(Minghui.org) Greetings, revered Teacher! Greetings, fellow practitioners!
As I look back over the 17 years I've been cultivating, I am filled with emotion. It is truly a great honor and privilege for me to be a Dafa practitioner! I am eternally grateful to Teacher for offering me salvation. I am using this Fahui as an opportunity to report to Teacher and share with fellow practitioners.
After the persecution began in 1999, I felt it was my duty as a Dafa disciple to explain to people the facts about Falun Dafa. The amount of truth-clarifying materials in my area was very limited, so I ordered close to a thousand copies of them. Practitioners in my area wanted to distribute materials to all of the people we knew, including police officers.
We said to them: “Falun Dafa is good. The persecution is a serious mistake.”
One of the reasons I was so eager to tell others the facts about Dafa was because Dafa had given me a second life. Before I began cultivation, I had arthritis, a severe neuroses and low blood pressure. I was hospitalized for more than a month with a high fever. All of the illnesses disappeared after I began to practice Falun Dafa.
When I began producing truth-clarifying materials, I had a lot of fear. The fear led to a gap, and I was illegally imprisoned for two months. I picked up a flower bud in the prison yard and felt sad that it had missed its chance to bloom. I kept it beside my pillow. To my surprise, it bloomed the next morning. I knew Teacher was telling me that my problems were due to the many human notions I had.
When I concentrated on eliminating the negative notions, I had the opportunity to raise my xinxing. After I was released, I constantly sent forth righteous thoughts to remove fear, jealousy, competitive mentality, the mentality of showing off, and other attachments. With much effort, these negative notions were substantially reduced.
I was still quite fearful the first time I went to distribute truth-clarifying materials after being released from prison. I was able to deliver only one flyer to an apartment building. My hands shook with fear as I climbed the stairs inside the apartment complex. I had a hard time moving after I left the flyer on a door. I told myself to calm down and sent forth righteous thoughts before I left for home.
One evening in October, a fellow practitioner from another city accompanied me to distribute flyers. I was still fearful, so I sent forth righteous thoughts continuously. I began to feel a strong energy field surrounding me. It stayed with me even after the other practitioner arrived.
We each took 50 fliers. While distributing the fliers, I felt that I was on a sacred mission. The weather was cold, but both of us felt quite warm.
This experience showed me that Teacher had removed many of my negative notions. I was very calm the next time I went out to deliver fliers. I was clear about my mission, and the focus was to remind everyday people to wake up.
As I was walking down the stairs in a building, I dropped a handful of truth-clarifying materials. Fear started to well up in me while I tried to pick them up. I knew that these thoughts were not part of the real me. I went to an apartment building to send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate these fearful thoughts; they were quickly removed.
When I went to distribute flyers the next day, I saw a police vehicle parked by the same apartment building. There were a few police officers standing around. I calmly walked into the building and did what a practitioner should do.
Another time, I was carrying a large bag of materials while walking along a street when a police car came up behind me. It passed me but then turned around and drove toward me. I remained calm and at ease. I knew that Teacher was protecting me. It did not matter what happened because I had righteous thoughts. The police car turned and left.
While I was walking by a government agency, carrying truth-clarifying materials, a black sedan suddenly stopped in front of me and another black sedan stopped behind me.
I was startled, but immediately calmed down and recited Teacher's poem:
“In life, nothing sought, In death, regretting naught; Washing away all wrong thought, Buddhahood, with less adversity, is wrought.” (“Nothing Kept” from Hong Yin)
No one could interfere with what I was doing because I believed that saving sentient beings was a righteous act. Indeed, nothing happened to me.
I read a story on Minghui.org about a Dafa practitioner who worked alone at a material production site. His life was tough. I thought that I would like to work with such a person. This thought opened an opportunity for me to work at a material site.
I didn't know how to use a computer or produce truth-clarifying materials. However, I had faith that I could learn, and with Teacher's guidance, I believed that I could do a good job.
I began by taking notes about the steps needed to use a computer and produce materials. The fellow practitioner teaching me had to leave for two days to do another job. Right after he left, another practitioner came by and ordered 2,000 covers for the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party book. I didn't know how to typeset or put a book together, so I was not prepared to handle the order, but there was no alternative.
After some searching, I found the cover file, but I still didn't know how to typeset. I went through a lot of trial and error before the printout looked right. I was truly amazed at what I could accomplish with Teacher's guidance, because I really didn't know how to do typesetting. When the practitioner returned for the covers, they were ready.
I learned to produce leaflets, booklets, magazines, amulets, and calendars. I also learned simple typesetting, as well as how to download documents and arrange pictures. We helped other material production sites when their systems were down. Routine work included producing dozens of weekly publications and hundreds of copies of Teacher's lectures when a new one was published.
When the two practitioners who had worked with me left for other jobs, I worked alone. I felt truly blessed to have this opportunity to assist Teacher during the Fa-rectification period. I knew that the work I was doing was sacred, and I was surrounded by a large energy field.
A few practitioners from neighboring cities came to teach us how to produce Dafa books. Although printing, book-binding, and putting on the covers seemed easy enough, it was not so in reality. This work required maintaining righteous thoughts, a stable mind, and a focused effort to complete each step.
Obviously, errors were not permitted. However, there were times when we found mistakes that had to be corrected. This was truly a huge job, especially when we were making dozens of books. Dafa books later became available on Minghui.org, and then we could just download them. The job of producing the books smoothed out and became more routine.
Our material site moved several times during 2005 and 2006. We all displayed different degrees of fear while moving. Because a single person would not attract much attention, we would each carry what we could individually.
Some of the practitioners were only willing to move things down to the hallway on the ground floor. I was the only person willing to move everything into a van that was parked on the street. I am not a strong guy and got pretty tired, but I didn't complain. One of the practitioners I was working with had been held in a forced labor camp and another had been forced into homelessness to avoid being illegally arrested. They had to exercise caution.
It takes time to upgrade one's xinxing and cultivate away fear. As we got into the van, the driver asked, “Did you know that there is a police officer living in this apartment building?” I calmly replied, “Yes, I know all of them, although not by name.” Along the way, all of us sent forth righteous thoughts. Upon arriving at our destination, we put our things inside the front door of the building and did not let the driver see which apartment we went to.
A fellow practitioner joined me in producing Dafa books and truth-clarifying materials in 2008. He was new to this job, so I patiently taught him what to do. He was serious about learning, and before long he was able to do many things. We would share our understanding of the Fa when we had time. He took over all of the purchase and delivery chores.
Many things have happened over the past four years. Some practitioners whom I knew were abducted and imprisoned. It was a test of our xinxing each time.
Once, just after I wrote my name, address and phone number on a piece of paper for a practitioner, he was arrested. When I heard what had happened, I was not affected. I held the thought that the evildoers would not be able to see the piece of paper. I also did not mention this to fellow practitioners or my family because I did not want them to worry. As a result, nothing happened.
Similar events that could have affected the safety of our material production site also occurred. We dealt with such situations by sending forth righteous thoughts. We've never had a problem for eight years.
The demand for Dafa books increased. We needed to schedule more time to produce the books. We did the exercises, but reduced the time for Fa study.
Placing the focus on getting the work done exposed our human notions and caused misunderstandings among practitioners.
I decided that practitioner A was not a careful-enough worker to prepare small-sized books. I told him to only work on full-size books and leave the smaller books for me. I did not realize that his feelings got hurt by what I had said.
Our coordinator told us that two practitioners were coming to share their experience in producing books. I said that practitioner A should participate in the sharing, but our coordinator did not want him to. I felt that practitioner A should be at the meeting, but there was no viable way to inform him.
When another opportunity came up for practitioners to share with the two visitors, I asked someone to let practitioner A know. I couldn't do it because I had other matters to take care of at that time. When I came to the material site the next day, practitioner A was upset with me. When I spoke to him, he either looked away or said something negative. I didn't understand why he was so mad.
I realized that it was wrong to give top priority to producing books. Practitioners should focus on upgrading xinxing first.
A few of us were working together a couple of days later. Practitioner A was still upset with me. Practitioner B sided with practitioner A. I knew that I had made some mistakes in the past, but thought that these two practitioners were not acting according to the Fa. When I thought about the harmonious relationship I once had with practitioner A, I felt really bad and cried. I had forgotten that I was a practitioner.
I realized that a true practitioner should focus on improving xinxing by constantly verifying whether his thinking is in line with the Fa. I am the type of person who normally does not think of others. Thus, I knew very little about the tribulations of other practitioners.
I calmed down to study the Fa and sent forth righteous thoughts to remove any misunderstanding created by the old forces that could cause dissension. I began removing random thoughts from my mind, especially the negative ones.
When I woke up the next day, Teacher had removed the block between me and the other practitioners. I felt really good and worry-free. When I saw the other practitioners, we all felt that nothing had happened between us.
Practitioner B was later arrested and persecuted. I didn't hold a grudge against her; instead, I participated in the group effort to help her. We found the person responsible for her arrest. We informed this person's relatives and talked to them about requesting her release.
I willingly took over practitioner B's responsibilities at the material site. Part of her work was to deliver weekly publications to a bad area. Her arrest caused uneasiness among the practitioners in our area. However, I knew that by having righteous thoughts, there would be no danger. I was successful in delivering the publications for her until she returned.
I have been successful because I have aligned myself with the Fa, and this is the result of improving my xinxing. The power of the Fa could then manifest. In the process of assisting Teacher in the Fa-rectification, it is important to focus on upgrading xinxing so that the power of Dafa can manifest within us.
I have met many predestined individuals while walking or riding the bus. These were good opportunities for me to tell others about Falun Dafa.
My sister called me one day and asked me to explain the facts about Dafa to one of her friends who was suffering from ovarian cancer. I told her that I would.
I went to see her friend and found that she was very weak and pale. I told her about Dafa, the power of Dafa, and explained the magnitude of the persecution. I told her that Dafa was known and welcomed worldwide, that there was a special rock in Guizhou Province with characters predicting the collapse of the Chinese Communist Party formed on it, and about the appearance of the magical Udumbara flower around the world, along with some other things.
I said to her: “Only Dafa can save you. If you are willing to read Dafa books, I shall leave this one for you, but you must read it from the beginning to the end.” She agreed.
A few days later, my sister called me and said that her friend had been sent to the hospital. I went to see her, and she told me that she had a fever and diarrhea. The shot they had given her to reduce the fever ended up raising her body temperature further.
I said, “Teacher is purifying your body.” She understood. She was released from the hospital the next day. She became a practitioner and is doing what a practitioner should do.
I have shared all of the positive things about me, but there are parts of me that still need improvement—and that will happen through further cultivation. I believe that a practitioner should be humble, grateful, and serious about cultivation. There is not much time left for cultivation. Let us improve through Fa study, assist our Teacher, and return home with Teacher.
Thank you, Master! Heshi!