(Minghui.org) When I saw fellow practitioners sharing their dynamic path of Fa-rectification, I felt my path of cultivation was rather flat. But as a practitioner, no matter how my cultivation was in the past, I should reflect on it in order to cultivate better in the future. I want to share my cultivation experience and report to Master.
1. Falun Gong is Buddha Fa cultivation
Before I acquired the Fa, I had many illnesses, such as emphysema, heart disease, and rhinitis. I looked much older than I actually was and it was difficult for me even to walk. In March 1998, a colleague introduced Dafa to me.
In the beginning, I just read Dafa books and did the meditation. After reading the books for a month, I understood that Zhuan Falun and Master's Fa lectures were very profound. When was I reading them, the books glowed. I truly believed in Falun Dafa and said to myself, “This is truly Buddha Fa cultivation.”
I started to go to the practice site to do the exercises. After a month or two, my health greatly improved and my face glowed with health. Master kept cleansing my body. Whenever I did the exercises, I had to spit a lot and my nose was very runny. I found a huge lump on my hip and I realized it was to eliminate some karma in me. A few days later, I fully recovered and realized that “Falun Gong is not only for eliminating illnesses and strengthening the body, but also for us to truly cultivate ourselves to enlighten and return home.”
I introduced, my sister, husband, and daughter to Dafa. At that time, I knew deeply that Dafa is good. Someone said, “Master was sent by heaven.” I said, “You are not correct. Master is the highest in the heavens.”
Once my daughter saw my body was green just like jade. When I recited Lunyu with my daughter, I saw her body surrounded with golden light that reached all the way to the roof.
In September 1998, a retired army cadre office near my home organized a Fa-study group. My daughter and I went there to study the Fa every night from 6 to 10 p.m. We first did the exercises, and then studied the Fa. We attended until July 1999.
2. I did not understand how evil the CCP is
In 1999, Jiang's regime and the CCP started to persecute Falun Gong. One of my husband's friends who worked for the security bureau already knew this in advance. The friend told us not to go out by then. We said we were not afraid. She asked, “Can you dodge a knife and gun?” It was said that the CCP had already prepared the weapons and guns. We also knew that the evil CCP would use every way possible to persecute Falun Gong. We also discussed the issues during group Fa-study. We all said that we must safeguard Dafa if the persecution really happened.
On July 21 and July 22, many practitioners went to People's Square in Dalian to validate Dafa. We witnessed countless Falun in the sky in all kinds of colors. It was really magnificent. On July 21, the CCP deceived us and asked us to register. We were very pure and all registered. The next day, the police started to arrest practitioners in the square. My daughter and I went to the square together. The police arrested many practitioners but we returned home safely.
Before Dafa I did not have a good impression of the CCP, but I could not imagine it was so totally evil. After this heinous persecution started, I understood that the CCP was evil and appealing to upper level authorities was useless. I still had fear and other human attachments, so I did not go to Beijing to validate the Fa.
Later, the police and the officials from the local residents community came to my home a few times. My daughter's school also pressured us to give up Falun Gong. My husband knew this and handed in some Dafa books. The police also wrote the repentance statement giving up Falun Gong for me without my permission. I did not safeguard the Fa or validate the Fa well. Later I made a solemn announcement and declared that the repentance statement the police had written for me was invalid.
I never had any doubts about Dafa, and always firmly believed in Master and the Fa. At that time, some senior practitioners started to doubt Dafa. I said, “The CCP's lies and propaganda are absolutely not true. Dafa is the best.” Even after I was persecuted, I did not miss one day studying the Fa and practicing the exercises.
3. Wherever we go, we clarify the truth
I started to clarify the truth when the persecution started. I had benefited in so many ways from cultivation. My hair turned from white to black and was revitalized. In 2000, I went for a haircut and the barber saw the top half of my hair was white and the hair close to the scalp was black. He thought that was very strange. I told him, “My hair turned black again because I cultivate Falun Gong.” A person nearby said, “She really dares to talk about Falun Gong?”
In the autumn of 1999, practitioners started to hand out truth-clarifying materials at public places such as bus stops and and shopping malls. Sometimes we put the flyers on every seat of the upper deck of a bus. Once I distributed the flyers inside a building. I saw my body shining with white light as shiny as a meteor and it lit up the entire corridor. The flyers we gave out also glowed with white light. When I thought about going out to pass out flyers, sometimes I would be fearful, but once I got there my fear was totally gone and I passed all the materials with no problems. By then, there was no one in the corridor. After I finished distributing all the materials, I heard a sound upstairs, so it was time to go and I knew Master was protecting me.
My daughter was to take the postgraduate exam, and as we came to a city near the ocean I witnessed a car accident. A wheel of the car had crushed a person's leg yet the person crawled out from under the car and was not hurt at all. He also let the driver go. I said, “That person must be a practitioner.” So we connected with the local practitioners. We got more materials from fellow practitioners and started to post them outside. A few days before my daughter's exam, we had posted a lot of truth-clarifying posters at night. Although my daughter was a bit excited about the exam, she still did the exercises and passed out truth-clarifying materials. Yet she successfully was offered admission to a famous university in Beijing and got the best score in her major. Others said that people usually turned thin and dark before the postgraduate exam, as the stress is very great, but my daughter was healthy and energetic. She said Master opened up her wisdom. The last topic for the English exam was to write a short article. She looked at her watch and saw there was not enough time to finish it. At that time, her head was empty and she felt the Falun turning. Then the article flowed from her mind easily and she finished it on time.
Later my daughter took the PhD admission exam and again got the best score in her major. She benefited from Dafa as this practice opens one's wisdom.
When we saw and heard that many informational materials were being thrown away and wasted, I started to clarify the truth and hand out the materials face to face. I did it while working, shopping, on airplanes and trains, and going on vacation. Wherever I went, I clarified the truth and handed materials to everyone.
My husband used to be an army officer but then he was demobilized and now works in a government office. His many friends and comrades worked in the judicial system. Some worked at the detention center. Some worked at the Procuratorate. I also clarified the truth to them. Once I went on vacation at a resort with his friends. All the other people were from the Procuratorate. I brought a lot of truth-clarifying materials. Since I cultivated Falun Gong, I looked young and healthy. When someone talked about it, I told him that I cultivated Falun Gong. Then I clarified the truth to them one by one and sent them truth-clarifying materials to let all his friends know the facts of Dafa.
After I started I told my colleagues at work about Dafa. When Dafa began to be persecuted, I kept clarifying the truth. I was strict about following the standard of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. I did relatively well and my own dimensions are righteous. I worked at the local residency office of the provincial government. The leader of the office is a cadre at the deputy provincial department level. In 1998, I gave her all kinds of materials about Dafa. She even wanted to buy Dafa books. Unfortunately she missed the opportunity, but she already knew the truth. After the persecution started, she never participated in the persecution and did not give me any pressure. At that time, a director of my workplace talked with me. I explained Falun Gong to him comprehensively and told him why I cultivated. I told him that we were being persecuted right now, but history would bear witness. He never talked with me about Falun Gong after that. My immediate supervisor was a section head. After I talked with the director, he told me in front of others, “I cannot study Falun Gong. Falun Gong does not allow one to smoke or drink. Falun Gong is too righteous and there is no way that I could study.”
In private, he gave me a key for a storage case in the office and told me to keep my Dafa books and truth-clarifying materials there to be safe. The friend who worked at the security bureau sent us a message to put some of my Dafa books and materials inside the security bureau. Later the police asked us to hand in Dafa books. The police would never imagine that my books were already in a very safe place. Those predestined people already knew the truth of Dafa and I also regularly sent them truth-clarifying materials. Later when the movement to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations started, they withdrew from CCP without a problem. Some of them had already started to read Dafa books. They will have a great future.
When I met the Party secretary of the local community committee, I clarified the truth to her. She said, “They just pay me a few hundred yuan every month and they often do bad things.” Later she resigned.
I also visited a friend who had worked at the security bureau a few times and helped him know the truth of Falun Dafa. According to his wife, on the day I helped him to quit the CCP, he was very happy. He now no longer watches any TV. Instead, every morning at 8 a.m. he logs into the dynamics network and read the news.
I knew the wife of a man who was a high ranking official in the government. We put Falun Dafa truth-clarifying material and the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party in her mailbox. Later I gave them Shen Yun Performance Arts DVDs in person. In 2011, I helped the wife to quit the CCP. Later she persuaded her husband and daughter to withdraw from the CCP. The whole process took seven years and finally all their family members were saved.
From truth clarifying for over ten years, I have many memorable stories with predestined people. Often while I was waiting for the bus, I would persuade someone to quit the CCP. Just after I finished, the bus usually came, and I gave the person a flyer. On the bus, I’d get to know other people and after we'd get off the bus, I’d keep clarifying the truth until they were saved.
Sometimes after walking out of the market, I’d be called back and then meet more predestined people to help them quit the CCP. When I met some people for the first time, we wouldn’t have the chance to talk too much. When we met again, I’d give them the Shen Yun DVD. The third time I could persuade them to quit the CCP relatively easily.
Some people were cold and not easy to communicate with, but I’d see them frequently. I realized that they must have a predestined relationship with me, so I would approach them to withdraw from the CCP. Then they would truly believe it and quit.
After I ran into a director of a government office a few times, I felt he must have some predestined relationship with me, so I sent him a copy of Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party. Then I never saw him until a few years later, at which time I easily persuaded him to quit the CCP.
I often felt Master's compassion. He gives everyone the opportunity to be saved.
Sometimes very interesting things happened.
Once in a bus I met an over-90-year-old man. I persuaded him to withdraw from the evil CCP. I reached into my bag a few times and wondered what materials fit him the best. He said, “Whatever you want to give to me, please give me.”
Once I took the train and clarified the truth to a passenger on the second level of the sleeper train. I said, “There is a good way if you want to have a healthy body.” She jumped out of the bed and sat beside me: “How? Please tell me.” Then I clarified the truth to her and helped her withdraw from the CCP and its organizations. When she was about to get off the train, I saw she had a lot of luggage and I helped her with it. Then she said, “I really want to read Zhuan Falun.” It happened I had a pocket edition with me. I got off the bus and gave the book to her. If I did not have the righteous thoughts, I might have missed a predestined person.
I was buying maternity clothing with my daughter one day and I met a couple. The wife was also pregnant. I clarified the truth to them and told them to recite “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good,” which would bring good health even to their baby. The man asked, “Are you Falun Gong?” I joked with them, “Are you police?” It happened he was really a police officer. But he said, “I do not intervene in others' beliefs.” I also helped them to withdraw from the CCP.
In 2001, I often went out to clarify the facts with new practitioners. One practitioner clarified the truth to the owner of a shoe shop. The owner was a Buddhist and very knowledgeable. The new practitioner did not clarify the truth clearly to her, and the owner criticized her. But after a while, when we went to the market to clarify the truth again, the owner came over to talk to the new practitioner. She said, “I have been waiting for you all this time.” It happened that during a Buddhists' gathering, an old Daoist played the video related to Falun Gong and told them only Falun Gong is true cultivation. Then she remembered the practitioner who clarified the truth to her and had been waiting for the practitioner to come back. The owner soon also brought over 30 Buddhists. They all began to cultivate Dafa. It is just like Master said,
“Actually, when Master wants something done a certain way, it’s not simply that he thought of something and then that’s it. I have to do a tremendous amount of preparation, which you cannot see, and all of those gods work on it too. Everything has been prepared, and all that’s missing is for you to carry it out.” (“Dafa Disciples Must Study the Fa - Fa Teaching Given at the 2011 Washington DC Metro Area Fa Conference”)
When truth clarifying, I find that many people want to read Zhuan Falun. I asked the practitioners at the material site to produce the pocket edition of Zhuan Falun and I take two books with me every day to give to predestined people. I’ve already given out dozens of copies of Zhuan Falun.
By 2009, our practitioners had clarified the truth to over 20,000 people. From that point on I did not count anymore. I went out to clarify the truth every day and persuaded over ten people to withdraw from the CCP each day. One year on July 20, Master strengthened us and we persuaded over 50 people to withdraw from the CCP just in the afternoon.
Right now the cosmic climate is changing and people are awakening. It is easier to persuade people to withdraw from the CCP and its organizations. But we must seize this opportunity. Sometimes the predestined relationships slip away as soon as we relax.
4. The effect of righteous thoughts
Over the past 15 years, I’ve only had three serious tests.
In the fall of 2000, the policeman in charge of my residential area was replaced. We had clarified the truth to the previous one, and he never harassed us. The new one had just graduated from the police academy and was relatively evil. He called me and asked me, “Are you still practicing Falun Gong?”
I said, “There is no such environment right now.” He said, “Don't talk in circles. You just answer me straight. If you don't practice anymore, then criticize your Master.”
I realized it was time to validate Dafa. I said, “I definitely cannot do that. I have a healthy body because of cultivating Falun Gong. How can I criticize my master?” After he heard that, he quietly said he wanted to come to my home for a chat. At that time I had already moved (I felt Master had already arranged this for me in order to reduce the evil's persecution of me). I said, “Ok, I will pick you up.”
I did not want to see him. The next day I went to my husband’s office. Later I thought there was nothing to be afraid of, so I went home. In the end, nothing happened. It was actually the old forces that had used the police to test me.
Once I had just left a practitioner's home when, standing in the corridor, I saw three police officers. They asked if I was So-and-so, and I said no. They grabbed my bag and searched it. Usually I put truth-clarifying materials in my bag. But this time I had not brought anything. I kept calm and asked, “What's going on?” They let me go. After I turned the corner, I immediately called the practitioner.
Another time, three of us went out to clarify the truth. While we were explaining Falun Gong to a shop owner, I saw a man walking toward us. Usually my eyesight was not very good but this time I immediately saw something wrong with him and he had an evil face. The practitioner was just about to give the owner some materials, so I quietly grabbed her hand, and we walked away. The man asked the owner, “What did they tell you?” The owner said, “Nothing. They all believed in Buddha.” The owner was a good person.
Usually when I encountered this situation, I was not afraid (maybe sometimes I might have had fear afterwards). I truly experienced what Master said about the effect of righteous thoughts,
“But if your righteous thoughts are strong, the evil will be dissolved.” (“Fa Teaching Given in Manhattan”)
My path of cultivation has been smooth for many years. I have summarized my understandings below.
1. Studying the Fa is of the utmost importance. I clarify the truth best when I study two chapters of Zhuan Falun in the morning. Then I clarify the truth in the afternoon. After I come back at night, I keep studying the Fa. I send forth righteous thoughts as many as ten times every day. I also read 30 Fa Lecture books. On average I can read all the Dafa books within a month or two.
Every day before I went out to clarify the truth, I just asked for Master's help to strengthen me. When I clarified the truth, I felt my dimension was very pure and my energy was very strong. My wisdom also increased and my mind was very calm without any fear. So I would be safe. Many words just came out of my mouth very naturally while clarifying the truth. When some practitioners couldn't clarify the facts clearly enough to some people, I could usually help them understand. Sometimes while I clarified the truth, I could see something like waves emanating out from my body. I thought it was what Master said, “Buddha’s light shines everywhere, propriety and righteousness harmonize everything.” Master really did everything!
2. Believe in Master and the Fa. Since I truly studied the Fa and cultivated myself, I believe in Master and the Fa. I feel Dafa is the most righteous and the best. No matter when, I have never had any doubts about Master. I think I should just follow what Master says and do what we should do. Everything we do is actually arranged by Master.
3. Cultivate xinxing. My husband is a cadre demobilized from the army and was severely brainwashed by the CCP. So, relatively speaking, I had more tribulations at home. After the CCP started to persecute Dafa, he often argued with me, shouted at me, and interfered with my daughter and me clarifying the truth. On this matter, I did not cultivate well and I still had a lot of shortcomings. Many times, I handed out the materials, clarified the truth, and persuaded his friends to withdraw from the CCP without letting him know about it. In 2005, after I argued with my husband, I walked out the door and immediately hurt my hands. I knew I did not cultivate my xinxing well and I needed to change myself. My husband does not interfere with me anymore, but I still haven't completely rectified him.
My daughter and I used to clarify the truth together and walk on the path of Fa rectification. But after she married another practitioner, she became lost in the human world. I was very anxious and tried to encourage her but it did not work. I know there is something I need to cultivate, including my sentimentality and other attachments.
Soon I will have been cultivating for over ten years. I did not do anything dramatic. I just know I need to listen to Master. Master told us we all came from heaven and we need to fulfill our vows. No matter how much time we have left, we need to cultivate diligently until the end and save as many people as we can.
Thank you, Master, for your compassionate salvation!