(Clearwisdom.net) I do not like to openly discuss issues relating to sentimentality because I find it too embarrassing. When I see Minghui/Clearwisdom articles about the attachment of sentimentality, I feel uncomfortable even looking at them. I now realize that I took this attachment to extremes. Looking back over the past two years, I realized I did not rationally and clearly face my problems. In addition, I did not realize I had the attachment of sentimentality. Many times I used human notions to see things, instead of a practitioners righteous thoughts.

Because I am single, whenever I meet someone who may be an appropriate marriage partner, I feel I should get married. When faced with this problem, I could initially treat it with a practitioners mind in the beginning,but gradually, I unconsciously fell into the attachment of sentimentality and forgot I was a practitioner.

After my first experience , I tried very hard to transcend the attachment. I participated in many Dafa activities, but the thoughts of sentimentality always came to my mind. They were not as strong as before, but I could not get rid of them completely. I could not find the true reasons behind my attachment, and this worried me. During an activity early last year, I met a practitioner. I suddenly had a thought , "Maybe this practitioner could be my marriage partner." On one hand, I saw that the practitioner's side that cultivated well was sacred. On the other hand, I was surprised I could meet someone to cultivate with, and at the same time could be a marriage partner. I immediately realized that cultivation is very serious, so my heart was not moved at that time. After that, my heart was gradually moved but I did not realize it. I was controlled by so-called predestined relationships. We occasionally met and I helped him a few times. While associating with him, I treated him as a potential marriage partner in my mind. Master reminded me many times, and I also tried to control my thoughts and behavior. But unfortunately I still totally fell into it. Since I was away from home at the time, I studied the Fa calmly and I did not have a chance to meet with him, so my heart calmed down quickly.

But the test did not stop. As soon as I relaxed myself, the bad thoughts came to my mind immediately. I joined the Divine Land Marching Band thinking I could reduce the attachment of sentiment. But the attachment of sentiment completely surfaced. I did not suppress the bad thoughts, and my human notions did not change. Deep inside, I still asked for it. The format of the test changed all the time. Sometimes I did not even know when I hurt someone's feelings. Sometimes I had many misunderstandings with others. Finally, I felt everything was against me and I did not even want to go out to participate in activities. Sometimes I could not even stay at home. My work was also affected. I told myself in my heart that I could not let it go on like this.

I did not study the Fa with a calm mind. Although I studied the Fa extensively, I still treated my attachment of sentimentality with human notions. I made up my mind that I had to overcome this, and could not walk the path arranged by the old forces. I had to get rid of this completely in my mind. Then I went to Hong Kong to clarify the truth. During that time, I studied the Fa, sent forth righteous thoughts and clarified the truth with other practitioners. My mind gradually calmed down. Every day I went back to my dorm after clarifying the truth and I could see that Master was smiling in his photo. I felt very encouraged and enlightened on a deeper level the importance of saving sentient beings. Although I was still tested sometimes, I gradually began to overcome it. One time while sending forth righteous thoughts, I saw that one of my previous lives was very absurd. Then I understood why I had such big tribulations and a deep attachment to sentimentality.

After I returned to Taiwan, my attachment to fear when facing people was reduced a lot. I started to pay attention to the quality of my Fa study. I also gradually broke through my human notions, now using righteous thoughts to treat other people and fellow practitioners. No matter what kind of mistakes we made in the past, we are in Dafa cultivation today. As long as we continue to walk the path Master arranged for us well, we can certainly break through all obstacles.

The above is just my personal understanding. Please kindly point out anything inappropriate.