical things happened to me. I was amazed at water trickling down to a pond and forming beautiful ripples, and I would lay by the edge of the pond and stare at it. Suddenly, the water became a big eye that blinked at me. It scared the daylights out of me. I remembered that seemed pure and innocent. Through studying the Fa, I knew that this was the real eye that Master had given me. Once I could clearly hear a female voice thanking me when I cleaned a cabinet.
I seldom practiced the exercises with my mother when I was young. Despite that, my body was very sensitive. I could clearly feel that my palms were atop an object when I meditated. Another time I was resting after finishing the practice when my Primordial Spirit levitated and left my human body. With no body weight, the feeling was wonderful.
In a dream during the summer vacation of 2004, I was a plump and compassionate old lady in one of my previous lives. I was saying to myself, “Alas, how did I spend my life?” This made me so sad that I cried till I woke up. This question was a reflection of all that I had suffered in lifetime after lifetime of reincarnations to obtain the Fa.
Since then, I have had a deeper understanding of the suffering I endured as a child in this lifetime. When I returned home to live with my mother, I had to maintain that she was my aunt and my aunt was my mother. This wasn't easy for a six-year-old. My older sister often hit me, because she was afraid I'd come back to steal our parents' love from her. I did things cautiously, but a good thing can mysteriously become a bad thing, which in my case resulted in my being criticized, looked down upon, and ridiculed.
My mother's health was not good, and she couldn't do anything when she saw that I was always so foolish. Whether it was in school or at home, I was always the timid one that was the most foolish or incompetent. Thus, I was always picked on.
After graduating from middle school at the age of 13, my parents decided to have me learn to be a nanny. With that skill and type of job, my parents would be more at ease because they worried about how I would survive in society, since I was always bullied.
I enlightened from the Fa that my experiences as a child were an arrangement to eliminate my attachments and karma. My wisdom was blocked in order to prevent the acquired ordinary notions from contaminating my nature and creating obstacles in understanding the Fa.
Visions in My Dreams
I had another dream not long after the first one. I dreamed that I was a little mascot dressed like those in Minghui paintings. I was following behind my mother and flying above the pure water, mischievously playing with the small carp. At that moment, Buddha Maitreya appeared from the shore and smiled at me. He took out a golden banner similar to those of an ancient imperial edict. Five characters, “And assist Master as he journeys this human world ...” (“Teaching the Fa at the Conference in New Zealand”), were written on it. It was a turning point in my personal and Fa-rectification cultivation.
Because my mother studied the Fa with me when I was young, gradually as I grew up, I knew the preciousness of the Fa and was able to study it seriously. These two dreams were also encouragement from Master. However, at that time I had studied the Fa less, and I did not realize that this was the vow I had previously signed with Master. It was only after watching a Shen Yun Performing Arts show that I was suddenly awakened.
After that summer break, I underwent a thorough change, and all my relatives and friends could see it, too. Master had pushed my personal cultivation to a higher point. Upon seeing different ordinary people every day, my first glance at them revealed the origin of that person. From the bottom of my heart, I could tell their nature, which was not acquired or known, and my thought was “A life is here to obtain the Fa. Wake up quickly.” Compassion filled my heart as I looked at that person. I shed tears and felt sad for those lives that are lost in the human world.
At that time, when a thought came to my mind, I would seize it and elevate it with the standard of the Fa. Later, I realized that many thoughts arise from attachments and that every thought was an attachment. I thought, “I must calm my mind. Aside from having to maintain learning and everyday life, there must not be a trace of human notions. I must control my brain, and when it is idle, I must recite, 'Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.'”
Different Ways to Spread Dafa
I later went to another area for school, but my mother did not find a Fa-study group for me. When school first started, I brought a Dafa book and read it in the hostel. There were eight people in our room there, and I was staying in the upper area so I could read. Once I placed the book on my bed and went to the bathroom. My curious roommates saw that it was Falun Gong, and the seven of them got together and isolated me. They told me about this only after I had talked to them about Falun Gong.
I brought some Dafa books that my mother had copied and an MP3 player to listen to Master's audio lectures to study the Fa. At that time I could not wait to listen to Master's lecture after class every day. They were my happiest moments, and I would run to the playground during the noon break to listen to them. Other than my studies, I could almost finish listening to one of Master's lectures each day. Master's voice was calling compassionately for my true nature, and I lived each day with diligence that enriched my life.
I treated everyone around me kindly and hoped that one day I could share Dafa with them. A girl who was our class monitor was crowded out by other students, but I did not know why. Once, she had a dejected look with her head down when she was at the podium. As I did not have any thoughts, suddenly I felt compassion for this sentient being and wrote her a note, “Cheer up!” I saw tears in her eyes the moment she saw the note.
Helping people to understand Dafa is a step by step process. In the beginning, I talked to my friends about traditional culture and how Dafa requires us to be a good person. I would then compare it with the current state of our materialistic and modern society. I would give them some truth-clarification materials (when they were available) as I spoke to them. Without any thoughts, I used a pure heart that would inspire people's kind thoughts.
Sometimes, I could feel myself covered by compassion and sacredness when talking to them about Dafa. My classmates and I would be moved to tears many times by thoughts from our true nature. I thank Master for his compassion and care. By cultivating myself well, I can save people. Clarifying the truth is also cultivating myself and purifying my inner heart.
By my internship year, nearly three-quarters of my classmates had withdrawn from the communist youth organizations. One teacher even asked me for Master's lectures. An art professor told me that she was willing to teach me without charge after I gave her a Shen Yun Performing Arts DVD. Her usual fee is more than a hundred dollars for just one lesson! I thanked her and was glad that a sentient being understood the truth.
Another thing happened during the school term. When we came to the topic of Falun Dafa in political history, my teacher just repeated the CCP slander. At that time, my seat was in the middle of the last few rows in the classroom. I stood up and said loudly, “That is incorrect. Falun Dafa teaches people to be kind.”
She was startled and thought she had not heard me clearly. She said, “What did you just say? Please repeat it.” I repeated it even louder. The classroom was very quiet, and my classmates at the front turned their heads and looked at me. The teacher said quickly, “Everyone has their own belief,” and bypassed the topic.
Letting Go of Fear
After I sat down, I was very calm, with no trace of fear, because I had done what I should do. When the final exam results were posted, I had scored 99 in that class, and at that time it was the highest score. I was gratified that a sentient being had understood the truth.
At an advisory meeting later, the topic of Falun Dafa came up. That teacher said that she had practiced Falun Gong before 1999. But the government banned the practice, and her husband was the chief of a city police department, so she stopped.
Blogs and QQ (an online text and voice messaging system) had just started during those few years when I was in school. Master gave me wisdom, and I used a blog to tell people the facts since I could not often go home to get informational materials.
I first set up an account and made a master copy of the truth-clarification materials that had been carefully edited and laid out. I even learned how to create a simple flash design with illustrations that ordinary people would enjoy watching. I tried to make the homepage clean, simple, elegant, and clear, but not too sensitive to reduce the chances of its being blocked.
I registered for 10 new accounts each time and logged into one account at a time. I reprinted the truth-clarification articles from my master copy and used the account to leave my footprints in the blog's space. After I reached the limit and could not leave any more footprints, I moved to another account and did the same. The accounts were used only once, and I would register for new accounts the next time.
According to statistics, each of the accounts I created had hundreds of hits, and some had even reached the thousands. I decided to leave footprints only--I did not chat and did not reply. I didn't think it was a good idea to stay in an Internet cafe for too long, and one hour was generally enough.
During this time, I came across a blog by a secret agent who disrupted the Fa. I initially thought he was a practitioner, but after reading some of what was written, I felt something was wrong and did not continue reading that blog. I wrote the Fa-rectification formulas (to send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil) in his blog space to eliminate the evil. Because I was studying the Fa diligently, I was able to walk righteously, and seldom had any interference.
I performed my duties as a student well. The remaining time that I had after studying the Fa was used for my studies.
My Diligence Reflected in My Performance at School and Work
Master encouraged me when I did the three things well. I often won awards for scholarship or behavior. When I did not do the three things well, I lagged slightly behind and did not do as well in school. I knew that my diligence in cultivation was reflected in my test results.
Before starting my internship, I had won nearly 40 different types of awards. And the results of my elective courses were even better than those for the courses in my major. The changes in me and the extraordinary and miraculous things that occurred in college changed the perception my father had of me. From that time on, my father never opposed my studying the Fa with my mother.
I was offered more and better career opportunities during my internship and was recommended by my teachers to a private company that was managed by a professor from another school.
I did my work diligently and was not picky about my assignments. Once when the office underground water pipes burst, everyone was busy removing the water. Ordinary people were not willing to put in more effort and hid when the supervisors were not in. I knew that as a cultivator, I could not be like them, so I put in more effort and did not complain.
When I was not busy, I put on my earphones and listened to music composed by Dafa disciples. This was to purify my dimensional field and reduce the pollution from human society.
The conflicts at work had nothing to do with me, and I treated everyone with sincerity. Later, when I gave the Shen Yun Performing Arts DVD to my supervisor, she said, “Falun Dafa is good,” stressing each syllable. She even told me, “If a thing is good, everyone will say so.”
Participating in Group Fa-study and Meeting with Practitioners
After a year's internship, my supervisor recommended at my graduation that I attend a refresher course with her in Beijing. The course would train me to be a coordinator for one of her projects. At this time, Master arranged for me to participate in a group Fa-study. This was the first time that I had participated in such a group as an adult.
It was a memorable experience to meet practitioners. The last few days before my company changed locations, I heard someone singing nearby. I was very surprised, because when I listened carefully, it turned out to be the song “Be Saved” sung by Jiang Min. Excitedly, I looked for the source of the song and found a couple, Practitioners A and B, who were doing business above where I worked. I cried the moment I saw them. I was happy to finally find fellow practitioners.
I later participated in group Fa-study at a practitioner's house. There was also an older practitioner, a woman, who had left home to avoid further persecution. The four of us were together every day. Sometimes we ate and slept at A and B's house.
I distributed truth-clarification materials on my way home from work, and at home we studied the Fa together. We did not rest until after sending forth righteous thoughts. Then at 3:55 a.m., we practiced the exercises together, followed by sending forth righteous thoughts before studying one lecture of the Fa. I went to work after that. I elevated very quickly in this group environment of Fa-study and doing the exercises together. I thanked Master and cherished this hard-to-come-by environment.
At that time, I should have thought of helping them to clean the house to reduce their workload. But I just sat back, relaxed, and benefited. Compared with other practitioners, I was really very selfish, and there really was a gap between us. Once again, thank you, fellow practitioners, for giving selflessly.
An Experience in Beijing
I later sent my resume to Beijing and was hired by a foreign company. While there, I had a brief experience validating the Fa.
I lived in the home of an uncle who was in the armed forces when I first arrived in Beijing. He and my father were best friends in school. First, I clarified the truth to the uncle's son when I stayed at their house. His son's health had been bad since he was young. He asked me, “Will Master accept me?” I gave him an e-version of the lectures. Although he could not obtain the Fa, due to his father's intervening and other reasons, he had laid a foundation for obtaining the Fa because of his pure thought towards Dafa and because he was hoping to return to his true self.
I asked him to persuade his father to withdraw from the Party, but he shook his head and said that his father was too stubborn. I was not moved and asked Master to strengthen me.
We were chatting after dinner one night and came to the topic of Chinese culture. I talked about Confucianism, Buddhism, and Taoism, and their adding radiance and beauty to the culture. The topic of belief and Dafa naturally came up.
I was usually inarticulate, but when talking to them about Falun Gong, I was eloquent. Strengthened by Master, wise words came forth in a steady stream. My uncle was very surprised and said that he also studied religions. To his surprise, he did not think that I would know so much. I told him that he could find this information in the Dafa books. He said that, when he retired, he wanted to read Zhuan Falun.
However, he suddenly changed the subject and seemed to become a different person. He said that after the April 25th incident, the Party head had a meeting and said that Dafa was involved in politics. Everything that uncle said was a repetition of the propaganda promoted by the Party.
I was a little startled by his abrupt change of attitude. I quickly looked inward and found that my attachment of zealotry had surfaced. I asked Master to strengthen me so that I could save him. I calmly asked my uncle, “Have you ever seen such a peaceful appeal before? There was not even a single piece of garbage on the ground after the practitioners left.”
His original attitude returned. His son was also helping me. I sincerely told my uncle that I hoped he could quit the Party and be safe. However, he said that everything he had was given by the Party. If there is no Party, what was he supposed to do? I told him that he would have such huge blessings, and he agreed that he would quit.
I went for a job interview the next day. From the interview to my starting work and looking for an apartment later, everything seemed to go well under compassionate Master's meticulous care and arrangement.
During the first few days of work, I was at the company door when I heard someone point to a billboard and say to the person beside him, “Learn this practice. All wisdom can be found here.” I knew that this phrase, inadvertently said by an ordinary person, was Master using an ordinary person to give me a hint.
I used the nearly four hours of my bus journey to and from work and time at night to study the Fa. At that time, when I picked up the e-version of the Dafa book, I would dissolve into the Fa and forget about my surroundings. All of my cells were studying the Fa eagerly; that feeling is sacred and wonderful. I felt that my body was tall when sending forth righteous thoughts on the bus and the righteous thoughts that I sent out were like the dignity of a Vajra eliminating the evil in another dimensional field.
On weekends and nights I went out to speak to people about Dafa and made phone calls to the numbers I had collected to tell them the facts. There are many police cars on patrol in Beijing. I had to look in all directions and be very alert when making phone calls, and I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate all factors that interfered with sentient beings to keep them from being saved. I constantly looked inward and purified my dimensional field and maintained righteous thoughts and actions so that the evil could not exploit any gap.
Once I was in a taxi and used the truth-clarification money (paper money with messages written on it) that I was holding as a means to bring up the topic. I chatted with the driver from a third party point of view. I looked at the driver's attitude and spoke to him wisely. Before I got out, he said, “I know you are a good person!”
I always tried to do a good job at work. A department manager once stared at me for a long time and said that he didn't understand why I was always so pure and that it seemed like nothing could pollute me. I was named outstanding employee several times. The regional manager in China said that I was a treasure.
Before I left Beijing, I had persuaded the colleagues in my branch to quit the CCP. When I was persuading my direct supervisor, a woman a few years older than me, she cried sadly. She apologized and said that she had treated me badly at that time due to jealousy, and she asked for my forgiveness. She said that Dafa disciples are very kind, and she even reminded me to protect myself. From the bottom of her heart she said, “Falun Dafa is really good!”
A few days before I left Beijing, I went to the market to buy some gold cloth. I cut it into several pieces and wrote, “Falun Dafa is good, and the whole world knows about it” and other truth-clarification messages. I posted them on the main street and at the bus stop. People crowded around. When I was putting it up, a police car went whistling by. Under Master's protection, I did not have any fear and left safely.
On the day of my departure, I asked a mute worker (who helped me carry my luggage) to remember, “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.” When I was on the train, he ran to my window, knocked on it, and pressed his palms together. No words could describe my feelings. These kind sentient beings are waiting to be saved.
All along, my mother could not let go of human attachments and was worried that my character was too weak. I told her, “Rest assured, I won't stir up the evil and will always use kindness. It will definitely be all right.”
It has been proven that with Master and the Fa, and when Dafa disciples walk righteously, Master will take care of everything and the righteous gods arranged by Master are looking after us, so no one will dare to touch us. When one cultivates righteously, there will be less interference. When the path is walked righteously, there will be a main road in cultivation. Having severed desires, cast off attachments, and overcome huge tests, I have witnessed Master's infinite grace and compassion.
Overcoming Tribulations Arranged by the Old Forces
Two years ago, I let up in my cultivation and did not pay serious attention to the attachment of lust, as I was not clear on the Fa principles. The old forces exploited my gap and expanded my attachment. A married practitioner, C, and I nearly followed the path of self-destruction that the old forces arranged.
In the spring of 2011, I had a dream. In my dream, I was staying on the top floor of a building when I heard people shouting downstairs. I ran to the balcony and looked down. A few people that looked like Practitioner C but weren't were downstairs scolding me. They seemed to be complaining that I was throwing dirty things down the stairs.
I explained that I did not throw them, but they did not believe me and insisted, “You are staying on the top floor. If you didn't do it, who did?” I went back into the apartment and wondered, “Who threw it? I must go to the rooftop to investigate."
With that thought, a shiver ran down my body, and I was hanging by my hands on the eave of the roof. I was losing control and sliding down. As I struggled to climb up, I shouted, “Falun Dafa is good!” After struggling a few times, I was finally sitting on the rooftop, panting.
In order to achieve their objectives, the old forces carefully arranged every step long ago. Once, I accidentally flipped to my college graduation certificate received in 2009 and saw that the certificate number was the same as the QQ number that Practitioner C used. However, we did not know each other at that time.
The old forces used my experience as a child to arrange what they wanted. For example, due my to taking kinship lightly, I was not rational after meeting fellow practitioners and became affectionate towards them and dependent on them. There was also the retribution brought by the degenerated attachment of lust. Later, I worked with Practitioner C alone, and the old forces later separated me from the larger group. Every step was extremely evil and left no room.
At that time, not a single practitioner was willing to help me. There were very few young practitioners, and they had even less experience with this kind of cultivation test. The older practitioners looked on coldly while accusing me. I could really feel substances pressing down and filling up my entire dimensional field. I was already captivated and driven by my own attachment. The pain I felt when I was clearheaded was torturing me so much that I wished I could die.
When everyone had given up on me, Master didn't and was protecting me at every moment because the only remaining trace of righteous thought I had was my knowing that I came here to cultivate. With every heart-wrenching test, we were fortunate that we did not cause irreparable harm. Otherwise, the consequences could have been really disastrous.
I resigned from the practitioner's company, so my future was uncertain. I enrolled to take the city exam and went home to get away for a week. I did not expect to pass the written test and get through the interview smoothly. I passed the exam directly under the city bureau, where there were only a few positions available.
When I was surfing the Minghui website, the musical tone to remind me to send forth righteous thoughts played, even though I did not install that alarm on my computer.
A Stick Wake-up Call
Master was compassionately protecting me, giving me hints and a stick wake-up again and again... Revered Master's infinite grace and mighty compassion permeates the process. Thus I was able to overcome this with confidence and poise and was able to stand up. This compassion transcends the wisdom that the old forces will never be able to match.
When I decided to let go of all my human attachments and return to the larger group, the old forces had yet to give up on what they wanted to do. Huge tests came one after another. First, I had a car accident. A few months later came the illusion of sickness karma or my being diagnosed with cancer that would not go away. Not only that, there was fluid build-up in both of my legs and knees, and I felt like I was in my 60s. I would wake up in the middle of the night from the pain.
I recited Master's poem:
“My one thought stunned the firmament and beyond–
I wanted to save all beings and rid all that's harmful
Countless layers of the rotten Old Force impeded my path
Entering the human world, I realized things were worse
Rectifying Fa as I go, penetrating all layers of the cosmos
All choosing to oppose the rectification were eliminated
When Heaven wishes for a change, who'd dare obstruct?
The cosmos, now rebuilt, will never again turn bad”
(“Rectifying the Fa” in Hong Yin III)
I know that this arrangement by the old forces was an attempt to defeat my will to cultivate according to Teacher's arrangements. However, I quickly realized this was persecuting Dafa disciples. No matter how difficult, I had to validate the Fa. Since it was inconvenient to go out, I decided to write truth-clarification letters. I bought a few hundred envelopes at a time, and at night I addressed them with the addresses I collected. Later, I enlightened that I should go back to my company to validate the Fa with confidence and poise, as this was an illusion and interference that I must not acknowledge.
I went back to the company in April and also to the Fa-study group environment. Under Master's enlightenment and help from another practitioner, again and again, Master's “stick wake-up” awakened my righteous thoughts.
In June, without medical treatment, the swelling in my knees was reduced. When I had another car accident in early July, I immediately got up this time and everything was all right. I told the frightened driver that I was fine as I was a Dafa disciple. The people who had crowded around said, “He has really met a good person.” An elderly woman chased me a long way and repeated that phrase. I can easily stand up today under the protection from revered Master.
I set up a small truth-clarification material production site. Initially, I used my laptop to burn Shen Yun Performing Arts DVDs. Later, I bought a printer to make materials. When I went home during the summer break, I went out during the day when I had time to make truth-clarification phone calls. In the evening, I distributed Shen Yun DVDs.
The deepest feelings I had when distributing the DVDs was that our heart must be righteous. My righteous thoughts got stronger as I sent them when I thought about what Dafa disciples had been given. The knowing side of sentient beings are waiting to be saved, and Master is enduring things for sentient beings and Dafa disciples. I often finished distributing 50 to 60 copies within ten-plus minutes in one trip. Sometimes, I gave out more than 100 copies in barely an hour, and everyone that got the DVDs wanted them, and many said thank-you repeatedly.
During the process of doing this, I was able to pay attention to looking inward and sending forth righteous thought to clear the field. Sometimes, I paid respect to Master either before I left the house or after I returned to thank him for his compassionate care.
The printer always ejected the paper when one of the colors of ink was used up. I knew that nothing that a cultivator encountered was coincidental. The printer has a life, too. It must be because I had an attachment that was impure that caused the printer status to appear incorrect. This was to remind me and have me enlighten and cultivate myself and eliminate the evil.
When there was insufficient red ink, I thought it was because I had a loophole in the attachment towards reputation and validating myself. When there was insufficient yellow or green ink, I quickly eliminated the attachment of lust and interference from my dimensional field. When there was insufficient black ink, it seemed to me that it must be my thought karma that had surfaced, which I did not control and eliminate with righteous thoughts. When I purified myself, sent forth righteous thoughts, and studied the Fa calmly, the printer stopped ejecting paper when the ink was used up and didn't waste paper. Occasionally, it would run out of ink, but this occurred only after it finished printing the last copy.
I am able to be in this world and do what practitioners are required to do because of Master's enormous compassion and endurance. The most glorious thing in life is to become a Dafa disciple. However, Dafa has requirements which have become even stricter at the final stage. From now on, I must take cultivation seriously and cultivate away all my human attachments and be pure and do the three things diligently.
If there is anything in the article that is not in the Fa, please kindly point it out. Heshi!
Thank you, revered Master! Thank you, fellow practitioners!