(Clearwisdom.net) A practitioner in our group said that we should have an experience sharing, because one of us appeared to be possessed. We got together and immediately began to send forth righteous thoughts. The minute we finished, the person who was said to have animal possession jumped up and verbally abused me. I felt very embarrassed because it happened in front of many practitioners. I was sweating profusely. However, I maintained my xinxing and rejected everything that came out of that practitioner's mouth. At the same time I looked inward and found my attachments to feeling superior to other people as well as being arrogant and self-opinionated. When I first entered the room and saw that person, I showed my feeling of dislike and that I felt superior to her. After returning home, I looked inward again and found that I appeared to be very diligent, but my energy field was warped. This was the core of my being conceited, impatient, and selfish. Whenever I felt offended, I would lash out at others instantly. I was really shocked to discover it. Merciful Teacher used the occasion to let me see this unrighteousness hidden deep within me.
– By the author
Greetings, benevolent Teacher! Greetings, fellow practitioners all over the world!
I have been practicing Falun Gong for 13 years, during which I have experienced happiness and hardships. The most precious of all was that I became more and more mature and enlightened to the true meaning of life. By cultivating the Dafa of the universe, the Buddha Fa, my life has become nobler and I'm walking towards eternal life.
I'd like to take this Internet experience sharing opportunity to report to Teacher and share with fellow practitioners my experiences of cultivation in the last two years.
1. Validating the Fa at Home and Doing Fa-rectification Projects
For the sake of my child I returned home from another location, which was over a thousand kilometers away, to live with my parents-in-law, while my husband remained at that location.
In the early days after returning home, my mother-in-law, who was a new practitioner, began to worry about me. If I did not return home at the time she had set for me, she would turn a cold shoulder and complain endlessly. The situation made me develop an attachment. I developed a fear mentality when I had to ask my mother-in-law for leave and when I saw her on my return home. I sometimes needed to travel quite a distance to coordinate with other practitioners. It would involve a lot of discussions, so sometimes I was very tired. What's more, since I faced many uncertainties, it was very difficult to be on time. On returning home I had to listen to my mother-in-law's nagging. I couldn't help feeling some resentment, because I was doing the most righteous thing. Why couldn't she understand?
However, I am a practitioner, assisting Teacher to rectify the Fa. At this historical moment when the new universe is in the making and the old universe still exists, I knew I was shouldering a huge responsibility. No matter if it was sharing for the purpose of improving the one body or being involved in projects to rectify the Fa, I needed sufficient time. In that family environment, how could I do the things a practitioner had to do?
Studying the Fa diligently, especially having studied Teacher's Fa principle of “looking inward,” I enlightened that my mother-in-law's attitude showed that the problem lay with me. Though what I was doing was righteous, I failed to take her feelings into account. I expected her to comply with my standards, telling her, “You must do this or that.” One day I was coordinating hiring a lawyer to rescue a fellow practitioner who had been detained, and I returned home three hours late. As soon as I arrived home, she flew into a rage and her abusive language could be heard throughout the entire building. I said, “Let's study the Fa!” She said angrily, “I will not study the Fa anymore. Are all practitioners like you?” Seeing her trembling with anger, I calmed down. I did not push her to study the Fa, but began to look inward myself. I admitted that it was my mistake in not watching the time. As soon as I looked inward, my mother-in-law calmed down instantly. I sincerely apologized to her and explained the reason for coming home late. She was not angry anymore. She said, “You could have phoned. After all, there are bad guys out there. I was so worried.”
There were many more such incidents between my mother-in-law and me, which all were resolved once I began looking inward for why I failed to do well. Sometimes I ignored her needs because I was busy, so when I was not that busy I would help her with the housework, and now she tries her best to support me. In validating the Fa, no matter when I had to go out, returned, or sometimes when I remained out longer than expected, she cooperated with me unconditionally. She said, “I only need to do the housework. Whatever Dafa work you do includes my share.” Now things at home are very good. I am able to validate the Fa as I wish. I am sincerely grateful to my mother-in-law for her selfless support.
2. Remembering Our Mission to Save Sentient Beings at All Times
After returning to my hometown I found a pretty good job with the help of my classmates and fellow practitioners. It was a fairy relaxed job with good pay, which allowed me ample time to clarify the truth about Falun Gong and distribute materials to save sentient beings. No matter where I had to go to, I was able to clarify the truth to people with predestined relationships. I could also hand out the truth-clarification fliers and DVDs at any time.
I always brought with me the self-adhesive posters, flyers, and amulets(1) so I could take the appropriate action, addressing the actual situation. In doing any truth-clarification work, I never held any fear or worry, but boundless compassion: “I am here to save you. Those who get the truth-clarification materials, please do not miss this precious opportunity.”
One day I went to a high-end residential area to distribute Shen Yun DVDs. I left one DVD at each apartment and walked all the way up to the top floor. On my way down, I saw a man coming upstairs with a DVD in his hand. I was calm and held no fear. He asked, “What's in the DVD?” I replied, “A show of traditional Chinese culture. It's very entertaining.” Then he asked, “Did every family get one?” I said, “Yes, that's correct.”
Sometime the electronic gates in a residential area were closed. However, when I finished one section and wanted to move to another section, someone would be there to open the door, so I simply followed them.
During this special, historic period, practitioners have been given a special mission: saving sentient beings. During the process of clarifying the truth to save them, my mind and body have been elevated continuously. At one stage I really felt the “Compassion.” On my way to distribute the truth-clarification materials my tears covered my face and the song “Coming for You” appeared in my mind again and again:
“Coming from far away,
Again and again, I come for you,
I come with love for you.
Precious Chinese people, please listen to my heart-felt voice,
Wonderful Falun Dafa, Falun Dafa Hao!”
3. Cultivating While Coordinating
In the beginning after I returned, I didn't know many local practitioners. Becoming a coordinator was truly accidental. One day I was at Practitioner A's home. Practitioner A had met up with a couple who had been detained in the same prison he was. At the time, the couple's cultivation status was not very good. The male practitioner said something like, “I will not continue to cultivate.” With the compassionate support of Teacher, my sharing with them helped them awaken. Practitioner A, whom I had already known, said, “I didn't know that you were so convincing.”
Practitioner B, with whom I had cooperated for some time, was instrumental in improving the one body of the local practitioners. Practitioner B also introduced me to several practitioners who needed a bit of sharing and encouragement. I gradually got to know more local practitioners. I developed a deeper understanding about the importance of saving sentient beings and the need to improve a practitioner's cultivation state. If we failed to cultivate ourselves well, how could we save sentient beings? Therefore, in reminding fellow practitioners to improve their cultivation state and keeping in mind the responsibility and mission we were tasked with, we understood that we had to pay attention to our own cultivation practice.
The process of sharing with practitioners at different cultivation levels was actually the process of cultivating myself. One day, Practitioner B and I were sharing at a group Fa study. One practitioner said, “I don't like the way you speak and your tone. I would rather listen to Practitioner B.” I hadn't come across such a reaction before, so I felt very embarrassed and was jealous of Practitioner B. However, the feeling of embarrassment did not last long, and I quickly looked within. I found my attachments of being overly sensitive, reluctant to let other people speak, and jealousy. On my way home, I could not help laughing, “Obviously I was cultivating myself rather than sharing with other practitioners.”
At noon on the Chinese Autumn Moon Festival in 2011, Practitioner B phoned and said that a Fa study group needed to meet and share experiences, since one of the practitioners seemed to be possessed by an animal. We got together in the afternoon and immediately began to send forth the righteous thoughts. The minute we finished, the person who was said to have animal possession jumped up and verbally abused me. I felt very embarrassed, because it happened in front of many practitioners. I was sweating. However, I maintained my xinxing and rejected everything that came out of that practitioner's mouth. At the same time I looked inward myself and found my attachment of feeling superior to others as well as being arrogant and self-opinionated. When I first entered the room and saw that person, I showed my dislike and that I felt superior to her. After returning home, I looked inward and found that I appeared to be very diligent, but my energy field was warped. This was the core of my being conceited, impatient, and selfish. Whenever “it” felt offended, I would hurt other people instantly. I was really shocked to discover it. Merciful Teacher used the occasion to let me see this unrighteousness hidden deep in me.
On our way home, Practitioner B smiled and said, “It is a holiday today, and you got a big gift!” That was true—I really did get a big gift. Arriving home I felt extremely peaceful and was able to be in a tranquil state as soon as I sat down to send forth righteous thoughts and do the exercises.
4. Exposing the Evil
Teacher commented on a practitioner's article “Expose the Evil Happening Locally to the Local People” and the Clearwisdom website also published a lot of articles about exposing local persecution facts. This showed how urgent and necessary it is to expose the persecution of local practitioners. However, we hadn't done well with this. The local practitioners were worried that if the persecution they had been subjected to was revealed, it might cause even worse problems. After learning the significance of doing this, I found several practitioners that had been tortured and told them to write articles. Exposing the evil happenings was also saving people. Ever since then, articles exposing the local evil happenings have been published on the Clearwisdom site. Now, whenever a practitioner is persecuted, we write about it immediately. We also do follow up reports as well as telephone scripts. The practitioners at Clearwisdom turned these scripts into audio files, which helped us. One police officer that was instrumental in persecuting practitioners met up with a practitioner one day and said, “You published my deeds on the Internet and the description was pretty disgraceful.” The officer looked very downcast. Actually, what he said about “disgraceful” referred to the things they had done.
5. Being Extremely Grateful
As my cultivation practice moves into the next stage, I clearly understand that I am one of the luckiest lives in this cosmos. I will be forever extremely grateful to Teacher for his merciful and arduous salvation. During the time when I was in the endless maze, including during my previous lives, I committed many bad deeds. I am really lucky to have met Teacher, who not only resolved my karmic debts, but also bestowed upon me boundless beauty.
The cosmos and the cosmic firmament are being recreated. At this historic moment, only after I continue to be diligent and do the three things well can I live up to Teacher's merciful and arduous salvation.
Note: (1) Amulets – In China, practitioners sometimes clarify the truth by giving people something small to wear or cherish, bearing a few words reminding them of the goodness of Dafa.