(Minghui.org) I stepped fully on the path of Falun Dafa cultivation only five years ago. I can feel the great gap when comparing myself to fellow practitioners and deeply regret it.
Deeply Poisoned by the Evil Party
From childhood, I was deeply influenced by the Chinese Communist's Party (CCP) culture and its atheistic doctrine. When Falun Dafa began to spread in my region, my son began to practice it, but I was firmly against it.
On July 20, 1999, the CCP banned Falun Dafa and began to persecute the practice. My son had just been admitted to one of the country’s prestigious universities, but was kicked out because of practicing Falun Dafa. He was persecuted by the county 610 Office, and held in a detention center. He was firm in his decision and did not renounce Falun Dafa.
I was deeply poisoned by the evil Party and thus hated my son's decision. I physically abused him, and pressured him to renounce the practice. I also, to my regret, verbally abused Master, burning his photograph, and destroying Falun Dafa books.
Three years later, the CCP henchmen persecuted my son again. I still did not know the facts about Falun Dafa. I continued to put pressure on him and assisted the CCP in trying to “transform” him.
Local practitioners said, “You treat your son even worse than the CCP henchmen. What crime did your son commit? Why do you help the CCP to persecute your son? Falun Dafa practitioners do not verbally abuse or beat others. Practitioners never lie, always abide by existing laws and take care of their parents. They always work hard and study diligently. They are good citizens and family members. You helped the evil to “transform” your son. Why do you try to change him? What do you want your son to do after graduation? Do you want your son to become a corrupt official, a hooligan, or a member of an evil association?”
Facing this questioning, I was speechless. Yes, no one knows one's kids better than the parents. I know my son. He has integrity, is honest and simple and a good student. He does not have any bad habits as other kids might have. He is no burden nor does he bring trouble to society. It is just a matter of belief. Why does the CCP violate the constitution and persecute him? This is similar to many previous CCP campaigns, is it not? But, despite local practitioners telling me the facts about Falun Dafa, I could not overcome atheism and was thus an opponent of Falun Dafa.
Beginning to Ask Why People Firmly Practice Falun Dafa
My son persisted in his belief and refused to renounce it. I couldn't understand him. One of my former elementary school teachers said, “Those who were good students and successful in their careers were willing and dared to ask 'why?.'” So I asked myself, what is that Falun Dafa? Why do practitioners, including my son, persist in their belief despite such a cruel persecution? An old saying came to my mind, “Nothing ventured, nothing gained.” Therefore, I began to learn the facts about Falun Dafa. I asked myself, “Was what I read in the truth-clarification materials for real? Are there really deities, ghosts, and souls around?”
Experiencing the Power of Falun Dafa
One night when I was on an out-of-town job, I felt discomfort and my body trembled. There was no doctor and no medicine available. I suddenly remembered what a practitioner had told me, “When facing a difficult and critical moment, remember to sincerely say 'Falun Dafa is good.'” After repeating these words twice, all symptoms of discomfort disappeared. Yet, I wasn't sure if this was just a coincidence.
The next day, the same symptoms occurred again. I visited a doctor. I came down with a fever of more than 40 degrees Celsius and I had to have an injection. Although the same symptoms, different treatments had different results. After that I asked myself, “Did the words 'Falun Dafa is good' really work wonders? Why did it work wonders?” After these questions entered my mind, I decided to take a look at the Falun Dafa books.
Coming to Grips with the Evilness of the CCP
One morning, I opened the door and found on the doorstep a book entitled Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party. Curiosity took hold of me and I read that book from beginning to end without stopping even once. My foggy brain awakened and I realized that the atheistic culture had deceived me. I came to understand that during the Cultural Revolution, statues of dieties and Buddhas were destroyed, but, these beings truly do exist.
On one occasion, I had a premonition that something would happen to one of my neighbors. Sure enough, one week later, the mother and son of the neighbor had a traffic accident, and one died, while the other was injured. Once again, it confirmed what Master said, “many things seem by accident, in fact, they are not by accident.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Conference in Houston”)
After reading the Nine Commentaries I saw myself as a true victim of the CCP. I understand now that the CCP is sinister. Facts have proven that the real cult is the Communist Party.
The Nine Commentaries recounts history, and some of it I have experienced. I was born in 1949. I still remember faintly the CCP's Land Reform, joining a community, and the Anti-Rightist Campaign. I was involved in the Campaign called the Great Leap Forward in 1958. The Campaign resulted in three years of great famine. No one had enough food to eat and in every village people starved to death. Cannibalism indeed took place.
I was indoctrinated by the CCP. I was an atheist and I was involved in some of its campaigns. I had been deceived for most of my life and it is so true what Master said:
Why do you still believe the [Party’s] lies
And keep rejecting the divine ones’ call?
Lives that are lost:
I sincerely feel deep regret for you
Whether having a karmic tie or not
I pray for you quietly
I hope you soon see the truth clearly
I hope you safely pass through the calamity
As long as you let your conscience break through prejudice
You will have a beautiful tomorrow
Don’t wait until it is too late for remorse
Don’t let the regret become an eternal regret
(“Don't Make Me Regret for You” from Hong Yin III)
Benefiting from Cultivating in Falun Dafa
The Nine Commentaries opened my eyes and helped me see through the lies. Studying the Fa helped me understand the true meaning of life. It has been five years since I stepped onto the cultivation path. I truly understand what Falun Dafa is about.
The year 2007 is when I began to practice Falun Dafa. I became healthy and no longer suffered leg pain, shoulder bursitis, and gastrointestinal diseases. All this happened without any medical intervention.
I suffered from depression for years. I tried to commit suicide a few times. After studying Falun Dafa, I became optimistic, was filled with energy and felt much younger.
I benefited from practicing Falun Dafa. Once, when I worked outside of my hometown because of Master's hint, I avoided being persecuted. At another time, a wall of my house collapsed, and, because of Master's hint, I wasn't injured.
I deeply appreciate Master’s mercy and am aware of the hardships practitioners face while assisting Master in Fa-rectification.
I know how important it is to save sentient beings and how difficult it is. As long as we firmly believe in Master and the Fa, maintain righteous thoughts and improve our xinxing, we are under Master's constant care.
Please kindly point out anything that is not within the Fa.