(Clearwisdom.net) I obtained the Fa in May 1998. I went through many tribulations during my cultivation. Sometimes I passed the tests well, and sometimes I did not. Sometimes I did not pass the tests at all, but I got up when I stumbled and moved forward. There is one thought in my mind that has never changed, no matter what, "I must follow Teacher and return home." So I have walked firmly on the path of cultivation.
Giving Up the Attachment of Fear and Saving Sentient Beings
As a Falun Dafa disciple in the Fa-rectification period, we currently need to not only study the Fa well, practice the exercises well, and clarify the truth, but also need to have greater benevolence to save more sentient beings as soon as we can. I always think of the predestined people in the mountains who rarely have the chance to get informational materials, so I focus on distributing truth-clarifying leaflets in those areas.
I once went to a small town in the mountains to distribute materials. Before going, I had the righteous thought in my mind that I would not allow any evil beings or factors to prevent the sentient beings there from learning the truth and being saved, and I wouldn't allow the evil to persecute Falun Dafa practitioners. I took the bus early in the morning. I had no fear, and distributed the materials with dignity. It took me only three hours to distribute them throughout the town, including to the factories, government offices, hospitals, and residential areas. I also left some leaflets at the county government building. Because it was Sunday, no one was working in the building. The door to one office was open but no one was inside. I went in and put the leaflets on the desk. Then I went to every floor to put materials in appropriate places. Afterwards, I went to the county hospital and distributed the leaflets to the offices and wards. I then went to a farmer's house. When I arrived at the door, a dog ran out and barked at me. I calmly said to it, "You cannot bark. I came here to save your master. Do not bark at good people with righteous hearts." I put the materials in front of the door. The dog stopped barking. After I finished distributing the materials, I caught the bus and returned home safely.
Every holiday I select a few small towns in which to distribute truth-clarifying materials. It has always gone smoothly and I always arrive home safely. Every time I have distributed materials, I have first sent forth righteous thoughts to let the sentient beings see the truth-clarifying materials and be saved, to not allow any bad people to destroy the materials, and to let the materials be as effective as possible in saving sentient beings.
I believe that it is not just us doing the work. All the righteous gods and Teacher's law bodies are helping Dafa disciples save sentient beings. I also feel that Teacher has always been beside me, strengthening and protecting me to do the sacred task. I don't have fear. I only think of how to do things better and save more sentient beings.
Obtaining the Fa, Cultivating Myself, and Looking Inward
I am a doctor, and I work at the city hospital. My responsibility in society is to treat illness and save patients from pain and death.
Since childhood, I have been frail and easily fell ill. I took medicine for many years. As an adult male, I weighted less than 90 lbs. When I had a cold or fever, it took more than a month to recover. I couldn't eat cold food and always had to wear warm clothing, and I frequently had stomach pain and diarrhea.
I was very fortunate to obtain the Fa in 1998. After I started cultivating, I unconsciously said to Teacher in my heart that it would be great if I gained a little weight since people would easily see the change and realize the greatness of the Fa. Within six months, all my illnesses were gone. I did not need to take any medicine at all and had no problem drinking cold water. Before long, I weighed a healthy 145 pounds. When people saw me, they all said I looked younger. Some of my friends and relatives saw the changes in me and they also started to practice Falun Gong.
Since I did not study the Fa well, I didn't understand the Fa based on the Fa, did not improve myself rationally, and only regarded Teacher with a sense of gratitude. During the evil persecution of Falun Gong, I safeguarded the Fa and Teacher with irrationality and tears. On the surface it seemed right, but based on Fa principles and cultivation, it was not the correct way to safeguard the Fa, and it was not rational. I clarified the truth with emotion and was taken advantage of by the old forces. I was illegally imprisoned for two years, and in 2002 I was released. After returning home, I studied the Fa with a calm mind and realized that regardless of how I previously validated the Fa, I should now do it with rationality and benevolence. I should do everything based on the Fa and look inward when I have difficulties. I should cultivate my xinxing and truly improve myself. I should establish the correct basis, that is, thinking of sentient beings first and doing things to save those people, not to validate myself. I should follow Teacher's requirement for Dafa disciples and "attain the righteous enlightenment of selflessness and altruism." ("No-Omission in Buddha-Nature" from Essentials for Further Advancement)
When I found my shortcomings and attachments, I doubled my efforts to make amends, clarifying the truth in many different ways. In the hospital, when I treat patients, I meet a lot of predestined people. I use this opportunity to clarify the truth of Falun Gong to them with wisdom. Most of the patients and their family members can understand the truth and withdraw from the CCP. Some ask for truth-clarifying informational materials and Dafa books, or even want to study the Fa and practice the exercises after reading the truth-clarifying booklets. Sometimes it seems that patients come to me precisely for this reason. The people who can understand and accept Dafa usually recover more quickly and thoroughly. Patients with mysterious illnesses that couldn't be cured at other places have also been cured. It is clear that since they sincerely thought "Dafa is good" and always recited "Falun Dafa is good" and "Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good," they were rewarded with good things. Teacher eliminated their karma. What I can do is to use many different ways to lead people to understand the truth, know the greatness of Dafa, distinguish good from evil, realize how the CCP has harmed the world's people, and choose to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations.
Sometime I encounter difficulties. For example, some patients and their family members didn't want to listen to me to clarify the truth. They even told the chief of the hospital that I was spreading propaganda about Falun Gong. Some patients were under my treatment for a few days and felt good, but for some reason they insisted on changing doctors and said my treatment didn't work. I knew I must have done something wrong and I must still have some human notions and attachments. I looked inward. Based on the Fa principles, I found deeply hidden attachments such as selfishness, the mentality of doing things, and the attachment of showing off. With those attachments, I spoke at a level which people could not understand, or I spoke irrationally, which made them feel uncomfortable, or I argued with them, making them angry so they could not accept the truth. Teacher taught us,
"You can't talk about things at too high of a level. Talking about things at a high or low level is not a simple question of whether you are exercising good judgment. It is a question of whether you are saving sentient beings or destroying them. So when you clarify the truth you absolutely must not speak at too high of a level." ("Teaching the Fa in San Francisco, 2005")
I had to rectify this unrighteous thought. I used this as an opportunity to find my attachments, eliminate them, and improve myself. After a few tries, it was easier for me to clarify the truth.
One of my young colleagues that worked in the same section usually got along well with me, but one day he suddenly said to me, "I could tell the chief of the hospital to get rid of you. You always talk about Falun Gong, which interrupts my work and study. I could definitely do that." Actually, I didn't frequently clarify the truth to him, but I told him calmly, "You could tell the chief. It is your right, but it would not be a good thing for you to do. I want you to understand the greatness of the Fa so that you can reap the benefits. If you don't want to listen, I will no longer do it. You don't need to be angry." At the same time, I also found my shortcomings and attachments to saving face, jealousy, and competitiveness. When I saw he had more patients, I felt jealous. I thought of the Fa that Teacher has taught us about jealousy, where a neighbor's child scored a hundred and another neighbor became jealous and began to curse in his house, and when an incompetent person in the same working group as someone else got a promotion and even became that person's supervisor, he felt it was unfair and became quite jealous. Teacher said that one will not complete cultivation if the attachment of jealousy is not eliminated. I realized that if we truly believe in Teacher and believe in the Fa, we must eliminate jealousy as soon as possible. Whenever I subsequently encountered this kind of problem with him, I reminded myself and treated him with benevolence. Gradually he began to respect me and no longer caused problems for me. When I clarify the truth to patients, he usually leaves the office and cooperates with me well.
Teacher taught us in "Realms" in Essentials for Further Advancement:
"A wicked person is born of jealousy.
Out of selfishness and anger he complains about unfairness towards himself.
A benevolent person always has a heart of compassion.
With no discontentment or hatred, he takes hardship as joy.
An enlightened person has no attachments at all.
He quietly observes the people of the world deluded by illusions."
The Fa principles enlightened me. Every time I had some xinxing tribulations, I thought, "I am a Falun Dafa disciple and nothing can stop me. When it's impossible to do, we can do it." After that I learned to look inward. No matter what I hear or see, no matter what kind of problems I encounter, I look inward and get rid of my attachments. I can feel that I am improving very quickly on the path of Dafa cultivation led by Teacher.
My own level is limited, so please point out anything improper.
July 5, 2009