(Clearwisdom.net) I was extremely sad when I was preparing this experience sharing paper. Although I have done some things to validate the Fa, Master has had to bear too much for me. From 1996, when I began practicing until today, Master has not let me fall down on the path of rectifying the Fa. He has continuously enlightened, encouraged, and carefully protected and blessed me.
Master Taught Me to Study the Fa Well
For a long period of time I had distracting thoughts when I studied the Fa. I was always thinking of how to clarify the truth. I was confused and my thoughts were not clear. I felt anxious. Looking inward to see what I needed to let go of, I found some attachments. I sent righteous thoughts to remove them but did not resolve the fundamental issue of not being able to absorb the Fa into my heart.
One day I opened up the "Fa-Lecture at the Conference in Florida" (December 29, 2001), and my eyes suddenly saw Master's words:
"You all know what state of mind a person must be in to see the Fa's principles. You know it without my having to say much. When your eyes read the Fa and yet your mind isn't on the Fa, think about it, aren't you reading in vain? Who are you reading for? You yourself aren't really studying the Fa, then."
This paragraph quickly penetrated deep into my mind. I understood. How scary! I realized that I was in that state because my attitude when studying the Fa was not correct. I quickly changed this and strengthened my main consciousness. I let go of the mentality of doing things. I showed respect for Master and the Fa. I would not allow the old forces, black hands, and messy ghosts use karma and notions to control and interfere with me. Although it was winter and very cold, I read Zhuan Falun, holding it with both hands, sitting cross-legged on my grass mat on the ground. I read aloud each word and each sentence.
As one might expect, I was able to understand the Fa principles this way. When I read:
...the universe's Milky Ways and galaxies are also in motion. (Zhuan Falun)
in the first lecture of Zhuan Falun, the Fa revealed to me boundless dimensions in the universe. One day early in the morning when I had just read the section "Genuinely Guiding People Toward High Levels" in Zhuan Falun, all of a sudden, all of the principles of guiding people toward high levels, one after the other, penetrated into my mind. It was indescribably wonderful. Following this experience, I was determined to memorize Zhuan Falun. I memorized it three times.
Group Fa Study
In 2007, in the first half of the year, my family organized a small Fa study group. There were only 7 or 8 of us in the beginning, but it gradually grew to between 20 and 30 people. Some of the practitioners in the small group had just come out. Some had just obtained the Fa and started practicing Falun Dafa after 1999. Studying the Fa together, everyone improved quickly. I was also able to let go of a lot of attachments, such as fearing problems, seeking comfort, selfishness, and fearing filth. The most prominent was the attachment to fear. The Public Security Bureau in our community was pretty severe and watched us pretty closely. When 7 or 8 of us read the Fa together, I felt that some of the practitioners' voices were loud. I felt it wasn't safe. I was too embarrassed to bring this up. I eventually removed this layer of attachment to fear. Afterwards some practitioners proposed that everyone take turns reading the Fa. Each person would read one page out loud at a time. This resolved this issue. When the number of people attending increased to between 20 and 30, some people, after attending once, didn't return. They felt it wasn't safe when there were that many people. After that we divided into two smaller groups.
Some practitioners who had just come out or had only practiced for a short time had difficulty understanding the distinction between individual cultivation and the responsibilities of a Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple. After reading and discussing Master's lectures published after the persecution started on July 20, 1999, we came to understand the historically significant mission and responsibility of Fa-rectification period Dafa disciples. In addition to studying the Fa and practicing the exercises together as a group, we also went to sent righteous thoughts near detention centers, police stations, and other places where practitioners were held. We clarified the truth. We urged people to withdraw from the Communist Party and its affiliated organizations. No one fell behind.
Don't Avoid Eliminating Thoughts and Notions, or Confronting Difficulties
As I continued to study the Fa and improve my xinxing, Master ceaselessly gave me wisdom. There are quite a few practitioners in our area whose education level is quite high, but the number of articles that have been written to validate that Fa and expose the persecution are quite few. Some practitioners were illegally arrested but a few days passed and no one had written an article on the Internet to expose the evil. This increased the difficulties of rescuing these practitioners who were being persecuted. The coordinators raised this issue when everyone was together. Everyone complained of headaches, had excuses, said their writing skills were poor, or that they didn't have time.
"Be considerate of others when you do things, and look at yourself when you get into disagreements."
("Fa Teaching at the 2009 Washington DC International Fa Conference")
Actually, I also refused. I thought that my education level was not high enough. I had only attended middle school. I enlightened that this way of thinking was not based on the Fa. I had involuntarily turned my back on Lunyu.
It was clear to me that Master was again giving me hints. I really needed to break through this notion that my educational level was not high enough. With Master and the Fa by our sides, there is nothing that Dafa disciples cannot do. Also, when Dafa disciples have difficulties, they shouldn't avoid them.
With the principles of the Fa to help me elevate to higher levels, I was filled with confidence. I was convinced that I could write well. I wrote my first article, "What I Saw in Other Dimensions While Sending Righteous Thoughts" in 2002. What I wanted to write simply flowed out. It was reasonable and successful. I felt as if Master was helping me to write it. It was published in the Minghui Weekly the same month I sent it in. This increased my confidence that I could write good articles. I thought, "Master is encouraging me but I should not get over-zealous."
Afterwards I learned how to write news articles in order to expose the criminal conduct of those persecuting Dafa disciples in our area. I wrote a few articles for ordinary people so that they could understand the true situation, believe in Falun Dafa, and obtain blessings by withdrawing from the Communist Party and its affiliated organizations. I also wrote about the persecution of Falun Dafa and how those that persecuted practitioners received retribution. I also wrote a few articles exhorting people to do good. I wrote at night because during the daytime I was clarifying the truth and doing other things. I often wrote until 2 a.m. or even later. I was simply doing what I am supposed to do as a Dafa disciple and a particle of Dafa. I suffered yet I felt joyous. I didn't feel exhausted. Every time I wrote an article, I sent righteous thoughts to eliminate interference from other dimensions.
I felt it was very difficult every time I wrote commentary articles. In 2007 I tried to write an article about the 610 Office and public security departments that were persecuting Falun Gong practitioners in our local area. I thought about this for a few days and felt very confused. I had no idea where to begin. Facing the difficulty, I did not proceed forward but withdrew. I gave it to a fellow practitioner who was a university student to write. This student also had to go to work and and had many projects to work on to clarify the truth and help Master save people. Two days later he brought it back for me to write.
So what was I going to do? The only thing left to do was to ask for Master's support. I sat down and quietly studied the Fa. Everything came from the Fa.
When it looks impossible and is said to be impossible, give it a try and see if it is possible. If you can actually do it, you will indeed find: "After passing the shady willow trees, there will be bright flowers and another village ahead!" (Zhuan Falun)
I felt as if I were regarding my difficulties as being too big. I have the indomitable spirit of a deity--what could this little thing among ordinary people count for? I looked at a couple of practitioners' articles as reference. I read the Constitution twice. I read a few books of lawyer's briefs written by righteous lawyers defending the innocence of Dafa practitioners. Master, seeing the effort that I put in, and my sense of responsibility to help save people, increased my wisdom. The writing of the article went very smoothly. I revised it several times, and each time it became longer. I exposed what was going on and urged people to do good. All the practitioners that read it thought that it was quite good.
These past years working on projects to validate the Fa could not have been possible without the cooperation and coordination of the whole body of practitioners. Every time I write an article, practitioners help me, from understanding the true situation, correcting the rough draft, typing it on the Internet, creating small pamphlets entitled "True Words" about this locality, downloading and printing the material, distributing it, etc. If that chain is broken, the articles that I write will not be effective in saving people. When practitioners help me correct the rough draft, our xinxing improves because we are able to give up our selfishness. When correcting some articles, whether it is changing words or sentences, adding or deleting material, it is sometimes difficult for me to accept. I think that I am correct, but another practitioner thinks that she is correct. We repeatedly discuss the matter and sometimes she gives in or sometimes I do, but in the end we quickly reach consensus.
Clarifying the Truth Face to Face Gets Rid of Many Human Attachments
Before 2005, I did a lot of things to clarify the facts, but did not tell people the facts very often at all. Materials sites began to blossom everywhere, and in 2002 one such flower began to open in my own home. In 2005 Teacher released a new scripture, "Turning the Wheel Towards the Human World." Encouraging the Three Withdrawals then became a part of our truth clarification efforts. I began integrating distributing materials and clarifying the truth face to face. At the start I only encouraged relatives and close friends to quit the Party, and felt it was quite smooth and easy. But when I was talking with people I wasn't familiar with, fear would arise in my heart - fear that the person would not accept what I was saying. For this reason, I was anxious and nervous. When I first began, I would pay attention to my tone of voice but sometimes would completely forget what I wanted to say. I realized my righteous thoughts were insufficient and that I was not clear on the Fa principles. I quickly stopped what I was doing and studied the Fa. I calmly studied Guiding the Voyage and became clear after reading Teacher's words:
"When we clarify the truth we are saving sentient beings, and at the same time it involves the matter of your own improvement and your elimination of attachments during your cultivation, and the matter of Dafa disciples being responsible to the Fa in their cultivation, as well as issues like how you fill and enrich that paradise of yours in your final Consummation." ("Teaching the Fa at the Washington, D.C. International Fa Conference" in Guiding the Voyage).
Dafa disciples must save people with the most compassionate of hearts, and we should not fear those we are meant to save. At the same time, this fear is about saving face. I feared people not agreeing to withdraw from the Party, which would cause me to lose face. It was all thinking about myself. This fear is selfishness, which is the characteristic of the old universe. I should clear it out. After improving on the basis of the Fa, I felt that ordinary people are in such a tragic situation: they have come to this world and have not obtained the Way. For money they pass their days in confusion, and as catastrophe approaches, they have not awoken. Even more so should I double my efforts to clarify the truth to them, encourage them to withdraw from the Party, and help them obtain salvation. Each time I went out to encourage one to quit, or even two or three, if I was unable to connect with them I became anxious, which prevented compassion from arising. Sometimes anger and complaint arose instead, making me feel that ordinary people are very foolish.
Comparing how we study and comparing how we cultivate, several practitioners in our area speak very well when encouraging people to withdraw from the Party. Each time they go out they help 10 or even 20 people to quit. I sought them out to share with them and asked them to take me along. In September 2009 I went out every day with practitioners A and B on a motorbike to the villages in our city hinterland to clarify the facts. Every day before leaving, we would all send righteous thoughts to clear out the evil factors in other dimensions that would interfere with our efforts to save sentient beings - such as the old forces' black hands, rotten ghosts, and the Party's evil specters. From the time that we walked out the door, if we were not clarifying the facts, we were sending righteous thoughts. Before leaving, each person would prepare a bundle of materials and amulets (1). When we clarified the truth clearly to someone, we would give them one.
I saw that practitioners A and B had not the slightest bit of fear when clarifying the truth. They had a natural demeanor, which was a state of Gods saving ordinary people. As soon as they came across someone in the street, man or woman, old or young, they would get off their motorbikes, greet the person, and say, "I want to tell you something. The Communist Party is persecuting Falun Gong practitioners, who are good people, who are cultivators. So its days are numbered and disasters are frequent. Heaven will eliminate the Communist Party. You should remember 'Falun Dafa is good. Truth-Compassion-Forbearance is good.' Gods and Buddhas will look after you." If the person agreed, they would take it a step further and say, "You should withdraw from the Young Pioneers, Communist Youth League, and the Communist Party and you will be safe." If the person accepted this, they would talk about other matters, such as the truth of the Tiananmen Square self-immolation, Dafa's spread around the world, the contents of the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party, and then give them an amulet. When I first started, I was a little scared. But seeing the people who heard the facts joyfully accept the information materials and leave, I deeply respected these fellow cultivators telling the facts so directly. I completely got rid of my fear. In the first three days I only helped send righteous thoughts and write down the names to be used to withdraw. On the fourth day I started speaking with people and the results were good. If we came across four or five people or even more, we would talk with them face to face.
In 2009 before National Day (October 1), we were on a road in the countryside and came across three girls roasting corn. We greeted them and spoke one at a time. Practitioners A and B both called on them to withdraw from the Party, but when I spoke, those young girls didn't believe me. One said she didn't believe there were Gods and Buddhas and only believed in the Communist Party and what was said on the television. I got anxious and thought to myself that I definitely had to get her believe that Falun Dafa is good and clear away the lies in her mind that were slandering Dafa. I brought up some examples, showing that Gods and Buddhas exist, but the more she listened the angrier she got. In the end she shouted, "I am going to call the police right now!" She kept shouting as she fished for her mobile phone. Practitioners A and B stepped in and said, "If you don't believe us, then so be it. We're here to help you, but you're doing a bad thing by calling the police. You mustn't call them." She replied, "Then get lost, now!" B calmly said, "Don't be angry. Give some thought to whether what we said was right or wrong."
The three of us got on our bikes and left. A said, "Why did we run into this today? We all have to look inside ourselves and see whether we still have attachments." I said, "It was all because of my faults. I saw you two successfully withdrawing people and became anxious. I became competitive, and when that girl didn't listen to us, I got angry. There was no compassion, and my human heart was strong. When she began yelling, I became fearful." I said that I would definitely get rid of these attachments. They encouraged me, saying "Don't be fearful. With Teacher here, with the Fa here, she can't do anything to us." Practitioner B said, "You can also blame me. I forgot to send righteous thoughts." We came across a few more people on the road and encouraged them to withdraw, and then hurried back home to study the Fa. On National Day (October 1), we went to the countryside to save people just like any other day. We successfully encouraged 23 people to quit the Party and gave out three bundles of materials, which proved to be not enough.
This year after the New Year celebrations passed, more than 10 practitioners wanted to come with us to clarify the facts, because they wanted to diligently strive forward. Practitioner A, Practitioner B, and I each took one or two. When each new person was able to speak solo, we took a new group out. This way, each day, regardless of wind or rain, biting cold or burning sun, we held firmly to clarifying the facts, traversing the city streets and alleyways. This year there were relatively more days of heavy rain. We came across a hospital and in the hallway there were a lot of patients to talk to. We went to the bank and talked to the people lining up in the queue. On the streets there were a lot of people huddled under eaves to escape the rain. We clarified the facts to the world's people without stopping. As long as there were people in the area, we went there unconditionally. As more and more people heard the truth, I clearly felt our environment become better and better.
One afternoon I clarified the facts to a lady who was at least 50 years old. She understood and withdrew from the Party. I gave her some truth clarifying materials and an amulet, and she ecstatically replied, "Wow, you truly are the great, compassionate Bodhisattva Guanyin. You have been so good to me!" I said, "I'm only telling you the facts so that you can understand. The one who is truly saving you is my Teacher." She asked me who my Teacher was, and I told her it was Master Li Hongzhi. She said, "Wow, I deeply thank you!" One afternoon a few months prior I told the facts to a middle-aged man, encouraged him to withdraw from the Party, and gave him some materials. But a girl who didn't understand the truth reported me to the police, and a police car pulled up about seven meters from where I was standing. I calmly walked away while sending righteous thoughts and asked Teacher to protect me. The police were unable to see where I was. I clearly felt Teacher dissolving the danger for me. In a nearby place I kept telling people the facts and was even able to encourage two more people to quit the Party.
In the next few days the weather suddenly became hot. Days were 33 degrees Celsius and evenings were hot and stuffy. I was walking down a main road with Practitioner B. There were a lot of people about, including a group of four older people standing and chatting. One of them, a man over 50, saw us and smiled (he had already understood the truth). He stood on a step and, as if giving a speech, shouted to the group he was talking to and other passersby, "Everyone, look!" He pointed at us. "These ladies are working so hard, the weather is so hot, but they are still coming out to do good things. One day in the future when this society has become good, we will tell the next generation about the things you have done. We will make sure they remember you!" I said, "Let's be diligent together."
Over these years of clarifying the facts face-to-face to whichever person we came across, a lot of people had their hearts cleansed. Whether we came across good or bad things, our hearts were not moved.
On this path of rectifying the Fa, each step taken was according to Teacher's arrangements and under His protection. Discussing and reflecting on our doing the Three Things was all done to follow through on our grand vows. I still have to be more diligent, so I will be worthy of Teacher's grand salvation.
Thank you, Teacher! Thank you, fellow cultivators!
(1) Amulets - In China, practitioners sometimes "clarify the truth" by giving people something small to wear or cherish, bearing a few words reminding them of the goodness of Dafa.