Identifying the Causes for Incorrect Posture When Sending Forth Righteous Thoughts
(Clearwisdom.net) It had been three years since I discovered a problem I had when sending forth righteous thoughts. As soon as I closed my eyes, my right hand that was supposed to stay erect in front of my chest was falling flat. But I wasn't aware of it until a fellow practitioner told me about it. As I continued to study the Fa and searched within, I realized that it was caused by a serious attachment that had existed for a long time. When I identified the root cause, I solved the problem quickly and elevated my understanding on the Fa.
When a fellow practitioner pointed out my problem, I immediately thought of a Fa lecture where Teacher pointed out the same problem. I decided that I must have fallen asleep due to evil beings' interference from other dimensions. I told myself that this was a big problem and kept reminding myself to pay attention and stay awake. From then on, I would open up my eyes every once in a while to check on my right hand, while I sent forth righteous thoughts. Each time I opened up my eyes, my right hand posture was perfectly fine. After a while, I decided that I must have overcome this problem, but I decided that I should continue to be vigilant.
However, the fellow practitioner told me some bad news. "It is as if your right hand is doing sit-ups. It stays erect a few minutes and then falls flat for a few minutes." What was disconcerting was that I didn't even feel my right hand move at all. I felt very anxious and tried many ways to rectify the problem, including solutions suggested by fellow practitioners published in "Minghui Weekly." Finally, I had no choice but to send forth righteous thoughts with my eyes open. The problem appeared to be resolved and fellow practitioners were very happy for me. They suggested that I share my experience so that those practitioners with similar problems may learn from my lesson.
I began to practice Falun Gong because I wanted to be cured of my many illnesses. I had tried traditional Chinese medicine, western medicine, acupuncture, art healing, sports, qigong and workouts in the gym, but nothing worked. After practicing Falun Gong for a mere six days, my body was cleansed and I became perfectly healthy. I was so excited that I couldn't describe my immense gratitude to Teacher.
However, I always felt uncomfortable each time I finished practicing the sitting meditation. I felt very dizzy and wanted to sleep. Veteran Falun Gong practitioners told me that there must have been some problem with my head and Teacher must have been cleansing my head. Therefore, I didn't think much about it. It is true that I suffered headaches and dizziness since I was little. I used to need a lot of sleep. I must have spent half of every day sleeping. The doctors told me it was because there was insufficient blood supply to my brain.
Before I practiced Falun Gong, a man who had the ability to look through a human body told me, "The blood vessels in your brain were not developed well. Unlike other people's thick and straight blood vessels, the blood vessels in your brain are fine and messy." I used to complain about it often. "People with visible disabilities tend to gain more sympathy. No one can see the disabilities in my brain. Even when I suffer from headache or dizziness, my body temperature would not go up. When I am in agony, people accuse me of pretending."
While many fellow practitioners were memorizing the Fa, I couldn't even memorize one small paragraph within two weeks. For a long time, I was unable to memorize the Fa. This time I made up my mind to memorize the Fa, but I managed to memorize only three pages after 30 days. Each time I sent forth righteous thoughts, I would say to myself at first, "I am Li Hongzhi's disciple. I shall never acknowledge anyone else's arrangements. I completely deny the old forces and their arrangements. I shall accept only the path Teacher has arranged for me. I shall eliminate the bad thoughts, karma, bad notions, and external interference in my mind. I shall eliminate all the evil elements that hinder me from memorizing the Fa or causing me to fall asleep when I send forth righteous thoughts."
My right hand however, continued to collapse and I continued to have difficulty memorizing the Fa. A fellow practitioner told me that my body was enveloped with a dark layer of notions and suggested that I focus on eliminating these bad notions when I send forth righteous thoughts. I was very confused. After all, I always added the thought to eliminate bad notions. Why do they still exist and hang on to my body? I was clueless.
One day when I was having a hard time memorizing the Fa again, I suddenly thought of one thing. Could it be that I still believe that the blood supply to my brain is insufficient and I am born with such a disability? I am practicing Falun Gong and Teacher has already arranged my path. I must never accept any of the old force arrangements. That's right. I must disintegrate it with righteous thoughts. I asked for Teacher's help to eliminate this arrangement by the old forces. I felt that a thick layer of substance was slowly removed from my body. In a short while, I felt very clearheaded and my body felt lighter. In fact, I now feel clearheaded whether I keep my eyes open or closed while sending forth righteous thoughts. In the past I felt nothing but serenity when I sent forth righteous thoughts, but now I also feel very clearheaded. I have finally nailed the root cause of my problems. I have also completely eliminated such notions forced upon me by the old forces, such as "insufficient blood supply to my brain" and "born with disabilities in my brain." Fellow practitioners then told me that my right hand is remaining in a perfect posture and no longer goes limp.
I have learned a lesson that those thoughts departing from the Fa, regardless of severity, will not be eliminated if we don't target them when we send forth righteous thoughts. It is like a person ignoring you and continuing his work when you fail to mention him. Isn't it like breeding evil? How awful.
I suggest that practitioners who become muddle-headed or exhibit bad postures should face and solve the problem immediately. There must be attachments or notions that need to be eliminated. Studying the Fa and genuinely cultivating ourselves is the only way to identify and eliminate these notions and attachments. This is the way we get to elevate our levels of cultivation continuously until we reach what the Fa requires of us at each level.