(Clearwisdom.net) I went out shopping for the first time after the 2005 Chinese New Year, on February 19, 2005. On the sidewalk near my residence, I saw a booklet. Not knowing what it was about, I walked on. However, as I walked, the words “The Predestined” appeared in my mind, and I thought, “Does this mean that the booklet is somehow related to me?” I then quickly went back, picked it up, and put it in my pocket.
After I got home that day, I immediately opened the booklet. Wow! The word “Predestined” truly was printed on the cover page, and thereafter, the content of the booklet drew my immediate attention. I learned that the “Tiananmen Square Self-immolation” was staged, and directed by Jiang Zemin’s regime to defame Falun Gong. Liu Chunling, who died in the Tiananmen Immolation tragedy, actually died from a blow to the head. The government also twisted the facts of the Falun Gong practitioners’ peaceful mass appeal of April 25, 1999, and wrongfully accused them of “attacking the government.” A large number of practitioners have since been tortured to death or paralyzed from torture because they were steadfast in their belief in Dafa.
As I read, I suddenly felt that I was a stray child who had just been brought home by her father. I cried, "Master, you are now being wrongfully accused. I have made mistakes, but please forgive me!"
My husband was on the Internet then and wondered why I was crying. I handed him the booklet, and wept, “I will continue practicing Falun Gong.” After reading the booklet, my husband was also shocked. A while later, he finally knew what he wanted to say, “You can practice at home then.”
I had stopped practicing Falun Gong after the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) began to persecute Falun Gong on July 20, 1999. It had been five years since I stopped practicing. That booklet helped me break through the interference that the CCP had created, so that I was able to return to cultivation.
1. Master Cleansed My Body When I First Began Practicing Falun Gong
I was born in the countryside in 1955. After going through lots of tribulations, I finally was able to get a government job in 1997. A dozen years later, I became a manager in a key section of the agency until I retired due to illnesses.
I was previously an iron-willed woman. In the countryside, I fought with people for money; at school, I competed with people for academic rankings; at work, I competed for titles; and at home, I competed for heritage. I had a strong personality and cared a lot about fame and my appearance. I fought with everyone around me, and was always very “sharp.” Even though I was finally successful at work and had gained a high position, my physical health had gone downhill. I had gastroenteritis, cholecystitis, pelvic inflammation, rheumatoid arthritis, and a dozen other illnesses. I was in pain both physically and mentally.
I entered the gate of cultivation in May 1995. Soon after I learned the five exercises, I had a dream that Master was smiling and standing beside my bed with something that looked like a belt in his hand, and telling me that he would clean my colon. My stomach was very warm after I woke up the next morning, and I had never before experienced that kind of comfort in my life. From then on, I stopped taking my long-prescribed pills. In less than three months I went back to the hospital for a checkup, and the tests showed that my three pelvic cysts had disappeared. In six months, my other illnesses had also vanished.
2. The Sad and Miserable Life I Lived after I was Forced to Stop Practicing Falun Gong
The CCP began to persecute Falun Gong in July 1999. In addition, the regime staged the “self-immolation” to incite confusion and hatred among the Chinese people. Under pressure from my work and my husband, I chose to safeguard the unity of my marriage and accept a job promotion. I had unwillingly handed in my Falun Gong materials, and had also done quite a few things against Dafa.
During those few years without Dafa, I suffered from up to twenty different kinds of illnesses. The worst was an eye syndrome – my eyes were swollen and itched very badly, and were very dry and sensitive to light. In addition, my vision was blurred and I felt very miserable. A doctor, who was also a friend of mine, once told me that she had seen two patients who suffered from symptoms similar to mine, and they felt so miserable that they both eventually killed themselves. Had I not learned from the Dafa teachings that committing suicide was a sin, I probably would have also ended my life.
In the spring of 2002, I had no choice but to take long-term disability and stay home. I relied on my eighty-year-old mother-in-law to help me to the bathroom whenever I had medicine in my eyes. I had to use artificial tears imported from America daily. My husband grew very impatient with me when my condition didn't improve for a long time. He often told me scornfully, “Your salary can't even cover the costs of your medicine.” He intentionally found fault with me, and had even implied to me several times that I should go end my life.
3. Remembering Master When I was On the Verge of Dying
I was taken to the hospital emergency room early on the morning of June 13, 2004, when my pelvic inflammation recurred, and the pustule perforated. Lying on the bed in the surgery room, I could feel that death was imminent. Under that duress, I suddenly remembered what Master told us,
“If you do not follow the requirements of the Fa, you are not a practitioner of Falun Dafa. Because you want to be an everyday person, your body will be reset to the level of everyday people and the bad things will be returned to you.” (Zhuan Falun)