(Clearwisdom.net) I was fortunate enough to begin the practice of Falun Dafa in 1996. Soon after that I encountered several tests of life and death.
Once when I was on a business trip, my car went so fast that it smashed into the rear end of the car in front of me However, the three of us in the car were unharmed, perhaps because the other two passengers in the car were my coworkers who had a good understanding of Falun Dafa. When we went to the hospital, they said that there were several fatalities caused by car accidents at the same location several days in a row, and that the scene of our accident looked even more awful than the previous ones. But we were blessed because we were unharmed. There were also several other instances like this one that were meant to claim my life. However, I did not have a deep understanding of the Fa back then, and I just happily thought that I was so lucky that Teacher had protected me. At the time I was strongly attached to fame, wealth and affection, and did not study the Fa very diligently.
It was not until my own business failed in 2001 that I started to have more contact with fellow practitioners. After that, through studying the Fa, I gradually came to understand that it was all because I had owed so many debts throughout my different lifetimes, and that Teacher had suffered for me so that later I could smoothly take part in the Fa-rectification cultivation.
My understanding of the great and profound Fa principles is still shallow. However, I have learned to become a good person and become the best of good people by studying the book Zhuan Falun.
Before I obtained the Fa, I was able to talk with eloquence and was capable of impressing others. I was also smart enough to not let others take advantage of me. I did things based on the principle of benefiting myself, and I considered myself a capable person. I used my work to take advantage of others and to gain something good. I also bribed others and took bribes. I harmed others just to benefit myself. Consequently I had all sort of illnesses. As I studied the Fa more and deeper, I slowly learned to hold myself to the standard of the Fa.
In 2002, my company had a major project which would affect my company's future. My manager gave me 80 percent of the estimated grant to accomplish the project. Many coworkers thought that I had insufficient funds to accomplish such a tough project. Nevertheless, I considered it a good opportunity to become acquainted with more people so that I could clarify the truth about Falun Dafa and demonstrate Falun Dafa practitioners' demeanor to others. Wherever I went, I clarified the truth about Falun Dafa and took the goodness of Falun Dafa with me. I was able to successfully complete my project using only 60 percent of the grant, and I returned the rest of the money to my company even though I owed a large personal debt of several hundred thousand yuan. My company did not expect that I would save them so much money, nor did they expect that I would return all the remaining money to them.
When my boss gave me an award, I told a dozen coworkers, "I don't want to accept the reward because our company's budget is tight. I'm a Falun Dafa practitioner and this is how my Teacher has taught me. If you want to thank anyone, please thank my Teacher. I hope you will all tell your friends and relatives to recite 'Falun Dafa is good and Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good' wholeheartedly, and they'll get the same kind of miracle and blessing." Many coworkers told me later that they had happily taken my advice. My coworkers have all been supporting me in doing truth-clarification work for Falun Dafa.
At the end of 2003, my husband, who is also a practitioner, and I had a strong desire to start a home-based truth clarification materials production site. A practitioner with technical skills came to our home to teach us on December 26. The first day when I started learning my head was confused. I knew that I had a hasty and impatient personality and I would lose my cool easily. The evil demons and the rotten ghosts took advantage of these bad substances to interfere with me. I kept telling myself, "When it's difficult to endure, you can endure it. When it's impossible to do, you can do it.(from Zhuan Falun)" The next day, the evil demons and rotten ghosts used a new trick to make the washer and refrigerator break down so that I had to stop my learning process and focus on fixing the machines. However, my mind was not moved at all, and all I thought about was how much I had not yet learned. The third day, only 2 days before New Year's Eve, the hot water heater and the kitchen fan broke down. My parents and my siblings were supposed to come over to celebrate New Year's Eve with us. My husband became impatient, but I still remained unaffected. The only thing on my mind was being able to save people in the new year by making good use of my skills, as if I was using my supernormal ability at will.
The fellow practitioner left on December 29. Afterwards I took care of some business for my company. It was after 7:00 p.m. when I returned home, and it started to snow heavily outside. I let my husband take a look at the broken machines, but they all started to function well without any repair work. Teacher told us,
"In fact, that is how it is. Why don't you give it a try when you return home. When you are overcoming a real hardship or tribulation, you try it. When it is difficult to endure, try to endure it. When it looks impossible and is said to be impossible, give it a try and see if it is possible. If you can actually do it, you will indeed find: 'After passing the shady willow trees, there will be bright flowers and another village ahead!'" (from Lecture Nine, Zhuan Falun)
Since 2004, wherever I or my husband went for a business trip, we distributed Falun Dafa truth-clarification materials. Although we were up to our ears in debt, whenever we found out that a truth-clarification materials production site needed equipment or funding, we offered our strong support. Through studying the Fa more, we took personal interest more lightly and took saving sentient beings more seriously. Without making any extra pursuit, we were able to pay off our heavy debt. In addition, our bodies and souls also changed completely. Most of our relatives, friends, coworkers, and neighbors have come to understand that Falun Dafa is good, and have offered their help to get involved in work relating to validating the Fa. Most of them have withdrawn from the Chinese Communist Party and its affiliated organizations. Some predestined people have also obtained the Fa.
Working with my husband to make truth clarification materials and to save sentient beings is a process of eliminating our various attachments. Before obtaining the Fa, we cared very much about looking good. Others often said that we were stylish. We were not very strict with ourselves when we dealt with the opposite sex. Consequently, we had hurt each other badly, and we constantly hurt each other intentionally or unintentionally. Our marriage was on the brink of collapse. Luckily, because of Teacher's compassion, we both encountered Falun Dafa.
At the beginning we were not diligent and we failed to hold ourselves strictly to the Fa, and because of this we were heavily indebted. One time I developed a rare loving feeling toward my husband because he had worked on preparing a large amount of truth clarification materials for several days in a row without getting much rest. That night I dreamed of making love with my husband. The next day my husband was angry with me for no reason at all, and my child also had problems in school.
Whenever something goes wrong, I think about Teacher's telling us to look inward. I thought that there must be something wrong with me. I stopped thinking about anything and stopped doing anything, and just calmed my mind to study the Fa. I sent forth righteous thoughts after studying the Fa, and my field quickly became bright and clean. My husband's anger disappeared and my child no longer had any problems. My husband and I have cultivated together and arrived at where we are today, I have already experienced what Teacher said, "In the future when you reach high-level cultivation practice, without my telling you, you will know what to do. By then there will be another state to ensure a harmonious life." (from Lecture Six, Zhuan Falun)
We thank our great Teacher for scooping the two of us up, enduring so much karma for us, constantly thinking about us, and guiding us on the path of fulfilling our prehistoric vows, to ultimately become true and great enlightened beings.
Thank you our great Teacher!
Thank you fellow practitioners!