(Clearwisdom.net) Last night, after reading the article "Negating the Old Forces' Arrangements and Walking the Upright Path Arranged by Master" (http://www.clearwisdom.net/emh/articles/2007/9/28/89985.html), I was deeply touched. The practitioner wrote, "I told myself that I must remain steadfast and be diligent, diligent, and more diligent. I began to cherish each minute, always found time to study the Fa, and was strict with myself in my daily life and at work. I tried to pay attention to minor details, and made my daily life simple and economical. While washing clothes and cleaning the floor, I recited the Fa. For many years, I have never watched TV or gone shopping for entertainment, but devoted myself to cultivation."
Upon reading the article, I was shocked and felt extremely ashamed. So far, I have been able to walk on my cultivation path during the persecution, however, is my heart clear like pure jade? And is my heart focused? No. I am always swayed by personal gains and losses, and I do not put Dafa in the most important position. I have been lost in the ordinary society, and I always think about how to do everyday things well, how to avoid suffering any losses and not be looked down upon by others, and how to maintain a good interpersonal relationship. This mentality is not worthy of a Dafa disciple. Although I am doing the three things, am I strict with myself? How many times do I persevere in doing the group exercises in sync with others throughout China in the morning? Regarding sending forth righteous thoughts every hour when I am at work, although I know it is time to send righteous thoughts, I still sit in front of the computer, watch TV, or browse everyday people's websites. Last night, when I accompanied my child home at 6:55 p.m., I was then supposed to send righteous thoughts. At the time, I did nothing but accompany my child while watching TV until past 9:00 p.m. I have wasted a lot of time in this way. In reality, so many evil beings are supposed to be eliminated by us, and so many illegally detained practitioners are waiting for our strengthening with righteous thoughts. But numbness, pursuit of comfort and so many attachments have kept me from moving forward rapidly. I am extremely repentant.
Master taught us, "This instant is precious beyond measure." ("Teaching the Fa in the City of Chicago" 2005) I hope that in this unprecedented moment, the practitioners who have the same attachments as mine can quickly become clearheaded, melt into the Fa and genuinely cultivate themselves.
September 24, 2007