Greetings, Master! Greetings, fellow practitioners!
I started practicing Falun Dafa in 1996. I am very lucky to have been saved by Master himself. When I became a Dafa practitioner, I not know about cultivation. During my 15 years of experience from personal cultivation and Fa-rectification cultivation, dramatic changes have occurred. I could not express my gratitude toward Master even if I used every language in the world. Only if I can cultivate diligently can I do things according to Master's requirements and be qualified for the title of “Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple.”
I will take advantage of the Eighth Internet Experience Sharing Conference for Practitioners in China to share my personal understandings of cultivation with Master and fellow practitioners.
Letting Go of Ordinary People's Notions and Producing Truth-Clarification Materials at Home
Since July 20, 1999, when the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) began the persecution of Falun Gong, the environment for practitioners in mainland China has been tough. The Fa-rectification process is moving forward as practitioners are going to Beijing to appeal, validating the Fa, clarifying the truth, and saving sentient beings. Many things need to be done under such circumstances.
As we work harder in clarifying the truth, more and more Dafa disciples will step forward to clarify the truth in order to save sentient beings. The limited source of truth-clarifying materials available is a big problem that needs to be solved urgently. I was worried when I saw that fellow practitioners were so busy at the material production site. On the other hand, I thought I could not help them out. The main reason was because I had not let go of my notions. I thought about how I live on the first floor, close to the street, and about how my husband often spoke loudly. Because of these reasons, I did not dare to help produce materials. The deeper reason was because I had fear. However, two things later happened which touched me. Our truth-clarifying material site is rather big, and some fellow practitioners were arrested. It was really hard for the one or two remaining practitioners to operate it alone. I should not only receive, I should also contribute, so I wanted to establish my own truth-clarifying materials production site.
I once tried to bring a printer home, but my husband would not allow it. I thought, “There is hardship here. Why should I wait for my husband's permission?” I brought the printer back home. Because it was an old printer, I tried for a long time to get it to work properly. Because of my fear, I threw a small piece of tissue paper soaked with ink into the toilet, and as a result, the toilet got clogged. As my husband shouted and yelled, I was moved. His voice then became even bigger. Finally, I calmed down and had the thought, “I am sure that I will do this. No one can move my heart.” As a result, he stopped shouting. Later, when we tried to unclog the pipe, we discovered that the pipe on the second floor was blocked. It was because of the evil that was taking advantage of my fear and interfering with me in this way.
I later understood that the evil took advantage of the loopholes of my attachment to fear and my lack of determination. Actually, when Dafa disciples want to do something, we need to examine our own thoughts. When it is right according to Dafa, it can be done. The only reason we stumble is because we ourselves do not want to do what needs to be done. It is because “Cultivation depends on one's own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one's master." (Lecture One in Zhuan Falun)
Letting Go of My Fear in the Process of Cooperating as One Body
A month after I was released from a forced labor camp, another practitioner was arrested. Because the arrest happened to be on a holiday, the most opportune time had passed to request the practitioner's release. Later, I, along with other practitioners and the imprisoned practitioner's family, returned to ask for the release. Only the family members were allowed inside, and around 20 practitioners stayed outside. Two or three days passed, and we still did not know where our fellow practitioner was. I then suggested that we go inside to request the release, but when the other practitioners were about to enter, I did not dare to. At that moment, I understood something: I should not only say what should be done, but I must also actually do it. I should not be held back by negative thoughts, and I should think more about others. During cultivation, we should notice how our hearts are moved. We cannot look at others and cultivate them, so I entered the building to request the release along with the other practitioners.
Two months later, another practitioner was sentenced to two years of forced labor and again taken to a brainwashing center. I thought, “What should we do?” I gathered other practitioners and asked for the imprisoned practitioner's release along with her family members. I was still afraid when I was picked up at the labor camp by fellow practitioners, because guards had already contacted officers from the local neighborhood administration office, and they planned to forward me to them so that I would be taken to a brainwashing center instead of returning home. Fortunately, the other practitioners clarified the truth, and as a result, I was returned home. I thought, “If I go back to request a practitioner's release, what will I do if the guards recognize me?” Immediately, I denied the thought. I am a Dafa disciple. Other practitioners' things are also my things. I should ask for the imprisoned practitioner's release without acknowledging the persecution. However, when I was preparing to go seek the release, a practitioner came and asked me not to go because she had dreamt that I was sent to the hospital; consequently, she tried to persuade me not to go. However, I had already thought it through clearly, so I said, “I do not acknowledge the old forces' arrangements, and I should still go.” I then went to two places, including the neighborhood administration office and the Political and Judiciary Committee. Although the agents there threatened me, and I was not so calm at the time, I was finally able to become calm with righteous thoughts.
By doing these two things, I feel that I have let go of much of my attachment to fear. I have enlightened that, to do these Dafa projects, we should go ahead and do them according to the requirement of Dafa instead of waiting until we cultivate ourselves or enlighten to a certain point. Then, in the process of doing Dafa projects, we should let go of attachments and improve both our xinxing and enlightenment quality. So later on, if there is anything that we need to do together, I will do it with a calm heart.
Benefiting from the Minghui Experience Sharing Platform
Although it has only been two years since I began using the Minghui website (Chinese version of Clearwisdom), I have benefited a lot throughout the whole process. Master said,
“What Minghui mainly focuses on is the development of the main body of Dafa disciples' cultivation, with a special concern being to expose the persecution that's taking place in the mainland; the main thrust of its reporting is about the cultivation circumstances of Dafa disciples in the mainland.” (“Fa Teaching Given at the Conference Marking the Tenth Anniversary of the Minghui Website's Founding”)
I once read an experience sharing article that was written by a practitioner who had just begun practicing Falun Dafa the year before. He had written about his mother who was taking medication during her cultivation. In reading his sharing, I realized that I had some problems when dealing with some of those things. It was because I did not know the Fa very well, and I did not trust Master completely. I now know better if similar problems occur in the future.
Sometimes, I did not pay enough attention to certain problems. The articles on Minghui pointed them out for me.
When I study the Fa frequently and read articles from Minghui, I have new understandings about exposing the evil. Master said,
“Exposing the wicked policemen and bad persons and publicizing their evil deeds is extremely effective at shocking and restraining those irrational, wicked people. At the same time, by clarifying the facts to the people on a local level it most directly exposes, and generates public awareness of, the wicked persecution. It is also a great way to save the people who have been poisoned and deceived by the lies.” (“Master's Comments to Practitioner's Article: Expose the Evil Happening Locally to the Local People”)
In the past, when I read those articles about fellow practitioners exposing the evil, I felt afraid of the persecution. Later, I knew that it was not me, and that it was actually a wicked factor behind me that was afraid of being exposed and dissolved. I thus continuously corrected and strengthened my righteous thoughts. I continuously read those articles that exposed the wicked people. That way, I also learned how to expose the evil. I wrote down my experience of the persecution and shared it with fellow practitioners. I also wrote down for them their experiences of being persecuted. I then organized the accounts, edited them, and double checked with the practitioners. Sometimes, I felt that my schedule was tight, and I felt like giving up. However, when I thought of Master, Dafa, and fellow practitioners, I cheered up and tried to write down all the persecution facts that I had learned from sharing with fellow practitioners in order to encourage them to expose and dissolve the evil. I also matured during the process. I not only wrote articles about the persecution, but I also wrote commentary articles. It is the wisdom that I receive from Dafa.
We have a group Fa-study team. I usually share with practitioners what I have read, and we all improve after sharing together.
Studying the Fa Is Fundamental
When I recall my whole cultivation process over these past 15 years, what I have enlightened to the most is that to study the Fa well is the most fundamental and important thing.
When I recall the most severe period over which I was persecuted, I see that I fully relied upon the power of Dafa so that I could walk through without being interfered with. Master has already taught the Fa regarding the problems we encounter. When I thought of the Fa, I realized what I should do. It was rather clear that I should eradicate the lie the evil has fabricated.
Later, however, because I only cared about the quantity of my Fa-study without paying attention to the quality of my Fa-study, I was not genuinely practicing Dafa. As a result, the evil took advantage of me, and I was persecuted. Actually, it was because I did not take Fa-study or the opportunity to cultivate seriously. I felt very ashamed when I read Master's new articles “Dafa Disciples Must Study the Fa” and “What Is a Dafa Disciple.” It is very fortunate to become Dafa a disciple nowadays. Master leads us to the path. I, however, walk and stop, and sometimes I even go backward. I am sometimes lost in the current of ordinary society's interests and do not want to step away, not wanting to let go of human notions.
During a recent Fa-study, I looked inward according to Master's requirement. I noticed that I always use Dafa as an excuse, and it only seems that I am very diligent. However, I lose my temper very easily when I meet with something unhappy instead of looking inward. Master said,
“As soon as your thinking aligns with a particular type of being, it will be able to instantly exert an effect on you. Yet you won’t be aware of where your thoughts are originating from, and will still think that it is your own will. But in fact, it was precisely your attachments that resulted in those things having an effect on you, and that led to their strengthening your attachments.” (“Dafa Disciples Must Study the Fa – Fa Teaching Given at the 2011 Washington DC Metro Area Fa Conference”)
It is because I do not cultivate myself well and indulge in my personal attachments and notions that the evil part takes advantage of me.
The most important thing nowadays is to save sentient beings. I have not done well. Sometimes when I clarify the truth and others do not listen, I give up. I need to cultivate myself well. On the other hand, I should find my shortcomings while clarifying the truth. I should truly save the beings, not just perform the formality. I should truly save more people according to Master's requirements. I should study the Fa well and cultivate myself well in order to fulfill my mission.
This is my personal understanding. Please mercifully point out anything wrong.
Thank you, Master!
Thank you, fellow practitioners!