(Clearwisdom.net) Since the incidents at Sujiatun came to light, some practitioners have been unable to understand how such things could happen to those who would sooner give up their lives than their practice of Falun Dafa. I would like to share my understanding.
In 2001, I was sentenced to three years in a forced labor camp. As a result of the tortures I suffered, my whole body was covered with sores that oozed pus and blood. I was unable to walk normally and had to remain in bed 24 hours a day. I would have to get up two or three times just to finish a bowl of rice porridge. I was extremely weak, and my greatest wish was to die. At the time, all I could think was that I was suffering too much and that I could not take any more. But I knew I would never be "transformed" or give up my practice of Dafa, and I knew that my death would mean consummation.
When I look back now, however, I can see that these thoughts were not based on Dafa and did not belong to a Fa-rectification practitioner. They illustrated, rather, the old forces' selfish path of letting go of life and death for personal consummation. The old method of cultivation also required people to let go of life and death, but we are cultivating during Fa-rectification, and we have to fulfill our oath to bring salvation to sentient beings. We do not recognize the old forces' arrangement, and we do not walk the path the old forces set up. Do we let go of life and death for personal consummation? Or do we let go of them while safeguarding the Fa, bringing salvation to sentient beings, and completing the path that Master has planned for us?
This is my personal understanding. Kindly point out my mistakes.
May 22, 2006