30. Finding Meaning in My Life

  By a practitioner in China   

  Veteran practitioners have already experienced what I am about to discuss. The purpose of writing this article is to sincerely encourage those who have just started this cultivation practice, as well as those who have not yet begun. I hope you can all share my joy in finding new meaning in life, in getting rid of illnesses, and in elevating one¨s character from practicing Falun Dafa.   

  In ancient and modern times, the most difficult thing in a family for a young woman is to get along with her mother-in-law. I do not mean to make critical comments about other people, but the real cause of all the hardship in my family was that we were all against Truthfulness, Compassion,  Forbearance.  In short, before I began to practice, my family was already on the brink of breaking apart. My husband and I were on the verge of divorce. In order to release the pain in my heart, I used to read some spiritual books, but they didn't give me much help. At that time I felt that I had no way out. My daughter and I had illnesses. My family fought all the time and were cold to one another. I was suffering from both within and without. I felt hopeless, and didn't know how I should spend the rest of my life. For the past ten years, our rancor had piled up mountain-high. There are sayings like "Take one step back, the ocean is broader and the sky is clearer;" "Forgiving others is one's joy;" and "No excuse for getting ill from being angry." I understood these sayings theoretically, and I tried to smile at my sadness. But my heart didn't feel that way. My body and mind were suffering all the time.   

  On October 9, 1998, I began practicing Falun Dafa. When a practitioner handed Zhuan Falun to me, she told me that this book was very precious. I didn't realize that I had started a new life as I opened this book. Although I love reading books, I had never found a book like Zhuan Falun that could inspire me so much. he words in this book are of great compassion and awe-inspiring righteousness. I couldn't wait to read through the whole book right away. My point of view about life was changed greatly, though I still had many questions in my mind. What really amazed me was that I could forgive my husband and his mother, unbelievably, from my heart. I discovered the things that I had done wrong, that had caused me such unforgettable pain and had haunted me for such a long time. I was contrite about hurting their feelings. he most difficult step was to admit my own wrongdoing and not complain about others; even bow to the person that hurt me. Ten years of hatred was released in one day. Only Zhuan Falun could have such a power!   

  A few days after I read the book, my husband suddenly got sick. He was sent to the emergency room. I stayed with him the whole time and took care of him with a sincere heart. I remembered one time when I had arthritis and wanted to see a doctor, he accused me of pretending sickness just to spend money. Now when he was sick, I took time of from work to take care of him. I could finally return his hatred with my virtue. After this adversity, my family gained good fortune and has been reunited. I know that my husband's illness was not accidental. It came on so fiercely, yet disappeared all of a sudden. And its outcome was that it has brought us from the edge of divorce to reunion.   

  After that, I played a tape from Master Li's nine-day lecture series for my family, and in this way, they came to understand about improving character. They also learned that Dafa practitioners are good people who are guided by "Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance." Other family members have also benefited, even though they don't practice. For example, my mother-in-law used to be very devout in worshipping her god, while she cursed people behind their backs. Now she is careful about what she says. Furthermore, she used to not cook for my family. She probably thought that she wouldn't gain benefits from helping her daughter-in-law. We were constantly at odds with each other and helping each other was the last thing on our minds. Now, my mother-in-law prepares the meals every day. When I come home from work, everything is finished. Falun Dafa can help people to regain their kind nature.   

  After several months of practicing cultivation, I truly realized the truth that mind and matter are one thing. At that moment I woke up: birth, old age, illnesses, and death are facts of life in this world. The most terrible thing is a person who cannot distinguish between righteousness and evil. In the past, I always judged people based on my opinion of what they said and did. Now, when thinking about something or someone, I make sure that my mind follows the characteristic of the universe!Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance.