(Clearwisdom.net) My family name is Zhang and I am 59 years old. I am a retired worker from Henan Province.
I developed diabetes seventeen years ago, and I virtually lost my eyesight due to a hemorrhage in December 2010. When I had surgery on my eye, the anesthetic did not take effect and the pain I experienced was excruciating. I had to endure more than 20 laser surgeries on my eye.
When I went for a checkup three months later, I still couldn’t see clearly. The doctor told me that the vessels in my eye were still blocked, and the blood could not circulate properly. I thought my life was over. I could not even see my food clearly when I was eating, and I needed a crutch to help me walk. But I often fell over. I twisted both ankles from falling down and my knees were badly bruised.
My neighbor gave me the book Zhuan Falun to read one day, but I could not see the words, even with my glasses. So I returned the book the next day. At the time, my neighbors were reading the Fa so I just sat with them and listened. I had been listening to the Fa for nearly a week, when I gradually started to see simple words. I was so happy. When I tried to read along with them, they would help me if I could not see some of the words. I could only wear a single layer of clothes while studying the Fa in the wintertime, as I sweated a lot when I read.
My vision improved a lot as I continued to practice. My blood pressure became normal and the bruising on my knee disappeared. When I decided to no longer take insulin for my diabetes, my husband and daughter started to argue with me because they were concerned for my health. They were also afraid that I would be persecuted by the authorities for practicing Falun Gong.
My husband said, “How could you cure diabetes by practicing Falun Gong?” I told him that my health had already improved a lot by practicing. He said, “If your illnesses return again, I will not take care of you.” I realized that I had an attachment of pursuit and expected my diabetes to be cured through the practice. As a result of this unrighteous thought, my eye began to bleed a lot and I could not see clearly, and reading the Fa was very difficult. I cried a lot. Nevertheless, I started to study the Fa, do the exercises and send forth righteous thoughts. My vision recovered a month later.
When I stopped taking the insulin, I felt thirsty and needed to go to the bathroom often. I did not have a calm mind. I thought my illness was still not cured, and that I needed insulin. I still had the pursuit of wanting to tell my relatives that I was cured by Falun Gong. But I was not steadfast in my faith in Master and the Fa, and took insulin several times. I wondered why my other illnesses have disappeared, but not the diabetes. What was the problem?
Master said:
“I will purify your body. The body purification will be done only for those who come to truly learn the practice and the Fa. We emphasize one point: If you cannot relinquish the attachment or concern for illness, we cannot do anything and will be unable to help you” (Zhuan Falun)
“When you feel very uncomfortable, it indicates that things will turn around after reaching the extreme point. Your whole body will be purified and it must be completely purified” (Zhuan Falun)
I did not study the Fa well and my xinxing was low. Through sharing with other practitioners, I realized that Falun Gong is not about treating illness, but about cultivating one’s moral character. With this new understanding, all my illnesses have now disappeared.