(Clearwisdom.net) Greetings, Respected Master! Greetings, fellow practitioners!
I am 67 years old, and I began practicing Falun Gong on February 28, 1996. I will never forget that day when I was reborn. It was Master who saved me from death. I can find no words to describe what Master has done for me, and hence I can only cultivate well, and do the three things to pay back what Master has given me.
1. Setting Up a Materials Production Site at Home
Due to persecution by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), the cultivation environment in China was destroyed in 1999. Master set up the Minghui/Clearwisdom website outside of China, and published “The Knowing Heart” to ask practitioners to pay attention to the issues addressed on the Minghui website.
To assist in saving sentient beings who were poisoned by the CCP’s lies, practitioners set up more and more materials production sites. Since I didn't have the computer skills needed, I just did some simple tasks, such as delivering truth clarifying materials, which I am still doing now.
The persecution of Falun Gong practitioners was very severe in the city where I reside, and most fellow practitioners had a very strong fear, which kept them from coming out to validate Dafa. As a result, the practitioners who had been actively involved in producing the materials felt a lot of pressure.
One day, a fellow practitioner came to discuss with me about setting up a materials site in my home. It was true that my home provided the best environment for the task, so I agreed to do it.
With the fellow practitioner’s help, the site in my home quickly rolled into peak production. However, since I did not have the technical skills, I had to collaborate well with fellow practitioners. I did all kinds of chores like purchasing materials, etc., and we worked well together for a year or so. The only major problems we had was that the equipment often broke down. Whenever a machine broke down, we studied the Fa and searched inside ourselves. I was able to find quite a few of my attachments, but I could not find a specific attachment that might have contributed to the problem. My thought was that things would break down the more we used them, so it might not be my responsibility.
A fellow practitioner said to me one day, “Every problem that we come across tells us that we have some kind of attachment. Since the production site is in your residence, don’t you think you should take charge of the project? Look at how difficult it is for other practitioners to travel back and forth. We’re all cultivators and we should think of others first. You should take it over.” Surprised to hear this, I knew however, that Master had used this fellow practitioner’s words to point out my attachment. I knew that we should all think of others first, but whenever problems occurred, I sank into those losses and forgot to use the Fa to guide me. Master said,
“The Fa can break all attachments, the Fa can destroy all evil, the Fa can shatter all lies, and the Fa can strengthen righteous thoughts.” (“Drive Out Interference,” from Essentials for Further Advancement II)
After I studied the Fa with a tranquil mind, Master helped me to eliminate those worries and build up my confidence. Another practitioner helped me patiently, and eventually I was able to aquire all the necessary skills needed to do the major tasks involved in printing materials. I have since been able to print Master’s lectures, Minghui Weekly, and other truth-clarifying materials and deliver them to fellow practitioners.
I am responsible for making enough materials for about 60 to 70 people. Whenever Master’s new lectures are published, I need to make more than 200 copies. I have been working by myself for over a year, and all of the mechanical problems fixed themselves. Some fellow practitioners commented, “We should mend ourselves before mending the machines.”
I now understand that whenever problems occur, it is all because I have left some loopholes for the evil old forces to exploit. After searching inside myself, I've found my attachments of relying on others, disliking criticism, longing for reputation, being unable to let go of myself, etc. I've concluded that all of my problems were caused by selfishness. I needed to study the Fa well to meet Master’s expectations and do the three things well.
Cultivating in such special circumstances for over a year has helped me to uncover many of my attachments that were hidden deep inside. I was forced to move forward diligently. The reason I was able to set up the site at my residence was a result of Master’s special care. I will not be unworthy of Master’s compassion and will do my tasks well.
2. When I Truly Cultivate, Master Truly Helps Me
The CCP’s persecution over the years have left some practitioners without their families, and some homeless and destitute, and those practitioners who are home are often harassed. Being a shy person, I was easily intimidated by others since I was little. However, as a practitioner of Dafa, I knew that I needed to break through this barrier.
Just as I finished sending forth righteous thoughts at 3:00 p.m. one September afternoon in 2008, my neighbor knocked on the door and said urgently, “Your big brother has been stopped by the police. Hurry up, collect your stuff and run now.” Hearing that, fear came back to me and my heart pounded in my chest. I left home hastily. When I returned that evening, my husband told me what had been taken. Even the first draft of a personal sharing article that I was preparing was taken away! Because the information I had written relating to materials production was confiscated, I was so worried, that I could not eat anything for dinner that night. I was not behaving like a practitioner at all.
Early the next morning, I went to a fellow practitioner’s house. Seeing how pale I looked, she was startled and asked me what was wrong. After I told her what had happened, she said calmly, “Whatever happens to you, good or bad, is a good thing, because it gives us an opportunity to improve. It’s good that fear surfaced, but don’t let it overwhelm you. Catch it, and then eliminate it.” After that, she studied the Fa with me, and we shared our thoughts. I felt calmer afterwards. On Monday morning, I practiced the sitting meditation. During the last five minutes or so, Master gave me a hint that helped me to shift my mental condition entirely. The following is what had really happened that day.
Although three years have passed, when I think about it now, I still feel like it just happened yesterday. I can still see every single scene clearly in my mind. Although I could not see anything in other dimensions, Master let me see with my third eye that day. From my right temple, Master moved a black substance away for me, and after that, a silver ray of light shone into the cracks of my body, and immediately I felt very comfortable. Then Master injected the Fa inside my brain,
“I am rooted in the universe. If anyone can harm you, he or she would be able to harm me. Put simply, that person would be able to harm this universe.” (Zhuan Falun)
The black substance was like a black screen, slowly fading away while the Fa gradually poured into my brain. Master said,
"As a person with genuine gong and energy, you do not need to give it off intentionally; you will leave energy on whatever you touch, and it will all be shining brightly." (Zhuan Falun)
Afterwards, it was as if:
“After this class, what you carry with you is the real gong, a high-energy matter. When you go home and write a few words—no matter how your handwriting is—it carries gong!” (Zhuan Falun)
The black screen continued to fade away and the Fa continued to pour inside my brain, "...just by remaining unmoved you could handle all situations." ("Teaching the Fa at the 2005 Canada Fa Conference") Eventually the black substance was completely removed, and then the Fa also stopped pouring in. At that moment, I felt that my body was quickly accelerating. When I stopped rising, I could see that I was very high up in the air. I saw an evil police officer kneeling down in the darkness, but my own field was clear and pure, merciful and harmonious. There are no words to describe that feeling. At that moment, the exercise music stopped. I opened my eyes and tears rolled down my cheeks. I thought, "Thank you, Master, for your merciful protection!" I was no longer afraid!
This incident helped me to understand that as long as I focus on the Fa, I will be safe. If I try to use human methods to protect myself, it will never work because this persecution is not aimed at everyday people; it was created by the evil old forces to unjustly persecute Dafa disciples. If we walk righteously on the path arranged by Master, no matter what kind of tribulations or hurdles present themselves, Master will always help us to overcome them.
Thank you, merciful and great Master! I also want to thank fellow practitioners who have offered their help.