(Clearwisdom.net) My practice of Falun Gong began in 1996. I always admired fellow practitioners who were able to post their cultivation experiences on the Minghui/Clearwisdom website. I also wanted to write about my experiences, but until now I did not feel diligent enough. I have come to understand that this fear is based on selfishness, and since it blocks me, I should eliminate it. Today, I finally sat down to write my first article.
Persisting in Fa Study
I became very interested in Falun Gong after an unexpected viewing of Teacher's video lectures. Teacher appeared to be very kind and approachable, and what he said was very easy to understand. All at once, I understood the answers to many questions. Before the persecution started on July 20, 1999, I went to the park to do the exercises and attended group study every evening. I experienced a lasting joy which kept me moving ahead.
When I first started cultivation, I didn't know the importance of Fa study, but I thought I understood all the Fa principles, and believed that as long as I knew what to do, that would be enough. I treated the Fa as some sort of theory. Teacher has emphasized the importance of studying the Fa in various lectures. Finally I started to pay attention to this and use my spare time during the day to study Teacher's lectures from around the world. In the evening, I study one lecture from Zhuan Falun. Teacher has explained the Fa thoroughly and at a very high level, but I didn't enlighten to it. I was still hoping that Teacher might tell us more and higher principles. Some practitioners didn't understand why we needed to validate the Fa. I thought this could be due to fear and the attachments of comfort and selfishness, but their excuse was that Zhuan Falun didn't talk about this. Also, some practitioners had a lack of understanding of Teacher's lectures given around the world. So it's really important to study the Fa. As long as we study the Fa more and persevere, everything will be taken care of.
My third eye is blocked so I cannot see anything extraordinary in other dimensions. I cannot feel anything of the sort either, but I know:
"Supernatural skills are but petty means,
The Great Fa must be the basis of everything."
("Seeking the Righteous Fa" from Hong Yin)
I reminded myself that it was such a glory to be saved by Teacher, so what else do I need? I should just put my faith in Teacher and Dafa. Nevertheless, I constantly received hints from Teacher. For example, sometimes I dream that I am flying in the air and looking at mountains and water on the ground. I also dream about Faluns swirling towards me. Once I took hold of a Falun and ran around with it, asking people to quit the CCP. After I watched Teacher's video, "Fa Teaching Given to the Australian Practitioners," I had a dream that Teacher came to my home. Tears flowed down my cheeks and I was speechless.
Strengthening Righteous Thoughts and Saving the World's People
Prior to cultivation, I was very competitive and full of jealousy, and I lacked energy. Now I understand how harmful jealousy can become. The postnatal concepts are so stubborn that they are like rocks. If I don't eliminate jealousy, I won't have compassion. Teacher said,
"Compassion can harmonize Heaven and Earth, ushering in spring
Righteous thoughts can save the people in this world"
("The Fa Rectifies the Cosmos" from Hong Yin II)
So I strengthen my righteous thoughts and make cultivation my first priority. I strive to maintain righteous thoughts and keep my post natal concepts at bay while I try to eliminate them.
I walk by the police department every day on my way to and from work. I send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil elements that are detrimental to Falun Dafa in other dimensions. Whenever I am in public, I send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil so that the people can be saved.
In truth clarification, I learn from other practitioners and use various ways to save people. During the past ten years, with Teacher's protection, I have come a long way. In whatever I do, Teacher always compassionately encourages me. I just feel that I am improving very slowly and still have a lot of attachments. For example, as soon as I meet with trials, my first reaction is from a human mentality. At times, I don't do well in the three things. Sometimes I am absent minded when I study the Fa, practice the exercises or when sending forth righteous thoughts. I know that the only way to improve is to study the Fa more, advance diligently and cultivate myself so that I will be worthy of Teacher's merciful salvation.
My level is limited. Please point out anything inappropriate.