(Clearwisdom.net) I started to cultivate Dafa in 1997. During these few years I have persisted in doing the three things required of practitioners but I was not diligent enough. There were times when I have slackened.
One day I dreamed that I came to a dark place where there was no exit. The place was so dark that you could not see your hand in front of your face. As I was looking for an exit, I saw a scene ahead of me. It looked like the horizon where the skies and the mountains meet. When I took a closer look, I saw a heavenly ladder leading from the clouds in a slightly slanted manner all the way down. It looked somewhat like an escalator where the steps were rolling upwards. Many practitioners stepped onto the ladder and went up with the upward movement of the ladder. I seemed to see that there were also many practitioners who were wearing backpacks. I thought it a bit strange and then I saw that those practitioners with these backpacks were slowly sliding down from the ladder. From their expressions it seemed that they did not know that they were sliding down. There were also some practitioners who were continually hurrying to approach this ladder. There were people continually stepping up onto the ladder. I was suddenly enlightened and rushed towards the heavenly ladder in a worried manner. I then discovered that there was no path under my feet for me to reach there. In a frantic state, I cried and shouted, "Master! Save me, please don't abandon me. I want to go with you..."
In a moment's time, I reached the bottom of the heavenly steps. But by this time, the bottom of the steps has already changed into a vast ocean and the heavenly steps were taken away. Those who did not manage to get up lost their chance. I was horrified and cried. The sense of compunction, of being lost, fear, depression, being helpless, and regret that came from the depths of my soul, filled every cell in my body. It was an endless regret and remorse.
At that moment, I heard a voice saying, "Write down what you saw!"
After I woke up, I knelt down in front of Master's portrait and wept. I thought of the sentient beings who had placed their hopes on me, I thought of the vows I made and agreements I signed. But today I am lost in the world. I am lazy, full of fear, seek comfort and these attachments blocked my path towards diligence. I have let my sentient beings down. I am ashamed to face Master. Upon writing all this, I am filled with tears again.
Hurry up, wake up, fellow practitioners who are not diligent enough! Master said in his lecture, "Fa Teaching at the 2008 New York Conference": "Now is the final moment that concludes arrangements that are eons old." "You are all shouldering the greatest of Dafa disciples' responsibilities: you are sentient beings' hope for salvation." For the sake of our ancient great vows, for the sake of the sentient beings who have placed their hopes on us, please don't miss this predestined relationship that comes by only in thousands of years. Let's be diligent, Fa-rectification period Dafa practitioners!
August 12, 2008