(Clearwisdom.net) Cultivation is extremely serious, especially as we walk the final path and the Fa has higher requirements for each of us. At the same time, the evil seizes every chance to take advantage of loopholes in our cultivation to persecute us.
On the evening of February 5, a co-worker called me and said that her schoolmate wanted to read the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party. I promised to deliver the book to her home the next morning. When morning arrived, the ground was covered with a vast expanse of white snow. My husband said, "The snow is so thick outside. Don't go out today." I was determined to go. I thought: "If a person reads the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party, their true self will be awakened. It is an important thing and shouldn't be delayed, not to mention that I already gave my word."
Another way that I validate Dafa is delivering letters that clarify the truth. I deliver four letters a day. I have never stopped, and believe that I shouldn't stop just because of a little difficulty. So despite the snow, I strengthened my righteous thoughts and stepped out the door. I held righteous thoughts and righteous actions on the way and everything went smoothly. I delivered the book to my coworker, sent out the letters, and clarified the truth to someone that I met.
On my way home, I recalled what I had done and said and checked to see if it conformed to my xinxing standard. However, when I was almost home, the bicycle handle turned, and I fell to the ground. My legs were caught under the bike. Because there was ice under the snow, I knew that the injury was serious. I thought: "I hope it won't influence my meditation tonight." But I immediately realized that this thought was wrong, and selfish. I didn't realize that the evil had taken advantage of a loophole in my mind.
I made an effort to get home and I prepared the meal as usual as if nothing had happened. However, my legs didn't cooperate. I gritted my teeth and persisted. My husband became aware of my injury and stung me with words. I was a little confused, wondering if I really should have gone out, but I immediately negated the thought. "Validating Dafa is absolutely not wrong. I was upset, which means that I had interference." At once I calmed down and sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the interference. I quickly remembered that I am a cultivator in the Fa-rectification period. After I calmed down and studied the Fa, I enlightened that it was the thought I had at noon on my way home that was not righteous that was taken advantage of by the evil. I should not have accepted it. I should have negated it. I also found an attachment to competition deep in my mind. I was cynical and didn't achieve the state of being quiet and without pursuit.
In the afternoon, my left knee and lower leg swelled up, making it difficult to walk. The leg couldn't bend and was stiff, as if it was splinted. I had to be carried on or off the bed. I knew that there could be a problem with the bone. I clearly knew that as a true cultivator, this was just a test of my understanding in cultivation. I should firmly believe in Master and the Fa. I shouldn't be deluded by this misleading appearance.
Master said in "Teaching the Fa at the 2004 Chicago Conference:"
"We're fundamentally negating all of their things, and all of, and only, the things you do while negating and getting rid of them is mighty-virtue. It's not that you're cultivating amidst the ordeals they created. Rather, you are to walk your own path well while not acknowledging them, not even acknowledging the elimination of their ordeals' manifestations."
I strengthened my righteous thoughts: I will use my actions to validate Dafa and exhibit the wonderful state that a Dafa disciple achieves in cultivation. Once I understood that, a broad road was extended before me and my leg felt much better.
Each day I spent a lot of time studying the Fa. I read through all of Master's lectures and all the articles from 2004 to 2005, and fixed the characters in three copies of Zhuan Falun according to Master's instructions. I persevered in sending forth righteous thoughts on the hour 8-9 times a day, and doing the exercises. When doing the standing exercises it was hard to stand, so I gritted my teeth to continue. When doing the meditation, my left leg couldn't cross. I then crossed one leg.
When my relatives learned about my situation, they all came to visit me. They said, "Even under your clothes, it can be seen that the leg is quite swollen. You are still enduring it. The bone must be fractured." Some of them wanted to send me to the hospital. (I had no conception of hospital. At the time when my work unit bought medical insurance for us, I willingly gave up the benefit, thinking that I am Master's disciple and a human being walking on the path to godhood. The hospital was for a normal person, not for me). They then said that they would bring a doctor to my home. I refused their kind care. I said with a smile, "I know very well this is not a big problem for a practitioner. Bone is similar to blood. If the molecules are dense, it is bone; if they are thin, it is blood. They are the same for me." I took the opportunity to clarify the truth to them. Some said, "You are so confident." I said, "It's not confidence but firm belief." I had frequently clarified the truth to them before. However, they all worked in places like government, schools, and judicial administration, thus their perceptions were all influenced by the government propaganda. "I will take this opportunity to help them become clear-minded," I thought.
After they left, my husband said, "Even though you are suffering so much, you still clarified the truth. In my opinion, you are a true cultivator. Why didn't Master protect you?" I said, "You want me to shut up. It's impossible. I live for it. I'm a true practitioner. Master is protecting me all the time. If it was not for Master's protection, I don't know what would have happened. I may have lost my life. The karmic relationship is so complicated, which is beyond a human's comprehension. Besides, suffering is not a bad thing. Cultivation must include suffering." I clearly eliminated all sorts of interference.
Since I had to stay home, I collected email addresses and fax numbers and sent them to the Minghui/Clearwisdom website so that practitioners overseas could clarify the truth and persuade people to withdraw from the CCP. Although I had trouble walking, I still leaned on a stick to do housework and cook. I had no thought of tribulations. I recovered very quickly. On about the fifth day, I abandoned the stick and walked by supporting myself with my hand. After one week, I could walk without any support. I then wanted to deliver the letters I prepared. After I left home, the normal 20 minute walk took me over one hour. When my daughter saw that, she said, "I can deliver the letters. I will do it well." I then prepared the letters, sent forth righteous thoughts, and gave the letters to her. She really did do it well.
One week later, the left leg could bend a little, so I performed the mediation with one leg crossed. Later, I gradually forced my legs into the double crossed position. At first I did 5 minutes, then 10 minutes. It was just so painful; however it was also tempering my diamond-like will. One evening less than 20 days later when I was sitting in meditation, I thought: I've already been able to do 15 minutes, today I will sit in full lotus position for the whole process. Holding this firm thought, I double crossed my legs and turned on the music. I was completely in trance. I sat in full lotus position for one hour and finished the meditation. I myself was also surprised. Without Master's care and strengthening and only depending on my will, it is not possible. I told my daughter about this miracle. My daughter also felt very happy.
After my husband stung me with harsh words, he had a toothache for over two weeks. When he found that my leg recovered so quickly, he was also surprised. One day, he said, "You legs are agile again. I want to buy you a new bicycle or have this one repaired so that it is safe for you to ride and we will feel assured. I joyfully agreed. After he had my bicycle fixed, his toothache amazingly disappeared.
Later on, I continued to do my job by bicycle. I visited several of my relatives. When they saw me, they were also surprised, saying, "It's a miracle." I persuaded them to withdraw from the CCP. In some families, all the family members have withdrawn from the CCP. Some even expressed that they would learn Dafa later. My co-worker to whom I had taken the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party on the day it was snowing withdrew from the CCP.
Through negating and eliminating the tribulations, I deeply understood that as a Dafa disciple, in whatever situation or circumstances, we should believe in Master and the Fa as firmly as a rock so that we can walk straight on our cultivation path in the Fa-rectification period, become true Dafa disciples and fulfill the grand vows we made before history.